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  • Chapter 31

  • Colonel Fitzwilliam's manners were very much admired at the Parsonage,

  • and the ladies all felt that he must add considerably to the pleasures

  • of their engagements at Rosings. It was some days, however, before they

  • received any invitation thither--for while there were visitors in the

  • house, they could not be necessary; and it was not till Easter-day,

  • almost a week after the gentlemen's arrival, that they were honoured by

  • such an attention, and then they were merely asked on leaving church to

  • come there in the evening. For the last week they had seen very little

  • of Lady Catherine or her daughter. Colonel Fitzwilliam had called at the

  • Parsonage more than once during the time, but Mr. Darcy they had seen

  • only at church.

  • The invitation was accepted of course, and at a proper hour they joined

  • the party in Lady Catherine's drawing-room. Her ladyship received

  • them civilly, but it was plain that their company was by no means so

  • acceptable as when she could get nobody else; and she was, in fact,

  • almost engrossed by her nephews, speaking to them, especially to Darcy,

  • much more than to any other person in the room.

  • Colonel Fitzwilliam seemed really glad to see them; anything was a

  • welcome relief to him at Rosings; and Mrs. Collins's pretty friend had

  • moreover caught his fancy very much. He now seated himself by her, and

  • talked so agreeably of Kent and Hertfordshire, of travelling and staying

  • at home, of new books and music, that Elizabeth had never been half so

  • well entertained in that room before; and they conversed with so much

  • spirit and flow, as to draw the attention of Lady Catherine herself,

  • as well as of Mr. Darcy. _His_ eyes had been soon and repeatedly turned

  • towards them with a look of curiosity; and that her ladyship, after a

  • while, shared the feeling, was more openly acknowledged, for she did not

  • scruple to call out:

  • "What is that you are saying, Fitzwilliam? What is it you are talking

  • of? What are you telling Miss Bennet? Let me hear what it is."

  • "We are speaking of music, madam," said he, when no longer able to avoid

  • a reply.

  • "Of music! Then pray speak aloud. It is of all subjects my delight. I

  • must have my share in the conversation if you are speaking of music.

  • There are few people in England, I suppose, who have more true enjoyment

  • of music than myself, or a better natural taste. If I had ever learnt,

  • I should have been a great proficient. And so would Anne, if her health

  • had allowed her to apply. I am confident that she would have performed

  • delightfully. How does Georgiana get on, Darcy?"

  • Mr. Darcy spoke with affectionate praise of his sister's proficiency.

  • "I am very glad to hear such a good account of her," said Lady

  • Catherine; "and pray tell her from me, that she cannot expect to excel

  • if she does not practice a good deal."

  • "I assure you, madam," he replied, "that she does not need such advice.

  • She practises very constantly."

  • "So much the better. It cannot be done too much; and when I next write

  • to her, I shall charge her not to neglect it on any account. I often

  • tell young ladies that no excellence in music is to be acquired without

  • constant practice. I have told Miss Bennet several times, that she

  • will never play really well unless she practises more; and though Mrs.

  • Collins has no instrument, she is very welcome, as I have often told

  • her, to come to Rosings every day, and play on the pianoforte in Mrs.

  • Jenkinson's room. She would be in nobody's way, you know, in that part

  • of the house."

  • Mr. Darcy looked a little ashamed of his aunt's ill-breeding, and made

  • no answer.

  • When coffee was over, Colonel Fitzwilliam reminded Elizabeth of having

  • promised to play to him; and she sat down directly to the instrument. He

  • drew a chair near her. Lady Catherine listened to half a song, and then

  • talked, as before, to her other nephew; till the latter walked away

  • from her, and making with his usual deliberation towards the pianoforte

  • stationed himself so as to command a full view of the fair performer's

  • countenance. Elizabeth saw what he was doing, and at the first

  • convenient pause, turned to him with an arch smile, and said:

  • "You mean to frighten me, Mr. Darcy, by coming in all this state to hear

  • me? I will not be alarmed though your sister _does_ play so well. There

  • is a stubbornness about me that never can bear to be frightened at the

  • will of others. My courage always rises at every attempt to intimidate

  • me."

  • "I shall not say you are mistaken," he replied, "because you could not

  • really believe me to entertain any design of alarming you; and I have

  • had the pleasure of your acquaintance long enough to know that you find

  • great enjoyment in occasionally professing opinions which in fact are

  • not your own."

  • Elizabeth laughed heartily at this picture of herself, and said to

  • Colonel Fitzwilliam, "Your cousin will give you a very pretty notion of

  • me, and teach you not to believe a word I say. I am particularly unlucky

  • in meeting with a person so able to expose my real character, in a part

  • of the world where I had hoped to pass myself off with some degree of

  • credit. Indeed, Mr. Darcy, it is very ungenerous in you to mention all

  • that you knew to my disadvantage in Hertfordshire--and, give me leave to

  • say, very impolitic too--for it is provoking me to retaliate, and such

  • things may come out as will shock your relations to hear."

  • "I am not afraid of you," said he, smilingly.

  • "Pray let me hear what you have to accuse him of," cried Colonel

  • Fitzwilliam. "I should like to know how he behaves among strangers."

  • "You shall hear then--but prepare yourself for something very dreadful.

  • The first time of my ever seeing him in Hertfordshire, you must know,

  • was at a ball--and at this ball, what do you think he did? He danced

  • only four dances, though gentlemen were scarce; and, to my certain

  • knowledge, more than one young lady was sitting down in want of a

  • partner. Mr. Darcy, you cannot deny the fact."

  • "I had not at that time the honour of knowing any lady in the assembly

  • beyond my own party."

  • "True; and nobody can ever be introduced in a ball-room. Well, Colonel

  • Fitzwilliam, what do I play next? My fingers wait your orders."

  • "Perhaps," said Darcy, "I should have judged better, had I sought an

  • introduction; but I am ill-qualified to recommend myself to strangers."

  • "Shall we ask your cousin the reason of this?" said Elizabeth, still

  • addressing Colonel Fitzwilliam. "Shall we ask him why a man of sense and

  • education, and who has lived in the world, is ill qualified to recommend

  • himself to strangers?"

  • "I can answer your question," said Fitzwilliam, "without applying to

  • him. It is because he will not give himself the trouble."

  • "I certainly have not the talent which some people possess," said Darcy,

  • "of conversing easily with those I have never seen before. I cannot

  • catch their tone of conversation, or appear interested in their

  • concerns, as I often see done."

  • "My fingers," said Elizabeth, "do not move over this instrument in the

  • masterly manner which I see so many women's do. They have not the same

  • force or rapidity, and do not produce the same expression. But then I

  • have always supposed it to be my own fault--because I will not take the

  • trouble of practising. It is not that I do not believe _my_ fingers as

  • capable as any other woman's of superior execution."

  • Darcy smiled and said, "You are perfectly right. You have employed your

  • time much better. No one admitted to the privilege of hearing you can

  • think anything wanting. We neither of us perform to strangers."

  • Here they were interrupted by Lady Catherine, who called out to know

  • what they were talking of. Elizabeth immediately began playing again.

  • Lady Catherine approached, and, after listening for a few minutes, said

  • to Darcy:

  • "Miss Bennet would not play at all amiss if she practised more, and

  • could have the advantage of a London master. She has a very good notion

  • of fingering, though her taste is not equal to Anne's. Anne would have

  • been a delightful performer, had her health allowed her to learn."

  • Elizabeth looked at Darcy to see how cordially he assented to his

  • cousin's praise; but neither at that moment nor at any other could she

  • discern any symptom of love; and from the whole of his behaviour to Miss

  • de Bourgh she derived this comfort for Miss Bingley, that he might have

  • been just as likely to marry _her_, had she been his relation.

