but being with you was like going to a place that I had never been before

than after you fell asleep I just

laid there staring up at those

cheap fluorescent stars you have stuck on your ceiling

after a while

they just started forming a pattern

this weird glow in the dark pattern that linked together our entire relationship

and for the first time everything seemed clear to me

like one logical progression

it felt like you I were the greatest plan ever made and i had nothing to do

with it

being with you made me feel that maybe I didn't have to keep fighting anymore

because it felt like I was actually living

and that for once in my life I wouldn't have to work so hard at being happy

that it could just happen

nothing will ever hurt me as much

as your reaction to that same experience

what? what?

you wanna go hang out at the library and pretend like nothing happened

I can't do that

I'm sorry, I don't know what to say

look, you don't have to say anything

I have to go

have fun in Italy