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  • Hey I'm Matt, 28 years old, from Durham, North Carolina

  • I now live in Maryland and

  • I'm the type of guy, I feel like I'm

  • sitting on a winning lottery ticket.

  • I mean I have a beautiful wife, two

  • beautiful girls, and beautiful family.

  • I have a job that I love. Yeah life is so great.

  • But you know it wasn't always like that.

  • When I was ten years old I was on

  • the computer and I remember looking at a little pop-up

  • and that was like the

  • first spiral... I remember my first video

  • that I watched in fifth grade and every day

  • I would just go back to my room

  • after school, after the bus ride and look at porn.

  • That's like my whole middle school...

  • Up until February 2011

  • Valentine's Day showed up and coincidentally

  • my computer also broke.

  • Around that time and I stopped watching porn.

  • I couldn't look at look at porn for a

  • good six months and only then I

  • realized what a porn-free life was like.

  • My head like physically felt lighter.

  • I could think clearer, I was less

  • anxious, I was more confident, I was less

  • jealous of other people. I remember only

  • thinking about just getting through

  • the day so I could look at porn and

  • and that be my high. And then post-porn

  • the whole day can be a high. You know,

  • I'll wake up and life is good.

  • And I'd take out my guitar or go riding or hang out

  • my friends or just enjoy the sun, just

  • enjoy people compared to like being in my room

  • by myself. I just remember what

  • a black-and-white moment that was for me.

  • Then MiMi and I got married,

  • had a honeymoon and a week after

  • our honeymoon we had just moved to a

  • new place, I had a new job and yeah, one day

  • I was just off my guard and clicked on a porn website.

  • One thing led to another and I had a

  • fall and I remember being so confused because

  • we just got married and just had our

  • honeymoon and life is supposed to be good

  • and all of a sudden I'm looking at porn again.

  • And I just couldn't believe it.

  • She could just tell there was a difference in me.

  • I'd go two months and fall, another two months

  • and fall and we went through a whole

  • year of this craziness.

  • One day she said, "Look, you talk

  • sometimes about how porn can ruin marriages.

  • Well it can ruin our marriage...

  • It can end our marriage."

  • This reality hit so I started thinking about

  • what what was working

  • when I wasn't looking at porn, before we

  • were married? I was actively fighting for

  • my future bride. And what happened when we

  • got married is that I stopped because of the pride.

  • I had accomplished my goal and

  • that's when I realized the fight doesn't end

  • on the wedding day. The fight continues

  • every single day. Fighting for her and our love

  • and fighting for each other and our future family

  • is what saved me. And that's the kind

  • of love that I fight for.

Hey I'm Matt, 28 years old, from Durham, North Carolina

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マットの話。私はポルノを見ることをやめて、私は幸せになったことはありませんでした (Matt's Story: I Quit Watching Porn And I've Never Been Happier)

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