  • Lady Catherine continued her remarks on Elizabeth's performance, mixing

  • with them many instructions on execution and taste. Elizabeth received

  • them with all the forbearance of civility, and, at the request of the

  • gentlemen, remained at the instrument till her ladyship's carriage was

  • ready to take them all home.

  • Chapter 32

  • Elizabeth was sitting by herself the next morning, and writing to Jane

  • while Mrs. Collins and Maria were gone on business into the village,

  • when she was startled by a ring at the door, the certain signal of a

  • visitor. As she had heard no carriage, she thought it not unlikely to

  • be Lady Catherine, and under that apprehension was putting away her

  • half-finished letter that she might escape all impertinent questions,

  • when the door opened, and, to her very great surprise, Mr. Darcy, and

  • Mr. Darcy only, entered the room.

  • He seemed astonished too on finding her alone, and apologised for his

  • intrusion by letting her know that he had understood all the ladies were

  • to be within.

  • They then sat down, and when her inquiries after Rosings were made,

  • seemed in danger of sinking into total silence. It was absolutely

  • necessary, therefore, to think of something, and in this emergence

  • recollecting _when_ she had seen him last in Hertfordshire, and

  • feeling curious to know what he would say on the subject of their hasty

  • departure, she observed:

  • "How very suddenly you all quitted Netherfield last November, Mr. Darcy!

  • It must have been a most agreeable surprise to Mr. Bingley to see you

  • all after him so soon; for, if I recollect right, he went but the day

  • before. He and his sisters were well, I hope, when you left London?"

  • "Perfectly so, I thank you."

  • She found that she was to receive no other answer, and, after a short

  • pause added:

  • "I think I have understood that Mr. Bingley has not much idea of ever

  • returning to Netherfield again?"

  • "I have never heard him say so; but it is probable that he may spend

  • very little of his time there in the future. He has many friends, and

  • is at a time of life when friends and engagements are continually

  • increasing."

  • "If he means to be but little at Netherfield, it would be better for

  • the neighbourhood that he should give up the place entirely, for then we

  • might possibly get a settled family there. But, perhaps, Mr. Bingley did

  • not take the house so much for the convenience of the neighbourhood as

  • for his own, and we must expect him to keep it or quit it on the same

  • principle."

  • "I should not be surprised," said Darcy, "if he were to give it up as

  • soon as any eligible purchase offers."

  • Elizabeth made no answer. She was afraid of talking longer of his

  • friend; and, having nothing else to say, was now determined to leave the

  • trouble of finding a subject to him.

  • He took the hint, and soon began with, "This seems a very comfortable

  • house. Lady Catherine, I believe, did a great deal to it when Mr.

  • Collins first came to Hunsford."

  • "I believe she did--and I am sure she could not have bestowed her

  • kindness on a more grateful object."

  • "Mr. Collins appears to be very fortunate in his choice of a wife."

  • "Yes, indeed, his friends may well rejoice in his having met with one

  • of the very few sensible women who would have accepted him, or have made

  • him happy if they had. My friend has an excellent understanding--though

  • I am not certain that I consider her marrying Mr. Collins as the

  • wisest thing she ever did. She seems perfectly happy, however, and in a

  • prudential light it is certainly a very good match for her."

  • "It must be very agreeable for her to be settled within so easy a

  • distance of her own family and friends."

  • "An easy distance, do you call it? It is nearly fifty miles."

  • "And what is fifty miles of good road? Little more than half a day's

  • journey. Yes, I call it a _very_ easy distance."

  • "I should never have considered the distance as one of the _advantages_

  • of the match," cried Elizabeth. "I should never have said Mrs. Collins

  • was settled _near_ her family."

  • "It is a proof of your own attachment to Hertfordshire. Anything beyond

  • the very neighbourhood of Longbourn, I suppose, would appear far."

  • As he spoke there was a sort of smile which Elizabeth fancied she

  • understood; he must be supposing her to be thinking of Jane and

  • Netherfield, and she blushed as she answered:

  • "I do not mean to say that a woman may not be settled too near her

  • family. The far and the near must be relative, and depend on many

  • varying circumstances. Where there is fortune to make the expenses of

  • travelling unimportant, distance becomes no evil. But that is not the

  • case _here_. Mr. and Mrs. Collins have a comfortable income, but not

  • such a one as will allow of frequent journeys--and I am persuaded my

  • friend would not call herself _near_ her family under less than _half_

  • the present distance."

  • Mr. Darcy drew his chair a little towards her, and said, "_You_ cannot

  • have a right to such very strong local attachment. _You_ cannot have

  • been always at Longbourn."

  • Elizabeth looked surprised. The gentleman experienced some change of

  • feeling; he drew back his chair, took a newspaper from the table, and

  • glancing over it, said, in a colder voice:

  • "Are you pleased with Kent?"

  • A short dialogue on the subject of the country ensued, on either side

  • calm and concise--and soon put an end to by the entrance of Charlotte

  • and her sister, just returned from her walk. The tete-a-tete surprised

  • them. Mr. Darcy related the mistake which had occasioned his intruding

  • on Miss Bennet, and after sitting a few minutes longer without saying

  • much to anybody, went away.

  • "What can be the meaning of this?" said Charlotte, as soon as he was

  • gone. "My dear, Eliza, he must be in love with you, or he would never

  • have called us in this familiar way."

  • But when Elizabeth told of his silence; it did not seem very likely,

  • even to Charlotte's wishes, to be the case; and after various

  • conjectures, they could at last only suppose his visit to proceed from

  • the difficulty of finding anything to do, which was the more probable

  • from the time of year. All field sports were over. Within doors there

  • was Lady Catherine, books, and a billiard-table, but gentlemen cannot

  • always be within doors; and in the nearness of the Parsonage, or the

  • pleasantness of the walk to it, or of the people who lived in it, the

  • two cousins found a temptation from this period of walking thither

  • almost every day. They called at various times of the morning, sometimes

  • separately, sometimes together, and now and then accompanied by their

  • aunt. It was plain to them all that Colonel Fitzwilliam came because he

  • had pleasure in their society, a persuasion which of course recommended

  • him still more; and Elizabeth was reminded by her own satisfaction in

  • being with him, as well as by his evident admiration of her, of her

  • former favourite George Wickham; and though, in comparing them, she saw

  • there was less captivating softness in Colonel Fitzwilliam's manners,

  • she believed he might have the best informed mind.

  • But why Mr. Darcy came so often to the Parsonage, it was more difficult

  • to understand. It could not be for society, as he frequently sat there

  • ten minutes together without opening his lips; and when he did speak,

  • it seemed the effect of necessity rather than of choice--a sacrifice

  • to propriety, not a pleasure to himself. He seldom appeared really

  • animated. Mrs. Collins knew not what to make of him. Colonel

  • Fitzwilliam's occasionally laughing at his stupidity, proved that he was

  • generally different, which her own knowledge of him could not have told

  • her; and as she would liked to have believed this change the effect

  • of love, and the object of that love her friend Eliza, she set herself

  • seriously to work to find it out. She watched him whenever they were at

  • Rosings, and whenever he came to Hunsford; but without much success. He

  • certainly looked at her friend a great deal, but the expression of that

  • look was disputable. It was an earnest, steadfast gaze, but she often

  • doubted whether there were much admiration in it, and sometimes it

  • seemed nothing but absence of mind.

  • She had once or twice suggested to Elizabeth the possibility of his

  • being partial to her, but Elizabeth always laughed at the idea; and Mrs.

  • Collins did not think it right to press the subject, from the danger of

  • raising expectations which might only end in disappointment; for in her

  • opinion it admitted not of a doubt, that all her friend's dislike would

  • vanish, if she could suppose him to be in her power.

