And that's pretty difficult for me nowadays, but I got Four I got four days in a row where I did all my habits right four days in a row But now right now i'm like kind of this morning.

最近の僕にとって、それはかなり難しいことなんだけど、4日連続で、4日連続で、すべての習慣を正しくこなしたんだ。

I felt like shit.

クソみたいな気分だった。

I was kind of in a rut so And like i've been like lacking like you can see like the red.

マンネリ化していたから、赤が見えるような欠乏感があったんだ。

I've been just totally fucking Doing nothing But what is the difference between those days?

でも、この日々の違いは何なんだろう？

Last week versus the days now that i'm in that i'm not keeping up with my habits.

先週と今とでは、習慣を守れていない。

I'm not doing the work anymore Like what happened?

私はもう仕事をしていない。

so what I figured out right is so last week right I have I have a couple days open like free and so when I would wake up Right.

それでわかったんだけど、先週は2、3日空いていたんだ。

I I didn't know what to do Because it's like I have so much free time in the day now that I don't know what to do with myself And of course like oh, what do you mean?

一日の中で自由な時間が多すぎて、何をしたらいいのかわからなくなったんだ。

Like you have work to do like you to make youtube videos you to read you have to learn you to Like work out later blah blah, but hold on, right?

ユーチューブのビデオを作ったり、本を読んだり、勉強したり、後でワークアウトをしたりと、やるべきことがたくさんある。

The like the reason i'm saying this is because like It's so easy to just say that.

なぜこんなことを言うかというと、そう言うのは簡単だからだ。

Oh like you have things to do but in the moment, right?

ああ、やるべきことがあるような、でも今が大事なんだろう？

I didn't know what to do.

どうしていいかわからなかった。

So instead of right if we were bored instead of Doing the things that are supposed to do we just indulge in things We like we go on youtube act like we're productive.

だから、もし退屈していたら、やるべきことをする代わりに、ただ好きなことに没頭する。

We scroll on our phone a little bit we just do things like little things like Scrolling on youtube and the reason that I got all green here was because whenever I felt bored Whenever I felt like I didn't have to do anything.

携帯でちょっとスクロールしたり......ユーチューブでスクロールしたり......ちょっとしたことをするだけなんだけど......ここで緑一色になったのは、退屈だと感じたときはいつも、何もしなくていいと思ったからなんだ。

I just did nothing I literally sat there in my chair and did nothing I would just think I would just think about what to do like the whole time And I had I had the whole day really pretty much to myself I was just like what like what do I do?

ただ何もせず、文字通り椅子に座ったまま何もせず、ただ考えるだけだった。

And so what would happen then right as like I didn't really stimulate my brain I wasn't like scrolling on my phone or going on youtube.

そうするとどうなるかというと、脳を刺激するようなことはしなかったし、携帯をスクロールしたり、ユーチューブを見たりもしなかった。

What I would do then is like look around my room Oh, like I see a book now, right?

そうしたらどうするかというと、自分の部屋を見回してみるんだ。

And then i'm like, all right, I might as well read right if I have nothing to do I might as well read see and this is where you start to like come down to your your baseline of like dopamine because Usually like when we're bored, we need to keep our mind occupied so we go and indulge in youtube or we go and indulge in our phone or just some just something stupid so If you ever feel like you have like free time And like you like you're not doing your habits It's like just try to be bored for as long as you can and eventually you'll start doing the habits that you really want to do because the reason that you don't want to do the work that you want to do is because You want to do something else because there's something else that you want to do, right?

そして、「よし、やることがないなら読書でもしようかな、だから、もし暇だと感じたら、そして習慣をやっていないと感じたら、できるだけ長い時間退屈してみることだ。そうすれば、やがて本当にやりたい習慣をやり始めるだろう。

Um, so like these past couple days like I read like a like a light novel, right?

ここ2、3日、ライトノベルみたいなのを読んだんだ。

Like it's like a story like a fiction book And what happened was I I would rather read that than do my habits and of course you could say like oh like why don't you have discipline like the reason I don't have discipline right is because I just didn't want to do it as simple as that I wanted to do something else so those types of things like the indulgences like youtube or like your video games or whatever you want, right you have to Just be bored be bored as much as you can and just have the willpower to resist those types of things It's better to sit down and be bored than to indulge in those instant gratification activities because let's think about it, right?

もちろん、どうして規律を守らないんだと言われるかもしれないけど、僕が規律を守らないのは、単純にやりたくないからだよ、だから、ユーチューブとか、ビデオゲームとか、好きなことに没頭するんだ。できるだけ退屈して、そういうことに抵抗する意志の力を持つんだ。

You're doping baselines like this, right?

こうやってベースラインをドーピングしているんだろ？

And when you indulge it goes down when you indulge again, it goes down so you're basically gets lower and lower when you Take part in those instant gratification activities, but when you're bored, right your baselines like this But it just stays like that like you're not getting worse and worse and worse so when when you feel like you have nothing to do don't just indulge just sit there bored until you feel like you want to do something pretty much and it's like Like i've only been at this for like a little bit over a year.

でも、退屈しているときは、ベースラインはこんな感じだけど、どんどん悪くなっていくわけじゃなくて、このままなんだ。だから、やることがないと感じたら、ただ退屈して座っているんじゃなくて、何かしたいと感じるまで退屈しているんだ。

It's still like i'm not like super consistent like like it i'm not i'm not doing bad this month, but it's just like I didn't I don't expect to get all green Like oh my I didn't I don't expect to like knock off every habit on my tracker for the month like i'm not there yet and I have to like kind of almost be humble and be like, okay, like i'm not gonna I know damn well that like i'm not gonna get every single thing green just because like i'm like I'm, almost like still a beginner.

今月は悪くないんだけど、全部が緑になるとは思ってなかったんだ、僕はまだ初心者なんだから。

I'm like only like one and a half years old or some shit like that in self-improvement so Knowing that I kind of humble myself.

僕は自己啓発を始めてまだ1年半とか、そんな感じなんだ。

I'm just like, okay I'm gonna take this day by day slowly and understand And try to like pick my brain and try to understand my triggers and what I do wrong So the main point is videos to tell you that you should just be bored instead of indulging in activities because That's that's what really got me to do all my habits It's just me being fucking bored Like I leave I put my phone on airplane mode and just put it in a drawer And now it's just like since it's in the drawer Like the pain of getting it and putting it on airplane mode.

私はただこう思う、だから、要はビデオで、アクティビティに没頭するのではなく、ただ退屈していればいいんだよ。

It's just too much that I just don't even do it So I put that away.

ただ、あまりに多すぎて、やる気も起きないんだ。

Maybe I'd turn off my computer.

コンピュータの電源を切るかもしれない。

I mean it's on right now, but It doesn't matter Go and be bored and Just wait for your body and your mind to kind of align itself with the tasks that you want to do.

今やっていることだけど、そんなことはどうでもいいんだ。

So With that continue your journey and keep moving forward

そうして、旅を続け、前進し続けるのだ。