No matter, try again, fail again, fail better

I had so many dream of where I wanted to go, who I wanted to be and what I wanted to do

You have your own story to tell?

Theater companies, I wanted to start with classmates

Movies I wanted to be in, directors I wanted to work with, stories I

needed to tell

you

I packed the life that I knew with socks and toothbrush

into my backpack

And I slept on couch after couch after couch after couch at friend's apartment in New York

Until I wore out the rent paid-maintenance welcome

I didn't want a day job. I was an actor. I was a writer. I had to get a day job

I dusted piano piano store on Buzz's Street for five months

I worked on the property of a Shakespear scholar for a year pulling weeds and removing bees' nests. [I]

went on unemployment

Once but for not for long, I coudn't handle the guilt

Eventually [I] was able to pay rent for a spot on the floor of an apartment on the other side

But my roommate had to break down and [disappear]

I helped hanging paintings at [galleries] paintings that inspire inspire you to think I could do that

and then

finally

After two years job and couch surfing [I] got a job

In application process

As a data enter, [err] at a place called professional examination services

And I stayed for six years six years

From the age of 23 to 29 while they loved me there I was funny I

Smoked in the loading docks with the guys from the mailroom, and we shared how hungover we all were.

Called them sick almost every Friday because I was that late the night before I hated that job and I clung to that job

Because of that job I could afford my own place

My dream of running a theater company with my friend and fellow, Bennington Graduate Ian Bell had died

I had only the one window I

Myself could not look out the window. It was it was quite high no occasion

when I was 29

I told myself the next acting job I get. No matter what it came. I will go on

for better or worse

Be working actor

but something good happened, [I]

Got a low-paying theater job in a play called imperfect love

Which led [to] a film called 13 moons with the same writer?

Which led to other roles which led to other roles, and I've worked as an actor ever since I?

Didn't know that would happen

at 29 walking away from Data processing [I]

was terrified

Ten years in a place without [he] six years of a job some stuff him, maybe I was afraid of change

Are you?

But this made me very hungry literally

I couldn't be lazy

I couldn't be

and

So a 29 in a very long last I was in the company of the actors and [writers] and directors

[I] thought of that first year

That first day

after school I

Was I by their stuff raise the rest of your life to meet you?

Don't search for defining moment because they will never come

The moment that define you have already happened, and they will already happen again

And passes so quickly, so please bring each other along with you

You you just get a bit derailed

But soon something starts to happen trust me the rhythm sets in

Just try not to wait until [like] me. You're 29 before you find it

And if you are that's fine, too some of us never find it

But you will I promise you you are already here

You'll find your rhythm or continue the one you have already found

Don't wait until they tell you you [are] ready get in there

The world might say you are not allowed to yet, I?

Waited a long [time] out in the world before [I] gave myself permission to [fail]

Please don't even bother asking

Don't bother telling the world you are ready show it do it

What it Beckett say?

ever tried ever failed

No matter try again

fail again

fail better

We burn very brightly please don't ever stop

The World is yours

Treat everyone Kindly and light up the night

Maybe I was afraid of change are you?

you