  • In her kind schemes for Elizabeth, she sometimes planned her marrying

  • Colonel Fitzwilliam. He was beyond comparison the most pleasant man; he

  • certainly admired her, and his situation in life was most eligible; but,

  • to counterbalance these advantages, Mr. Darcy had considerable patronage

  • in the church, and his cousin could have none at all.

  • Chapter 33

  • More than once did Elizabeth, in her ramble within the park,

  • unexpectedly meet Mr. Darcy. She felt all the perverseness of the

  • mischance that should bring him where no one else was brought, and, to

  • prevent its ever happening again, took care to inform him at first that

  • it was a favourite haunt of hers. How it could occur a second time,

  • therefore, was very odd! Yet it did, and even a third. It seemed like

  • wilful ill-nature, or a voluntary penance, for on these occasions it was

  • not merely a few formal inquiries and an awkward pause and then away,

  • but he actually thought it necessary to turn back and walk with her. He

  • never said a great deal, nor did she give herself the trouble of talking

  • or of listening much; but it struck her in the course of their third

  • rencontre that he was asking some odd unconnected questions--about

  • her pleasure in being at Hunsford, her love of solitary walks, and her

  • opinion of Mr. and Mrs. Collins's happiness; and that in speaking of

  • Rosings and her not perfectly understanding the house, he seemed to

  • expect that whenever she came into Kent again she would be staying

  • _there_ too. His words seemed to imply it. Could he have Colonel

  • Fitzwilliam in his thoughts? She supposed, if he meant anything, he must

  • mean an allusion to what might arise in that quarter. It distressed

  • her a little, and she was quite glad to find herself at the gate in the

  • pales opposite the Parsonage.

  • She was engaged one day as she walked, in perusing Jane's last letter,

  • and dwelling on some passages which proved that Jane had not written in

  • spirits, when, instead of being again surprised by Mr. Darcy, she saw

  • on looking up that Colonel Fitzwilliam was meeting her. Putting away the

  • letter immediately and forcing a smile, she said:

  • "I did not know before that you ever walked this way."

  • "I have been making the tour of the park," he replied, "as I generally

  • do every year, and intend to close it with a call at the Parsonage. Are

  • you going much farther?"

  • "No, I should have turned in a moment."

  • And accordingly she did turn, and they walked towards the Parsonage

  • together.

  • "Do you certainly leave Kent on Saturday?" said she.

  • "Yes--if Darcy does not put it off again. But I am at his disposal. He

  • arranges the business just as he pleases."

  • "And if not able to please himself in the arrangement, he has at least

  • pleasure in the great power of choice. I do not know anybody who seems

  • more to enjoy the power of doing what he likes than Mr. Darcy."

  • "He likes to have his own way very well," replied Colonel Fitzwilliam.

  • "But so we all do. It is only that he has better means of having it

  • than many others, because he is rich, and many others are poor. I speak

  • feelingly. A younger son, you know, must be inured to self-denial and

  • dependence."

  • "In my opinion, the younger son of an earl can know very little of

  • either. Now seriously, what have you ever known of self-denial and

  • dependence? When have you been prevented by want of money from going

  • wherever you chose, or procuring anything you had a fancy for?"

  • "These are home questions--and perhaps I cannot say that I have

  • experienced many hardships of that nature. But in matters of greater

  • weight, I may suffer from want of money. Younger sons cannot marry where

  • they like."

  • "Unless where they like women of fortune, which I think they very often

  • do."

  • "Our habits of expense make us too dependent, and there are not many

  • in my rank of life who can afford to marry without some attention to

  • money."

  • "Is this," thought Elizabeth, "meant for me?" and she coloured at the

  • idea; but, recovering herself, said in a lively tone, "And pray, what

  • is the usual price of an earl's younger son? Unless the elder brother is

  • very sickly, I suppose you would not ask above fifty thousand pounds."

  • He answered her in the same style, and the subject dropped. To interrupt

  • a silence which might make him fancy her affected with what had passed,

  • she soon afterwards said:

  • "I imagine your cousin brought you down with him chiefly for the sake of

  • having someone at his disposal. I wonder he does not marry, to secure a

  • lasting convenience of that kind. But, perhaps, his sister does as well

  • for the present, and, as she is under his sole care, he may do what he

  • likes with her."

  • "No," said Colonel Fitzwilliam, "that is an advantage which he must

  • divide with me. I am joined with him in the guardianship of Miss Darcy."

  • "Are you indeed? And pray what sort of guardians do you make? Does your

  • charge give you much trouble? Young ladies of her age are sometimes a

  • little difficult to manage, and if she has the true Darcy spirit, she

  • may like to have her own way."

  • As she spoke she observed him looking at her earnestly; and the manner

  • in which he immediately asked her why she supposed Miss Darcy likely to

  • give them any uneasiness, convinced her that she had somehow or other

  • got pretty near the truth. She directly replied:

  • "You need not be frightened. I never heard any harm of her; and I dare

  • say she is one of the most tractable creatures in the world. She is a

  • very great favourite with some ladies of my acquaintance, Mrs. Hurst and

  • Miss Bingley. I think I have heard you say that you know them."

  • "I know them a little. Their brother is a pleasant gentlemanlike man--he

  • is a great friend of Darcy's."

  • "Oh! yes," said Elizabeth drily; "Mr. Darcy is uncommonly kind to Mr.

  • Bingley, and takes a prodigious deal of care of him."

  • "Care of him! Yes, I really believe Darcy _does_ take care of him in

  • those points where he most wants care. From something that he told me in

  • our journey hither, I have reason to think Bingley very much indebted to

  • him. But I ought to beg his pardon, for I have no right to suppose that

  • Bingley was the person meant. It was all conjecture."

  • "What is it you mean?"

  • "It is a circumstance which Darcy could not wish to be generally known,

  • because if it were to get round to the lady's family, it would be an

  • unpleasant thing."

  • "You may depend upon my not mentioning it."

  • "And remember that I have not much reason for supposing it to be

  • Bingley. What he told me was merely this: that he congratulated himself

  • on having lately saved a friend from the inconveniences of a most

  • imprudent marriage, but without mentioning names or any other

  • particulars, and I only suspected it to be Bingley from believing

  • him the kind of young man to get into a scrape of that sort, and from

  • knowing them to have been together the whole of last summer."

  • "Did Mr. Darcy give you reasons for this interference?"

  • "I understood that there were some very strong objections against the

  • lady."

  • "And what arts did he use to separate them?"

  • "He did not talk to me of his own arts," said Fitzwilliam, smiling. "He

  • only told me what I have now told you."

  • Elizabeth made no answer, and walked on, her heart swelling with

  • indignation. After watching her a little, Fitzwilliam asked her why she

  • was so thoughtful.

  • "I am thinking of what you have been telling me," said she. "Your

  • cousin's conduct does not suit my feelings. Why was he to be the judge?"

  • "You are rather disposed to call his interference officious?"

  • "I do not see what right Mr. Darcy had to decide on the propriety of his

  • friend's inclination, or why, upon his own judgement alone, he was to

  • determine and direct in what manner his friend was to be happy.

  • But," she continued, recollecting herself, "as we know none of the

  • particulars, it is not fair to condemn him. It is not to be supposed

  • that there was much affection in the case."

  • "That is not an unnatural surmise," said Fitzwilliam, "but it is a

  • lessening of the honour of my cousin's triumph very sadly."

