- Let's do this shit.

Year three.

Ya'll been asking for it, so here we are.

My name is Billie Eilish.

Billie Eilish.

My name is Billie Eilish.

I think it's October 18th, 2017.

Its October 18th, 2018.

October 18th, 2019.

I'm 15.

I'm 16.

I'm 17.

I have 257,000.

I have 6.3 million.

40.7 million.

That's great.

That's so...

Can you, wow, that's crazy.

1.13 million.

9.6 million.

152 million Google searches of me.

Bing?

Who the fuck uses Bing?

[laughing]

It's a picture of me and Charlie XCX.

Isn't it the one about me smiling?

That's a lot.

10 million.

That's my face.

No, that makes me feel good though,

because sometimes the most liked picture's like,

you with like, another celebrity or you with somebody else,

but that's just me.

That's shit's hard, come on.

I'd say probably Khalid, which is weird because he's like,

just a homie of mine.

Oh, Hailey Bieber, Justin Bieber, Young Thug, Avril Levigne

Ariana Grande, Kid Cudi, Ty Dolla Sign, oh, Teyana Taylor.

God, there's so many.

But like Drake, come on.

Drake?

Drake is like, the nicest dude I've ever spoken to.

I mean, I've only like, texted him, but he's so nice.

Like, he does not need to be nice, you know what I mean?

He's at a level in his life where

he doesn't need to be nice, but he is, you know?

Being Apple's Up Next Artist.

Jeez.

Jeez!

I did Ellen last week, Jimmy Fallon, so many festivals.

I met Takashi Murakami.

I went to his studio.

Dave Grohl's daughter did a cover of my song.

He played guitar for her at a talent show, I think.

There's been a lot of shit that's happened in the last year.

Ugh, my skin was so bad.

Jesus.

Look, I'm glowing now.

Yes!

My skin got better.

I was the season opener for SNL.

I just sold out a headlining arena tour.

Did Howard Stern, Rolling Stone cover, Elle cover,

V cover, Billboard cover, released the album,

had a number one single, had a number two single

for like 16 weeks straight or some shit, right.

Biggest selling album of the year.

I have Drake's phone number.

[laughing]

The people that support me, my fans,

which I don't like to call fans,

my, you know, my family, you know.

God, I was so annoying then.

Finishing this album and doing the most crazy shows

I'm capable of doing in the next month.

I finished that album, thank the Lords above

because I was about to jump off a building

to finish that fucking album.

Oh, my God.

Exhausting.

Thank God I finished that shit.

I can't.

Honestly, sometimes I think about it.

Sometimes I'm like, like me and Finneas

have had conversations where we're like,

can you believe we actually finished the album?

I swear to God, we thought we would never finish that shit.

Ever.

I love that album.

Probably like a fucking 10, dude.

I love it.

Fuck it.

Oh wait, it's great, sorry, A.

I never went to school, I never got grades.

Sorry.

A plus is what I meant.

The most important thing right now, though,

probably would be maintaining my happiness,

which I've been experiencing for like, the first time

in many years lately, which is really cool.

And not that my fans aren't like,

also the other most important thing in the world.

And doing shows is also really important to me

and doing crazy shows especially, but I want to stay happy.

That's a big goal for me.

I don't know if I'm more confident,

I just think I know what I'm doing more.

I think I'm less confident, actually.

True. I was less confident, for sure.

I was definitely not as confident last year

as I was before that, but I am for sure a billion times

more confident than both of those years.

I feel like I'm probably the most confident

I've ever been in my life.

I guess.

I don't know how the fuck, I don't know how it happened,

but I guess I am.

I am definitely successful.

I was thinking about that like, earlier today.

Because of this interview, I was like.

Back then I thought it was like,

the biggest I was ever gonna be and I thought, you know,

it was the most I was ever gonna be recognized

and it was the most anyone's gonna know me

and it was the most money that I would have,

the most clothes I'd have, the most shoes that I'd have.

And what's crazy, it wasn't.

Success is not how well people know you.

It's how you're like, looked at.

I genuinely did not think people would care.

I like, can't even stress it enough.

I can't believe people care so much about me.

It's crazy to me.

I might be safe if I go to Trader Joe's.

