Sure are!

Great.

So, hi Freddy.

Hi!

What up, Shanti?

Hi Saf.

Hi.

We've talked about different, like,

body insecurities in the past and stuff,

and I remember you talking to me about one

when you were really, really young.

Do you remember what you told me?

I always wanted a butt.

I always wanted to just be thicker.

I always, always, always

wanted blue eyes.

Boobs.

It was boobs.

Within the black community, being thicker,

having a butt, having thicker thighs,

and just having that, like, hourglass shape

is what was sought after for young women,

and that's what guys liked.

I was like insecure about my body in general,

and also thinking that my body looked imbalanced.

I kind of felt boring.

You thought that you'd would feel more pretty

if you had blue eyes?

Yeah, I always was like, everyone's so striking

with blue eyes and like dark features.

I am super comfortable with who I am

and what I look like today.

And I also keep in mind to just

not comment on anyone's weight

or anything that they don't have control over.

I don't want people to think I don't like who I am,

but it's like something worth trying.

I personally don't want fake boobs,

at the moment, but maybe when I'm 60.

So, if I told you

that I got you butt pads.

I have some blue contacts for you.

A mega push-up bra and like chicken cutlets.

Would you want to try them out for the day?

I've never put in contacts in my life.

Oh yeah, is it the bombshell?

Is it the bombshell bra?

I have no problem trying out butt pads for a day,

but just the experiment of seeing if it changes

the way that I feel about my body and just seeing

the way other people react will be pretty cool.

Is it sad that my boobs are literally

smaller than the amount of padding that's in here? (laughs)

It'll be easy right?

Are you scared?

Yes.

Let's see, let's see how it looks.

They're in, they are in.

How do they feel?

They feel a little dry,

they're almost like blue-gray,

the way it reacted with the brown.

Got your boobs on?

I do have my boobs on.

Look how sad my old bra looks.

Is this what you feel like, Shanti, every day?

Kind of, there's just a lot of breast to deal with.

It's definitely going to make a statement

as I walk down the street.

Could you show us?

Oh my god, it's kind of big to the point

where I could get catcalled, but it's intense.

This is gonna be a day.

Candace is really teary eyed.

Got some eye drops, a little backup.

So my pads have created a ravine between the two cups.

You can see the two separating like a valley

between two large mountains.

How do you feel about my new butt?

Oh!

Damn.

It looks really good, and I'm not going to lie,

I saw you walking earlier,

and I looked over and I was like, "Freddy!"

Guys I'm going to be honest with you,

these look pretty cool.

I love myself, you know, everyone should,

but these are pretty cool.

Kristen, did you notice?

I did not notice, I only noticed when

you were grabbing your boobs.

Then I was like, "Something's up with those boobs."

It's just different, yeah?

It's new, it's very much like, a butt shape.

I don't know, there's a lot to contemplate with that butt.

There's a lot of things to think about.

Do you like 'em?

I love them, I want them.

I'm so jealous right now.

But it's making the whites of your eyes look fake.

Too white? All of it looks fake.

You look Snapchat filter.

So I changed my shirt into something more revealing,

and I will say these are legitimately a shelf.

This is why boobs are called a rack.

I don't know, I don't think I like this.

I don't think I like them.

I was like checking out your butt,

and it was like, it was, it was like it was bigger.

Mhmm.

Yeah, but I still miss your old butt, Freddy.

Thank you.

I kind of miss it too.

Okay, I took my boobs out to go to yoga,

and I am very comfortable.

I don't know.

I think I like my boobs.

The big butt's been fun.

All the banter around it has been fun,

but I'm getting kind of tired of it,

just because I feel so good

that I've gotten so comfortable with my body

in the last like ten years or so.

So it kind of feels like I'm taking a step back.

So, Fred, what do you have there?

These are my butt pads.

What a ride we've had.

How'd it go?

I will be very honest and say

I didn't like it a lot.

It was really fun to just kind of be someone else

for a little bit even though it was just my eyes.

So I went and I changed into a tighter shirt,

because my shirt was kind of loose like and flowy,

and I was like so self-conscious that someone would notice,

that I was kind of walking around like this.

So I didn't feel as self-conscious in them

as I thought I would.

I was actually having a lot of fun with them.

What was the most surprising thing that happened?

I think people like me better without the blue eyes,

which was a nice lesson learned.

As you sort of like get further and further away

from those awkward teenage years, you just become

more comfortable in your body.

I'm such a proponent of like accepting your body

and like self love and just wearing these kind of

felt like "Girl, what are you doing?"

Yeah, it didn't feel like you.

Yeah.

I think it's totally normal to want what you can't have,

and when you actually get it,

you don't feel like your true self.

It made me feel proud of myself for being

way more comfortable in my body now than I used to be.

There's not a problem with like, seeing what

different things look like and kind of looking at that,

but at the end of the day, you are you,

and you should be proud of it!

Like I should be proud of my brown eyes!

I'm still insecure about some things, but like,

I feel like you sort of develop tactics and techniques

to accept it as opposed to trying to like

constantly figure out ways to change it.

And of course I'm not 100% mature

or 100% a functioning adult, but it is cool to see like

that you can just be more comfortable

and things to get better.

That is a 16 ounce cup.