  • This was spoken jestingly; but it appeared to her so just a picture

  • of Mr. Darcy, that she would not trust herself with an answer, and

  • therefore, abruptly changing the conversation talked on indifferent

  • matters until they reached the Parsonage. There, shut into her own room,

  • as soon as their visitor left them, she could think without interruption

  • of all that she had heard. It was not to be supposed that any other

  • people could be meant than those with whom she was connected. There

  • could not exist in the world _two_ men over whom Mr. Darcy could have

  • such boundless influence. That he had been concerned in the measures

  • taken to separate Bingley and Jane she had never doubted; but she had

  • always attributed to Miss Bingley the principal design and arrangement

  • of them. If his own vanity, however, did not mislead him, _he_ was

  • the cause, his pride and caprice were the cause, of all that Jane had

  • suffered, and still continued to suffer. He had ruined for a while

  • every hope of happiness for the most affectionate, generous heart in the

  • world; and no one could say how lasting an evil he might have inflicted.

  • "There were some very strong objections against the lady," were Colonel

  • Fitzwilliam's words; and those strong objections probably were, her

  • having one uncle who was a country attorney, and another who was in

  • business in London.

  • "To Jane herself," she exclaimed, "there could be no possibility of

  • objection; all loveliness and goodness as she is!--her understanding

  • excellent, her mind improved, and her manners captivating. Neither

  • could anything be urged against my father, who, though with some

  • peculiarities, has abilities Mr. Darcy himself need not disdain, and

  • respectability which he will probably never reach." When she thought of

  • her mother, her confidence gave way a little; but she would not allow

  • that any objections _there_ had material weight with Mr. Darcy, whose

  • pride, she was convinced, would receive a deeper wound from the want of

  • importance in his friend's connections, than from their want of sense;

  • and she was quite decided, at last, that he had been partly governed

  • by this worst kind of pride, and partly by the wish of retaining Mr.

  • Bingley for his sister.

  • The agitation and tears which the subject occasioned, brought on a

  • headache; and it grew so much worse towards the evening, that, added to

  • her unwillingness to see Mr. Darcy, it determined her not to attend her

  • cousins to Rosings, where they were engaged to drink tea. Mrs. Collins,

  • seeing that she was really unwell, did not press her to go and as much

  • as possible prevented her husband from pressing her; but Mr. Collins

  • could not conceal his apprehension of Lady Catherine's being rather

  • displeased by her staying at home.

  • Chapter 34

  • When they were gone, Elizabeth, as if intending to exasperate herself

  • as much as possible against Mr. Darcy, chose for her employment the

  • examination of all the letters which Jane had written to her since her

  • being in Kent. They contained no actual complaint, nor was there any

  • revival of past occurrences, or any communication of present suffering.

  • But in all, and in almost every line of each, there was a want of that

  • cheerfulness which had been used to characterise her style, and which,

  • proceeding from the serenity of a mind at ease with itself and kindly

  • disposed towards everyone, had been scarcely ever clouded. Elizabeth

  • noticed every sentence conveying the idea of uneasiness, with an

  • attention which it had hardly received on the first perusal. Mr. Darcy's

  • shameful boast of what misery he had been able to inflict, gave her

  • a keener sense of her sister's sufferings. It was some consolation

  • to think that his visit to Rosings was to end on the day after the

  • next--and, a still greater, that in less than a fortnight she should

  • herself be with Jane again, and enabled to contribute to the recovery of

  • her spirits, by all that affection could do.

  • She could not think of Darcy's leaving Kent without remembering that

  • his cousin was to go with him; but Colonel Fitzwilliam had made it clear

  • that he had no intentions at all, and agreeable as he was, she did not

  • mean to be unhappy about him.

  • While settling this point, she was suddenly roused by the sound of the

  • door-bell, and her spirits were a little fluttered by the idea of its

  • being Colonel Fitzwilliam himself, who had once before called late in

  • the evening, and might now come to inquire particularly after her.

  • But this idea was soon banished, and her spirits were very differently

  • affected, when, to her utter amazement, she saw Mr. Darcy walk into the

  • room. In an hurried manner he immediately began an inquiry after her

  • health, imputing his visit to a wish of hearing that she were better.

  • She answered him with cold civility. He sat down for a few moments, and

  • then getting up, walked about the room. Elizabeth was surprised, but

  • said not a word. After a silence of several minutes, he came towards her

  • in an agitated manner, and thus began:

  • "In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be

  • repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love

  • you."

  • Elizabeth's astonishment was beyond expression. She stared, coloured,

  • doubted, and was silent. This he considered sufficient encouragement;

  • and the avowal of all that he felt, and had long felt for her,

  • immediately followed. He spoke well; but there were feelings besides

  • those of the heart to be detailed; and he was not more eloquent on the

  • subject of tenderness than of pride. His sense of her inferiority--of

  • its being a degradation--of the family obstacles which had always

  • opposed to inclination, were dwelt on with a warmth which seemed due to

  • the consequence he was wounding, but was very unlikely to recommend his

  • suit.

  • In spite of her deeply-rooted dislike, she could not be insensible to

  • the compliment of such a man's affection, and though her intentions did

  • not vary for an instant, she was at first sorry for the pain he was to

  • receive; till, roused to resentment by his subsequent language, she

  • lost all compassion in anger. She tried, however, to compose herself to

  • answer him with patience, when he should have done. He concluded with

  • representing to her the strength of that attachment which, in spite

  • of all his endeavours, he had found impossible to conquer; and with

  • expressing his hope that it would now be rewarded by her acceptance of

  • his hand. As he said this, she could easily see that he had no doubt

  • of a favourable answer. He _spoke_ of apprehension and anxiety, but

  • his countenance expressed real security. Such a circumstance could

  • only exasperate farther, and, when he ceased, the colour rose into her

  • cheeks, and she said:

  • "In such cases as this, it is, I believe, the established mode to

  • express a sense of obligation for the sentiments avowed, however

  • unequally they may be returned. It is natural that obligation should

  • be felt, and if I could _feel_ gratitude, I would now thank you. But I

  • cannot--I have never desired your good opinion, and you have certainly

  • bestowed it most unwillingly. I am sorry to have occasioned pain to

  • anyone. It has been most unconsciously done, however, and I hope will be

  • of short duration. The feelings which, you tell me, have long prevented

  • the acknowledgment of your regard, can have little difficulty in

  • overcoming it after this explanation."

  • Mr. Darcy, who was leaning against the mantelpiece with his eyes fixed

  • on her face, seemed to catch her words with no less resentment than

  • surprise. His complexion became pale with anger, and the disturbance

  • of his mind was visible in every feature. He was struggling for the

  • appearance of composure, and would not open his lips till he believed

  • himself to have attained it. The pause was to Elizabeth's feelings

  • dreadful. At length, with a voice of forced calmness, he said:

  • "And this is all the reply which I am to have the honour of expecting!

  • I might, perhaps, wish to be informed why, with so little _endeavour_ at

  • civility, I am thus rejected. But it is of small importance."

  • "I might as well inquire," replied she, "why with so evident a desire

  • of offending and insulting me, you chose to tell me that you liked me

  • against your will, against your reason, and even against your character?

  • Was not this some excuse for incivility, if I _was_ uncivil? But I have

  • other provocations. You know I have. Had not my feelings decided against

  • you--had they been indifferent, or had they even been favourable, do you

  • think that any consideration would tempt me to accept the man who has

  • been the means of ruining, perhaps for ever, the happiness of a most

  • beloved sister?"

  • As she pronounced these words, Mr. Darcy changed colour; but the emotion

  • was short, and he listened without attempting to interrupt her while she

  • continued:

  • "I have every reason in the world to think ill of you. No motive can

  • excuse the unjust and ungenerous part you acted _there_. You dare not,

  • you cannot deny, that you have been the principal, if not the only means

  • of dividing them from each other--of exposing one to the censure of the

  • world for caprice and instability, and the other to its derision for

  • disappointed hopes, and involving them both in misery of the acutest

  • kind."

  • She paused, and saw with no slight indignation that he was listening

  • with an air which proved him wholly unmoved by any feeling of remorse.

