acting job I get no matter what it pays

I will from now on for better or worse

be a working actor

so I quit my position at the professional examination services

and now I didn't have either the

internet or a cell phone or a job

but something good happened

I got a low-paying theater job in a play

called imperfect love which led to a

film called 13 moons with the same writer

which led to other roles which led to other roles

and I've worked as an actor ever since

I didn't know that would happen

at 29 walking away from data processing

I was terrified

ten years in a place without heat

six years at a job I felt stuck in

maybe I was afraid of change

are you?

my parents didn't have much money

but they struggled to send me to the best schools

and one of the most important things they did for me

is that once I graduated I was on my own

financially it was my turn

but this made me very hungry

literally

I couldn't be lazy now I'm totally lazy

but back then I couldn't be

and so at 29 in a very long last

I was in the company of the actors and writers

and directors I'd sought out that first year

that first day after school

I was I am by their sides

Raise the rest of your life

to meet you

Don't search for defining moments

because they will never come

The moments that define you have already happened

and they will already happen again

sorry it sucks after graduation

it really does

I mean I don't know at least it did for me

but that's the only thing I know

you you just get a bit derailed

but soon something starts to happen

trust me

a rhythm sets in

just try not to wait until like me

you're 29 before you find it

and if you are that's fine too

some of us never find it

but you will

I promise you

what did Beckett say

ever tried ever failed

no matter

try again

fail again

fail better