Nope!

Not safe.

I tried it.

I went to Trader Joe's.

Did not work.

Nope, did not work.

Tried it!

I also tried Costco, which I thought I'd be safe at

and that didn't work.

Fuck's sake.

The reason it was like, affecting me so much last year

was because all I wanted to do was go out.

I don't even think about going out anymore.

I like this life that I have.

I like being famous.

It's very weird, but it's very cool.

And I can, I feel like I can say that now

because I used to hate it.

I hated doing press and I hated being recognized

and I hated kind of everything that had to do with it.

There's a lot in fame that's fucking gross

and horrible and just miserable,

but I'm very grateful for it and it's really rare

and it's really, I'm very lucky,

so I'm so done with complaining about it.

I complained about it for so long.

Probably that stupid Cheeto head man.

November 6th, there's an election soon.

I really hope everyone votes so the world doesn't end.

There's an impeachment going on.

Honestly, the news is so bad, I can't even.

Oh yeah, Beyonce had some twins and she still looks fly.

Kehlani's pregnant.

Greta Thunberg, honestly.

She's been fucking kicking people's ass.

Esketit.

That can die, okay.

Esketit is supposed to be like, let's get it

but like, esketit is so annoying.

Stop.

Oh, that's stupid Snapchat filter that's like,

[making filter tone].

I'm kinda over the whole like, Juuling shit.

That shit is so ugly.

Like, smoking looks cooler than Juuling.

Don't, like don't smoke but you know, like.

[laughing]

People think I'm pregnant.

A lot of people thought I was pregnant for a second.

They did think I was pregnant.

There was like, a story on Snapchat the other day.

I was like, wait, did Billie Eilish have a baby?

It's like, what?

Biggest rumor though now, that I sold my soul to Satan.

No, I don't have a boyfriend.

I can't, I could not have a boyfriend.

That would just be mean to him.

I don't know, I almost had one for like, a little,

but it wasn't really exclusive,

so I don't know what you call that.

I hate things that are exclusive.

Never.

That's so funny.

I don't have a boyfriend, ha, ha, ha!

I actually did then, but I don't now.

I still am on good terms with everybody.

And I still have so much love for like,

the person that I was with then and,

but I am single and I'd rather turn eight-tingle.

[laughing]

For the first time in my life I don't feel the need

to be with anyone.

For the first time in my life.

I don't have my eyes on anyone, I'm not in the mood,

I don't have enough stamina for it right now

and I'm totally fine with that.

So who knows.

I'm open to it.

I think the month of May, probably mid-May,

I was in a horrible place mentally.

So.

When a friend of mine died in June, it was pretty bad.

In January, I had a meeting showing me the schedule

for the whole year and I sat there and was totally silent

and totally still and just tears like,

just streamed down my face.

I went to my garage and I just cried.

It just was very overwhelming

and I was in a really bad place.

So.

I don't want to take it for granted.

I don't want to take it for granted.

I catch myself.

True.

Even some things I've said today, I catch myself.

What am I doing?

What am I saying?

What? 40,000 people?

What?

Are you ever conscious that you're doing something

that you don't want to be doing but you just,

you're just doing it?

It was like that because I was taking it for granted

and I, that makes me really mad and I don't want to be

and I just was.

I don't know, I worked really hard on not doing that

as I said in that, and I've kind of

held my ground a little bit.

I think I've like, kind of accomplished

not taking it for granted.

I've been really grateful for everything

and really aware lately and I just was realizing

that I was giving too much of myself to other people's lives

and to other people's situations and I was like,

you know what, I need this attention on me right now.

So yeah.

Fruitvale Station.

Fruitvale Station.

Fruitvale Station.

The storyline is so heartbreaking, dude.

That shit grabs you and pulls you and, ugh.

No, this, I can't afford a real chain.

They are real.

My chains were gifts.

I did not buy anything that I'm wearing.

I stopped wearing real jewelry, like real diamonds and stuff

because A, I'm a break that shit.

B, I'm a lose that shit.

C, I got other shit to buy.

You know what I mean?

I like bright green a lot.

I like black.

It's been pretty dark lately,

so I've just wanted to be dark with it.

Black is like the only time I can go

through the airport and be fine.