  • He even looked at her with a smile of affected incredulity.

  • "Can you deny that you have done it?" she repeated.

  • With assumed tranquillity he then replied: "I have no wish of denying

  • that I did everything in my power to separate my friend from your

  • sister, or that I rejoice in my success. Towards _him_ I have been

  • kinder than towards myself."

  • Elizabeth disdained the appearance of noticing this civil reflection,

  • but its meaning did not escape, nor was it likely to conciliate her.

  • "But it is not merely this affair," she continued, "on which my dislike

  • is founded. Long before it had taken place my opinion of you was

  • decided. Your character was unfolded in the recital which I received

  • many months ago from Mr. Wickham. On this subject, what can you have to

  • say? In what imaginary act of friendship can you here defend yourself?

  • or under what misrepresentation can you here impose upon others?"

  • "You take an eager interest in that gentleman's concerns," said Darcy,

  • in a less tranquil tone, and with a heightened colour.

  • "Who that knows what his misfortunes have been, can help feeling an

  • interest in him?"

  • "His misfortunes!" repeated Darcy contemptuously; "yes, his misfortunes

  • have been great indeed."

  • "And of your infliction," cried Elizabeth with energy. "You have reduced

  • him to his present state of poverty--comparative poverty. You have

  • withheld the advantages which you must know to have been designed for

  • him. You have deprived the best years of his life of that independence

  • which was no less his due than his desert. You have done all this!

  • and yet you can treat the mention of his misfortune with contempt and

  • ridicule."

  • "And this," cried Darcy, as he walked with quick steps across the room,

  • "is your opinion of me! This is the estimation in which you hold me!

  • I thank you for explaining it so fully. My faults, according to this

  • calculation, are heavy indeed! But perhaps," added he, stopping in

  • his walk, and turning towards her, "these offenses might have been

  • overlooked, had not your pride been hurt by my honest confession of the

  • scruples that had long prevented my forming any serious design. These

  • bitter accusations might have been suppressed, had I, with greater

  • policy, concealed my struggles, and flattered you into the belief of

  • my being impelled by unqualified, unalloyed inclination; by reason, by

  • reflection, by everything. But disguise of every sort is my abhorrence.

  • Nor am I ashamed of the feelings I related. They were natural and

  • just. Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of your

  • connections?--to congratulate myself on the hope of relations, whose

  • condition in life is so decidedly beneath my own?"

  • Elizabeth felt herself growing more angry every moment; yet she tried to

  • the utmost to speak with composure when she said:

  • "You are mistaken, Mr. Darcy, if you suppose that the mode of your

  • declaration affected me in any other way, than as it spared me the concern

  • which I might have felt in refusing you, had you behaved in a more

  • gentlemanlike manner."

  • She saw him start at this, but he said nothing, and she continued:

  • "You could not have made the offer of your hand in any possible way that

  • would have tempted me to accept it."

  • Again his astonishment was obvious; and he looked at her with an

  • expression of mingled incredulity and mortification. She went on:

  • "From the very beginning--from the first moment, I may almost say--of

  • my acquaintance with you, your manners, impressing me with the fullest

  • belief of your arrogance, your conceit, and your selfish disdain of

  • the feelings of others, were such as to form the groundwork of

  • disapprobation on which succeeding events have built so immovable a

  • dislike; and I had not known you a month before I felt that you were the

  • last man in the world whom I could ever be prevailed on to marry."

  • "You have said quite enough, madam. I perfectly comprehend your

  • feelings, and have now only to be ashamed of what my own have been.

  • Forgive me for having taken up so much of your time, and accept my best

  • wishes for your health and happiness."

  • And with these words he hastily left the room, and Elizabeth heard him

  • the next moment open the front door and quit the house.

  • The tumult of her mind, was now painfully great. She knew not how

  • to support herself, and from actual weakness sat down and cried for

  • half-an-hour. Her astonishment, as she reflected on what had passed,

  • was increased by every review of it. That she should receive an offer of

  • marriage from Mr. Darcy! That he should have been in love with her for

  • so many months! So much in love as to wish to marry her in spite of

  • all the objections which had made him prevent his friend's marrying

  • her sister, and which must appear at least with equal force in his

  • own case--was almost incredible! It was gratifying to have inspired

  • unconsciously so strong an affection. But his pride, his abominable

  • pride--his shameless avowal of what he had done with respect to

  • Jane--his unpardonable assurance in acknowledging, though he could

  • not justify it, and the unfeeling manner in which he had mentioned Mr.

  • Wickham, his cruelty towards whom he had not attempted to deny, soon

  • overcame the pity which the consideration of his attachment had for

  • a moment excited. She continued in very agitated reflections till the

  • sound of Lady Catherine's carriage made her feel how unequal she was to

  • encounter Charlotte's observation, and hurried her away to her room.

  • Chapter 35

  • Elizabeth awoke the next morning to the same thoughts and meditations

  • which had at length closed her eyes. She could not yet recover from the

  • surprise of what had happened; it was impossible to think of anything

  • else; and, totally indisposed for employment, she resolved, soon after

  • breakfast, to indulge herself in air and exercise. She was proceeding

  • directly to her favourite walk, when the recollection of Mr. Darcy's

  • sometimes coming there stopped her, and instead of entering the park,

  • she turned up the lane, which led farther from the turnpike-road. The

  • park paling was still the boundary on one side, and she soon passed one

  • of the gates into the ground.

  • After walking two or three times along that part of the lane, she was

  • tempted, by the pleasantness of the morning, to stop at the gates and

  • look into the park. The five weeks which she had now passed in Kent had

  • made a great difference in the country, and every day was adding to the

  • verdure of the early trees. She was on the point of continuing her walk,

  • when she caught a glimpse of a gentleman within the sort of grove which

  • edged the park; he was moving that way; and, fearful of its being Mr.

  • Darcy, she was directly retreating. But the person who advanced was now

  • near enough to see her, and stepping forward with eagerness, pronounced

  • her name. She had turned away; but on hearing herself called, though

  • in a voice which proved it to be Mr. Darcy, she moved again towards the

  • gate. He had by that time reached it also, and, holding out a letter,

  • which she instinctively took, said, with a look of haughty composure,

  • "I have been walking in the grove some time in the hope of meeting you.

  • Will you do me the honour of reading that letter?" And then, with a

  • slight bow, turned again into the plantation, and was soon out of sight.

  • With no expectation of pleasure, but with the strongest curiosity,

  • Elizabeth opened the letter, and, to her still increasing wonder,

  • perceived an envelope containing two sheets of letter-paper, written

  • quite through, in a very close hand. The envelope itself was likewise

  • full. Pursuing her way along the lane, she then began it. It was dated

  • from Rosings, at eight o'clock in the morning, and was as follows:--

  • "Be not alarmed, madam, on receiving this letter, by the apprehension

  • of its containing any repetition of those sentiments or renewal of those

  • offers which were last night so disgusting to you. I write without any

  • intention of paining you, or humbling myself, by dwelling on wishes

  • which, for the happiness of both, cannot be too soon forgotten; and the

  • effort which the formation and the perusal of this letter must occasion,

  • should have been spared, had not my character required it to be written

  • and read. You must, therefore, pardon the freedom with which I demand

  • your attention; your feelings, I know, will bestow it unwillingly, but I

  • demand it of your justice.

