But that is too neat and we know it deep down.

しかし、それはあまりにもきれいごとで、私たちは心の底ではそれを知っている。

We know that there is also, alongside this, something a bit more complicated we use the idea of necessity to avoid.

これと並行して、私たちが必然性という考え方を使って避けている、もう少し複雑なものがあることも知っている。

We work so hard because we are in terror of stillness, because being scared of the world offers the most respectable distraction from a dread of our own minds, because we have no idea how to let anyone know us outside of our achievements, because it seems inconceivable that we have any value beyond what we do, because we were early on in the art of being terrified and we are still too young to question our elders, because we use the noise from without to drown the murmurs from within, because we can't read poetry for we despise anything that doesn't have a charted purpose or goal and that therefore threatens to collide us with the unexpected, because we don't allow ourselves to be acquainted with the night, because if we started with the questions we have no idea where we might have to go and what might need to be discarded, because we are in flight from untenable sadness and regret, because we haven't got too many or even any real friends, because few people ever just held us quietly, because we have no idea what to do with ourselves other than run, because we find peace so much harder than war and because the real work might lie elsewhere.

私たちが懸命に働くのは、静寂を恐れているからであり、世界を恐れることは、自分自身の心への恐怖から逃れる最も立派な気晴らしだからである、恐怖に怯える術を早くから身につけ、年長者を疑うにはまだ若すぎるからだ。内なるざわめきをかき消すために、外からの雑音を利用するからだ、夜と知り合うことを許さないから、疑問から始めたらどこへ行き、何を捨てなければならないのか見当がつかないから、やり場のない悲しみや後悔から逃避しているから、本当の友達が少ないから、静かに抱きしめてくれる人がほとんどいないから、逃げる以外に自分自身