I wasactuallytoldonce I wastooexoticfor a rolewhichtalkingaboutmy, sortofinsecuritiesaboutmydualheritage, maybejustthink, well, maybethisisn't theindustryforme, butthingsarechangingand I thinkthat's reallyexciting.
I alwaysloved, youknow, dressingup, butitwasalwayssomethingthat I justlovedoingwithfriendsandthingsand I lovedoingschoolplays, but I neverreallyconsideredthatitcouldbesomethingthat I wouldactuallyendupbeingabletodoas a jobmostofmytimeatschoolandcollegeandthings.
I didn't reallywanttogointhefirstplace, so I endedupdroppingoutofuniversityandthenhavingtosortof, youknow, justsitdownwithmyselfandthink, okay, whatdo I actuallywanttodo?
So I wentalongonthesamedayhedidandjustgot a tasteforitandstartedtomeet, youknow, otherpeopleofmyagewhoweresortofthinkingthattheywantedtopursue a careerin, intheaterandacting.
Andso I wentalongtothisaudition, itwasobviouslyfor a T.
そして、このオーディションに参加したのですが、それは明らかにTのためのものでした。
V.
V.
Showand I wassonervous.
ショーでは、とても緊張しました。
I was I waslikeyouknowproperlyshakingandthenafterlikethisisthesecondtime I wentin I justthoughtwell I'm justgonnatryandhavefunwithitbecauseyouknowyoucangetyourselfsowoundupthinkingoham I doingthatright?
震えていたのですが、2回目に入ったときに、これでいいのかなと思って、楽しんでみようと思いました。
Am I doingthisrightwhenreallyyouknowyourjobasanactivisttoshow, youknowshowtheteamwhatyoucandoandwhatyoucanofferandifthat's notwhattheywantthenthat's okay.
I hadsomerealaroundthesametime, somereallybadauditionexperienceswith, youknow, evenforthingslikelittleshortfilmswhere I wasactuallytoldonce I wastooexoticfor a role, whichwas, youknow, again, talkingaboutmysortofinsecuritiesaboutmydualheritage.
Especiallyyouknow, of a, anactorofcolor, youknow, tobeabletothink, hey, I canbein, youknow, in a fantasyshow, whichislike I saidsomething I neverthoughtthat I wouldbeabletodo.
Youknow, I wasthegenerationthatgrewupwithLordtheRings, likemybrotherandmycousinsandmylittlefriends, we'd all, youknow, runaroundintheparkwithstickshittingeachother.
Soobviouslythenwhenthisshowcamearoundandtheauditioncamearound I wassoexcitedbecausethechildinmewasjustjumpingforjoybecauseitwasyouknow, somethingthat I really, reallyloved.
だから、この番組が来て、オーディションを受けたときには、子供のように大喜びしました。
SotheroleofAlinainShadowandbonecameupand I rememberlookingatallthebreakdownsand I sawthattheywerelookingfor a mixedraceactor, I feltsoconnectedtothecharacter.
それで、『Shadow and bone』のアリーナ役の話が来て、すべての内訳を見ていたら、混血の俳優を募集していたのを覚えていて、そのキャラクターにとても親近感を覚えました。
Andoneofthethingsthat I reallyfeltexcitedaboutwasthefactthat, youknow, I couldseethatthey'vemadethechangethey'vemade, youknow, Alinainto a mixedracecharacterandshewasn't necessarilyinthebooks.
And I waslike, okay, they'renotshyingawayfromthelessenjoyablepartsofbeingmixedraceandnotshyingawayfromtheracismthattheasianpeoplefaceandthatwasreallyimportanttome.
Umsoyeah, thenafter a coupleofroundsaudition, remember I'vebeentold, youknow, in a fewdaystimeyoukindofhearthe, theanswerand I washereathomeand I gotthecallfrommyagentand I thinkwealljustsortof, I don't knowifscreamed a lot, I wassoexcitedandthenhadtowait a fewmonthsbeforeweactuallystartedfilming.