  • "Two offenses of a very different nature, and by no means of equal

  • magnitude, you last night laid to my charge. The first mentioned was,

  • that, regardless of the sentiments of either, I had detached Mr. Bingley

  • from your sister, and the other, that I had, in defiance of various

  • claims, in defiance of honour and humanity, ruined the immediate

  • prosperity and blasted the prospects of Mr. Wickham. Wilfully and

  • wantonly to have thrown off the companion of my youth, the acknowledged

  • favourite of my father, a young man who had scarcely any other

  • dependence than on our patronage, and who had been brought up to expect

  • its exertion, would be a depravity, to which the separation of two young

  • persons, whose affection could be the growth of only a few weeks, could

  • bear no comparison. But from the severity of that blame which was last

  • night so liberally bestowed, respecting each circumstance, I shall hope

  • to be in the future secured, when the following account of my actions

  • and their motives has been read. If, in the explanation of them, which

  • is due to myself, I am under the necessity of relating feelings which

  • may be offensive to yours, I can only say that I am sorry. The necessity

  • must be obeyed, and further apology would be absurd.

  • "I had not been long in Hertfordshire, before I saw, in common with

  • others, that Bingley preferred your elder sister to any other young

  • woman in the country. But it was not till the evening of the dance

  • at Netherfield that I had any apprehension of his feeling a serious

  • attachment. I had often seen him in love before. At that ball, while I

  • had the honour of dancing with you, I was first made acquainted, by Sir

  • William Lucas's accidental information, that Bingley's attentions to

  • your sister had given rise to a general expectation of their marriage.

  • He spoke of it as a certain event, of which the time alone could

  • be undecided. From that moment I observed my friend's behaviour

  • attentively; and I could then perceive that his partiality for Miss

  • Bennet was beyond what I had ever witnessed in him. Your sister I also

  • watched. Her look and manners were open, cheerful, and engaging as ever,

  • but without any symptom of peculiar regard, and I remained convinced

  • from the evening's scrutiny, that though she received his attentions

  • with pleasure, she did not invite them by any participation of

  • sentiment. If _you_ have not been mistaken here, _I_ must have been

  • in error. Your superior knowledge of your sister must make the latter

  • probable. If it be so, if I have been misled by such error to inflict

  • pain on her, your resentment has not been unreasonable. But I shall not

  • scruple to assert, that the serenity of your sister's countenance and

  • air was such as might have given the most acute observer a conviction

  • that, however amiable her temper, her heart was not likely to be

  • easily touched. That I was desirous of believing her indifferent is

  • certain--but I will venture to say that my investigation and decisions

  • are not usually influenced by my hopes or fears. I did not believe

  • her to be indifferent because I wished it; I believed it on impartial

  • conviction, as truly as I wished it in reason. My objections to the

  • marriage were not merely those which I last night acknowledged to have

  • the utmost force of passion to put aside, in my own case; the want of

  • connection could not be so great an evil to my friend as to me. But

  • there were other causes of repugnance; causes which, though still

  • existing, and existing to an equal degree in both instances, I had

  • myself endeavoured to forget, because they were not immediately before

  • me. These causes must be stated, though briefly. The situation of your

  • mother's family, though objectionable, was nothing in comparison to that

  • total want of propriety so frequently, so almost uniformly betrayed by

  • herself, by your three younger sisters, and occasionally even by your

  • father. Pardon me. It pains me to offend you. But amidst your concern

  • for the defects of your nearest relations, and your displeasure at this

  • representation of them, let it give you consolation to consider that, to

  • have conducted yourselves so as to avoid any share of the like censure,

  • is praise no less generally bestowed on you and your elder sister, than

  • it is honourable to the sense and disposition of both. I will only say

  • farther that from what passed that evening, my opinion of all parties

  • was confirmed, and every inducement heightened which could have led

  • me before, to preserve my friend from what I esteemed a most unhappy

  • connection. He left Netherfield for London, on the day following, as

  • you, I am certain, remember, with the design of soon returning.

  • "The part which I acted is now to be explained. His sisters' uneasiness

  • had been equally excited with my own; our coincidence of feeling was

  • soon discovered, and, alike sensible that no time was to be lost in

  • detaching their brother, we shortly resolved on joining him directly in

  • London. We accordingly went--and there I readily engaged in the office

  • of pointing out to my friend the certain evils of such a choice. I

  • described, and enforced them earnestly. But, however this remonstrance

  • might have staggered or delayed his determination, I do not suppose

  • that it would ultimately have prevented the marriage, had it not been

  • seconded by the assurance that I hesitated not in giving, of your

  • sister's indifference. He had before believed her to return his

  • affection with sincere, if not with equal regard. But Bingley has great

  • natural modesty, with a stronger dependence on my judgement than on his

  • own. To convince him, therefore, that he had deceived himself, was

  • no very difficult point. To persuade him against returning into

  • Hertfordshire, when that conviction had been given, was scarcely the

  • work of a moment. I cannot blame myself for having done thus much. There

  • is but one part of my conduct in the whole affair on which I do not

  • reflect with satisfaction; it is that I condescended to adopt the

  • measures of art so far as to conceal from him your sister's being in

  • town. I knew it myself, as it was known to Miss Bingley; but her

  • brother is even yet ignorant of it. That they might have met without

  • ill consequence is perhaps probable; but his regard did not appear to me

  • enough extinguished for him to see her without some danger. Perhaps this

  • concealment, this disguise was beneath me; it is done, however, and it

  • was done for the best. On this subject I have nothing more to say, no

  • other apology to offer. If I have wounded your sister's feelings, it

  • was unknowingly done and though the motives which governed me may to

  • you very naturally appear insufficient, I have not yet learnt to condemn

  • them.

  • "With respect to that other, more weighty accusation, of having injured

  • Mr. Wickham, I can only refute it by laying before you the whole of his

  • connection with my family. Of what he has _particularly_ accused me I

  • am ignorant; but of the truth of what I shall relate, I can summon more

  • than one witness of undoubted veracity.

  • "Mr. Wickham is the son of a very respectable man, who had for many

  • years the management of all the Pemberley estates, and whose good

  • conduct in the discharge of his trust naturally inclined my father to

  • be of service to him; and on George Wickham, who was his godson, his

  • kindness was therefore liberally bestowed. My father supported him at

  • school, and afterwards at Cambridge--most important assistance, as his

  • own father, always poor from the extravagance of his wife, would have

  • been unable to give him a gentleman's education. My father was not only

  • fond of this young man's society, whose manners were always engaging; he

  • had also the highest opinion of him, and hoping the church would be

  • his profession, intended to provide for him in it. As for myself, it is

  • many, many years since I first began to think of him in a very different

  • manner. The vicious propensities--the want of principle, which he was

  • careful to guard from the knowledge of his best friend, could not escape

  • the observation of a young man of nearly the same age with himself,

  • and who had opportunities of seeing him in unguarded moments, which Mr.

  • Darcy could not have. Here again I shall give you pain--to what degree

  • you only can tell. But whatever may be the sentiments which Mr. Wickham

  • has created, a suspicion of their nature shall not prevent me from

  • unfolding his real character--it adds even another motive.

  • "My excellent father died about five years ago; and his attachment to

  • Mr. Wickham was to the last so steady, that in his will he particularly

  • recommended it to me, to promote his advancement in the best manner

  • that his profession might allow--and if he took orders, desired that a

  • valuable family living might be his as soon as it became vacant. There

  • was also a legacy of one thousand pounds. His own father did not long

  • survive mine, and within half a year from these events, Mr. Wickham

  • wrote to inform me that, having finally resolved against taking orders,

  • he hoped I should not think it unreasonable for him to expect some more

  • immediate pecuniary advantage, in lieu of the preferment, by which he

  • could not be benefited. He had some intention, he added, of studying

  • law, and I must be aware that the interest of one thousand pounds would

  • be a very insufficient support therein. I rather wished, than believed

  • him to be sincere; but, at any rate, was perfectly ready to accede to

  • his proposal. I knew that Mr. Wickham ought not to be a clergyman; the

  • business was therefore soon settled--he resigned all claim to assistance

  • in the church, were it possible that he could ever be in a situation to

  • receive it, and accepted in return three thousand pounds. All connection

  • between us seemed now dissolved. I thought too ill of him to invite him

  • to Pemberley, or admit his society in town. In town I believe he chiefly

  • lived, but his studying the law was a mere pretence, and being now free

  • from all restraint, his life was a life of idleness and dissipation.

