new people and I was really shy. I tried to overcome my shyness so that I could

become popular. My goal was to you know become one of the cool kids, join a

sports team, get invited to parties you know... One day at lunch I tried to find

somewhere to sit, and I sat with the cool kids.

They all stared at me like they like they just glared at me and they thought

it was strange for me to sit at their table cuz like at my school I was sort

of known as like "the Weirdo". I don't know why they thought I was weird.

I tried to join their conversation but they all ignored me. Then the next day one of

the cool kids, she was like one of the most popular

girls in school, her name was Mona. Mona asked me if I wanted to hang out with

her after school and I was confused to why she was talking to me. I said, "yeah."

We became really close afterwards. We would share secrets. We would hang out after school.

Two more people came along and we became like a really close group. The four of us,

we were inseparable. I think we were like the friends that

everybody wanted. Like we would always hang out after school, go to the mall, the

movies parties and it felt really great. It just felt nice to have all the

attention. But I sort of changed. I started to become like a really mean

awful person. I was really mean to people and I thought that maybe it was Mona who

changed me because she was known to be a really mean to people. She would always

talk about people behind their backs. I remember I asked her one day why she

wanted to be my friend and she felt sorry for me

and she wanted to help me try and become cool instead of this weird loser loner.

I didn't know how to react to that. Afterwards I told her that I needed some

time away from like the crew and her especially, because I needed to find

myself because the person that I was being it like it

wasn't me it was this version of Mona. Afterwards I found myself again and

things are better now. I made new friends and I learned from that experience and

learn to find myself again.