I think a fewofushavebeencastalreadyand I wasdoingchemistryreadswith a bunchofdifferentactorsforMelandtheywerealsosolovelyandtalented, buttherewassomethingthat I feltwasmissing.
UmSowehadthatfirstchemistryand I wasreallyexcitedandthenhecamebackagainandafterthesecondchemistryread, I coaxedhimintohavinglunchwithmeand I satthereand I said, well, we'regonnahavesomuchfunandtherestofthecastareamazingandreallymetthemand, youknow, talkingabout, youknow, alloftheexcitingthingsthataregonnahappen.
I thinktherewillbelotsofdebateaboutwhat's rightandwhat's wrong.
何が正しくて何が間違っているのか、様々な議論がなされると思います。
And I hopethatpeoplewillwatchtheshowandseethisdiversecastandbeabletofindsomeoneinthecastin a characterintheshowthattheyreallyrelatetobecausethatisimportant.
And I thinkitcanitcanmakethedifferenceforsomeone, especiallyifyou'regoingthroughthekindofidentitycrisisthatsomanypeoplegothroughintermsofraceandsexualityandthingslikethat.
So I hopethat, youknow, peoplecanwatchthisshowandandsortoffeelseenandheard.
だから、この番組を見て、見られている、聞かれていると感じてもらえればと思います。
MmYeah, I actuallythought I wasn't goingtohavesocialmediaespeciallywhentheshowcameoutbecausebecauseofyouknow, itcanfeelmaybe a bitinvasiveorthatyouoweyou, Oh, you'refollowingyourself.
I thinktoyouknow, togooutofyourwaytocreatecontentorwhatever.
私が思うに、わざわざコンテンツを作ったりするのは、そのためだと思います。
And I thinkit's importantforyouknow, formyyouknow, wellbeingtorememberthatlike, youknow, I I don't existforotherpeopleand I existformeand I wanttobeabletosharemyexperiencesandthingsfromtheshow, behindthescenesstuff.
Actually, I wrote a fewshortfilmscriptsmorejustforfunandjustforsomethingtodo.
実は、私は遊び半分で短編映画の脚本をいくつか書いていました。
I reallylovefilmand I feellikeif I were a betterwordsmith, I wouldhavewritten a book, but I'm justnot, I'm waymoreof a visualpersonand I thinkespeciallybeingsoinvolvedintheshowandbeingonsetsoofteninshadowandboneandgettingtoseeeveryonebehindthecameraandalltheworkthatwentintoit, itwasreallyexciting.
I thinksomeoneelsewouldprobablyhavetowritethescript, butdefinitelysomething I'd beinterestedindoingokayinfiveyears.
おそらく誰かが脚本を書かなければならないと思いますが、5年後には絶対にやってみたいと思っています。
I think I wouldlovetobeumyouknow, wellmaybeworkingonmyfirst, myfirstumDirectoraldebutand I'd lovetobelivingsomewhereoutinthesticksinthecountrysidejustgettingfreshairoutofthecity.
そして、どこか田舎の方に住んで、都会の空気を吸いたいと思っています。
Um I'm fairlyeasilyplease, so I don't reallymindwhathappenstome.
あの......私は結構簡単に喜んでくれるので、何があっても気にしないんです。
Umbut I hopethatyougettohavelikemore, moreadventuresandmoreexperiencedsystem, that's sortofwhat I'vehadinShannonBone, butwe'llsee.
でも、もっともっと冒険して、経験豊富なシステムを手に入れてほしいですね。
Yeah, yeah.
ええ、ええ。
I wasactuallytoldonce I wastooexoticfor a rolewhichtalkingaboutmy, sortofinsecuritiesaboutmydualheritage, maybejustthink, well, maybethisisn't theindustryforme, butthingsarechangingand I thinkthat's reallyexciting.
ジェシー・メイ・リー、シャドー&ボーン、ソーシャルメディア、アイデンティティを語る|On The Rise|Harper's BAZAAR(ハーパーズ バザー (Jessie Mei Li Talks Shadow and Bone, Social Media & Identity | On The Rise | Harper’s BAZAAR)