  • For about three years I heard little of him; but on the decease of the

  • incumbent of the living which had been designed for him, he applied to

  • me again by letter for the presentation. His circumstances, he assured

  • me, and I had no difficulty in believing it, were exceedingly bad. He

  • had found the law a most unprofitable study, and was now absolutely

  • resolved on being ordained, if I would present him to the living in

  • question--of which he trusted there could be little doubt, as he was

  • well assured that I had no other person to provide for, and I could not

  • have forgotten my revered father's intentions. You will hardly blame

  • me for refusing to comply with this entreaty, or for resisting every

  • repetition to it. His resentment was in proportion to the distress of

  • his circumstances--and he was doubtless as violent in his abuse of me

  • to others as in his reproaches to myself. After this period every

  • appearance of acquaintance was dropped. How he lived I know not. But

  • last summer he was again most painfully obtruded on my notice.

  • "I must now mention a circumstance which I would wish to forget myself,

  • and which no obligation less than the present should induce me to unfold

  • to any human being. Having said thus much, I feel no doubt of your

  • secrecy. My sister, who is more than ten years my junior, was left to

  • the guardianship of my mother's nephew, Colonel Fitzwilliam, and myself.

  • About a year ago, she was taken from school, and an establishment formed

  • for her in London; and last summer she went with the lady who presided

  • over it, to Ramsgate; and thither also went Mr. Wickham, undoubtedly by

  • design; for there proved to have been a prior acquaintance between him

  • and Mrs. Younge, in whose character we were most unhappily deceived; and

  • by her connivance and aid, he so far recommended himself to Georgiana,

  • whose affectionate heart retained a strong impression of his kindness to

  • her as a child, that she was persuaded to believe herself in love, and

  • to consent to an elopement. She was then but fifteen, which must be her

  • excuse; and after stating her imprudence, I am happy to add, that I owed

  • the knowledge of it to herself. I joined them unexpectedly a day or two

  • before the intended elopement, and then Georgiana, unable to support the

  • idea of grieving and offending a brother whom she almost looked up to as

  • a father, acknowledged the whole to me. You may imagine what I felt and

  • how I acted. Regard for my sister's credit and feelings prevented

  • any public exposure; but I wrote to Mr. Wickham, who left the place

  • immediately, and Mrs. Younge was of course removed from her charge. Mr.

  • Wickham's chief object was unquestionably my sister's fortune, which

  • is thirty thousand pounds; but I cannot help supposing that the hope of

  • revenging himself on me was a strong inducement. His revenge would have

  • been complete indeed.

  • "This, madam, is a faithful narrative of every event in which we have

  • been concerned together; and if you do not absolutely reject it as

  • false, you will, I hope, acquit me henceforth of cruelty towards Mr.

  • Wickham. I know not in what manner, under what form of falsehood he

  • had imposed on you; but his success is not perhaps to be wondered

  • at. Ignorant as you previously were of everything concerning either,

  • detection could not be in your power, and suspicion certainly not in

  • your inclination.

  • "You may possibly wonder why all this was not told you last night; but

  • I was not then master enough of myself to know what could or ought to

  • be revealed. For the truth of everything here related, I can appeal more

  • particularly to the testimony of Colonel Fitzwilliam, who, from our

  • near relationship and constant intimacy, and, still more, as one of

  • the executors of my father's will, has been unavoidably acquainted

  • with every particular of these transactions. If your abhorrence of _me_

  • should make _my_ assertions valueless, you cannot be prevented by

  • the same cause from confiding in my cousin; and that there may be

  • the possibility of consulting him, I shall endeavour to find some

  • opportunity of putting this letter in your hands in the course of the

  • morning. I will only add, God bless you.

  • "FITZWILLIAM DARCY"

  • Chapter 36

  • If Elizabeth, when Mr. Darcy gave her the letter, did not expect it to

  • contain a renewal of his offers, she had formed no expectation at all of

  • its contents. But such as they were, it may well be supposed how eagerly

  • she went through them, and what a contrariety of emotion they excited.

  • Her feelings as she read were scarcely to be defined. With amazement did

  • she first understand that he believed any apology to be in his power;

  • and steadfastly was she persuaded, that he could have no explanation

  • to give, which a just sense of shame would not conceal. With a strong

  • prejudice against everything he might say, she began his account of what

  • had happened at Netherfield. She read with an eagerness which hardly

  • left her power of comprehension, and from impatience of knowing what the

  • next sentence might bring, was incapable of attending to the sense of

  • the one before her eyes. His belief of her sister's insensibility she

  • instantly resolved to be false; and his account of the real, the worst

  • objections to the match, made her too angry to have any wish of doing

  • him justice. He expressed no regret for what he had done which satisfied

  • her; his style was not penitent, but haughty. It was all pride and

  • insolence.

  • But when this subject was succeeded by his account of Mr. Wickham--when

  • she read with somewhat clearer attention a relation of events which,

  • if true, must overthrow every cherished opinion of his worth, and which

  • bore so alarming an affinity to his own history of himself--her

  • feelings were yet more acutely painful and more difficult of definition.

  • Astonishment, apprehension, and even horror, oppressed her. She wished

  • to discredit it entirely, repeatedly exclaiming, "This must be false!

  • This cannot be! This must be the grossest falsehood!"--and when she had

  • gone through the whole letter, though scarcely knowing anything of the

  • last page or two, put it hastily away, protesting that she would not

  • regard it, that she would never look in it again.

  • In this perturbed state of mind, with thoughts that could rest on

  • nothing, she walked on; but it would not do; in half a minute the letter

  • was unfolded again, and collecting herself as well as she could, she

  • again began the mortifying perusal of all that related to Wickham, and

  • commanded herself so far as to examine the meaning of every sentence.

  • The account of his connection with the Pemberley family was exactly what

  • he had related himself; and the kindness of the late Mr. Darcy, though

  • she had not before known its extent, agreed equally well with his own

  • words. So far each recital confirmed the other; but when she came to the

  • will, the difference was great. What Wickham had said of the living

  • was fresh in her memory, and as she recalled his very words, it was

  • impossible not to feel that there was gross duplicity on one side or the

  • other; and, for a few moments, she flattered herself that her wishes did

  • not err. But when she read and re-read with the closest attention, the

  • particulars immediately following of Wickham's resigning all pretensions

  • to the living, of his receiving in lieu so considerable a sum as three

  • thousand pounds, again was she forced to hesitate. She put down

  • the letter, weighed every circumstance with what she meant to be

  • impartiality--deliberated on the probability of each statement--but with

  • little success. On both sides it was only assertion. Again she read

  • on; but every line proved more clearly that the affair, which she had

  • believed it impossible that any contrivance could so represent as to

  • render Mr. Darcy's conduct in it less than infamous, was capable of a

  • turn which must make him entirely blameless throughout the whole.

  • The extravagance and general profligacy which he scrupled not to lay at

  • Mr. Wickham's charge, exceedingly shocked her; the more so, as she could

  • bring no proof of its injustice. She had never heard of him before his

  • entrance into the ----shire Militia, in which he had engaged at the

  • persuasion of the young man who, on meeting him accidentally in town,

  • had there renewed a slight acquaintance. Of his former way of life

  • nothing had been known in Hertfordshire but what he told himself. As

  • to his real character, had information been in her power, she had

  • never felt a wish of inquiring. His countenance, voice, and manner had

  • established him at once in the possession of every virtue. She tried

  • to recollect some instance of goodness, some distinguished trait of

  • integrity or benevolence, that might rescue him from the attacks of

  • Mr. Darcy; or at least, by the predominance of virtue, atone for those

  • casual errors under which she would endeavour to class what Mr. Darcy

  • had described as the idleness and vice of many years' continuance. But

  • no such recollection befriended her. She could see him instantly before

  • her, in every charm of air and address; but she could remember no more

  • substantial good than the general approbation of the neighbourhood, and

  • the regard which his social powers had gained him in the mess. After

  • pausing on this point a considerable while, she once more continued to

  • read. But, alas! the story which followed, of his designs on Miss

  • Darcy, received some confirmation from what had passed between Colonel

  • Fitzwilliam and herself only the morning before; and at last she was

  • referred for the truth of every particular to Colonel Fitzwilliam

  • himself--from whom she had previously received the information of his

  • near concern in all his cousin's affairs, and whose character she had no

  • reason to question. At one time she had almost resolved on applying to

  • him, but the idea was checked by the awkwardness of the application, and

  • at length wholly banished by the conviction that Mr. Darcy would never

  • have hazarded such a proposal, if he had not been well assured of his

  • cousin's corroboration.

  • She perfectly remembered everything that had passed in conversation

  • between Wickham and herself, in their first evening at Mr. Phillips's.

  • Many of his expressions were still fresh in her memory. She was _now_

  • struck with the impropriety of such communications to a stranger, and

  • wondered it had escaped her before. She saw the indelicacy of putting

  • himself forward as he had done, and the inconsistency of his professions

  • with his conduct. She remembered that he had boasted of having no fear

  • of seeing Mr. Darcy--that Mr. Darcy might leave the country, but that

  • _he_ should stand his ground; yet he had avoided the Netherfield ball

  • the very next week. She remembered also that, till the Netherfield

  • family had quitted the country, he had told his story to no one but

  • herself; but that after their removal it had been everywhere discussed;

  • that he had then no reserves, no scruples in sinking Mr. Darcy's

  • character, though he had assured her that respect for the father would

  • always prevent his exposing the son.

  • How differently did everything now appear in which he was concerned!

  • His attentions to Miss King were now the consequence of views solely and

  • hatefully mercenary; and the mediocrity of her fortune proved no longer

  • the moderation of his wishes, but his eagerness to grasp at anything.

  • His behaviour to herself could now have had no tolerable motive; he had

  • either been deceived with regard to her fortune, or had been gratifying

  • his vanity by encouraging the preference which she believed she had most

  • incautiously shown. Every lingering struggle in his favour grew fainter

  • and fainter; and in farther justification of Mr. Darcy, she could not

  • but allow that Mr. Bingley, when questioned by Jane, had long ago

  • asserted his blamelessness in the affair; that proud and repulsive as

  • were his manners, she had never, in the whole course of their

  • acquaintance--an acquaintance which had latterly brought them much

  • together, and given her a sort of intimacy with his ways--seen anything

  • that betrayed him to be unprincipled or unjust--anything that spoke him

  • of irreligious or immoral habits; that among his own connections he was

  • esteemed and valued--that even Wickham had allowed him merit as a

  • brother, and that she had often heard him speak so affectionately of his

  • sister as to prove him capable of _some_ amiable feeling; that had his

  • actions been what Mr. Wickham represented them, so gross a violation of

  • everything right could hardly have been concealed from the world; and

  • that friendship between a person capable of it, and such an amiable man

  • as Mr. Bingley, was incomprehensible.

  • She grew absolutely ashamed of herself. Of neither Darcy nor Wickham

  • could she think without feeling she had been blind, partial, prejudiced,

  • absurd.

  • "How despicably I have acted!" she cried; "I, who have prided myself

  • on my discernment! I, who have valued myself on my abilities! who have

  • often disdained the generous candour of my sister, and gratified

  • my vanity in useless or blameable mistrust! How humiliating is this

  • discovery! Yet, how just a humiliation! Had I been in love, I could

  • not have been more wretchedly blind! But vanity, not love, has been my

  • folly. Pleased with the preference of one, and offended by the neglect

  • of the other, on the very beginning of our acquaintance, I have courted

  • prepossession and ignorance, and driven reason away, where either were

  • concerned. Till this moment I never knew myself."

  • From herself to Jane--from Jane to Bingley, her thoughts were in a line

  • which soon brought to her recollection that Mr. Darcy's explanation

  • _there_ had appeared very insufficient, and she read it again. Widely

  • different was the effect of a second perusal. How could she deny that

  • credit to his assertions in one instance, which she had been obliged to

  • give in the other? He declared himself to be totally unsuspicious of her

  • sister's attachment; and she could not help remembering what Charlotte's

  • opinion had always been. Neither could she deny the justice of his

  • description of Jane. She felt that Jane's feelings, though fervent, were

  • little displayed, and that there was a constant complacency in her air

  • and manner not often united with great sensibility.

  • When she came to that part of the letter in which her family were

  • mentioned in terms of such mortifying, yet merited reproach, her sense

  • of shame was severe. The justice of the charge struck her too forcibly

  • for denial, and the circumstances to which he particularly alluded as

  • having passed at the Netherfield ball, and as confirming all his first

  • disapprobation, could not have made a stronger impression on his mind

  • than on hers.

  • The compliment to herself and her sister was not unfelt. It soothed,

  • but it could not console her for the contempt which had thus been

  • self-attracted by the rest of her family; and as she considered

  • that Jane's disappointment had in fact been the work of her nearest

  • relations, and reflected how materially the credit of both must be hurt

  • by such impropriety of conduct, she felt depressed beyond anything she

  • had ever known before.

  • After wandering along the lane for two hours, giving way to every

  • variety of thought--re-considering events, determining probabilities,

  • and reconciling herself, as well as she could, to a change so sudden and

  • so important, fatigue, and a recollection of her long absence, made

  • her at length return home; and she entered the house with the wish

  • of appearing cheerful as usual, and the resolution of repressing such

  • reflections as must make her unfit for conversation.

  • She was immediately told that the two gentlemen from Rosings had each

  • called during her absence; Mr. Darcy, only for a few minutes, to take

  • leave--but that Colonel Fitzwilliam had been sitting with them at least

  • an hour, hoping for her return, and almost resolving to walk after her

  • till she could be found. Elizabeth could but just _affect_ concern

  • in missing him; she really rejoiced at it. Colonel Fitzwilliam was no

  • longer an object; she could think only of her letter.

  • Chapter 37

  • The two gentlemen left Rosings the next morning, and Mr. Collins having

  • been in waiting near the lodges, to make them his parting obeisance, was

  • able to bring home the pleasing intelligence, of their appearing in very

  • good health, and in as tolerable spirits as could be expected, after the

  • melancholy scene so lately gone through at Rosings. To Rosings he then

  • hastened, to console Lady Catherine and her daughter; and on his return

  • brought back, with great satisfaction, a message from her ladyship,

  • importing that she felt herself so dull as to make her very desirous of

  • having them all to dine with her.

  • Elizabeth could not see Lady Catherine without recollecting that, had

  • she chosen it, she might by this time have been presented to her as

  • her future niece; nor could she think, without a smile, of what her

  • ladyship's indignation would have been. "What would she have said? how

  • would she have behaved?" were questions with which she amused herself.

  • Their first subject was the diminution of the Rosings party. "I assure

  • you, I feel it exceedingly," said Lady Catherine; "I believe no one

  • feels the loss of friends so much as I do. But I am particularly

  • attached to these young men, and know them to be so much attached to

  • me! They were excessively sorry to go! But so they always are. The

  • dear Colonel rallied his spirits tolerably till just at last; but Darcy

  • seemed to feel it most acutely, more, I think, than last year. His

  • attachment to Rosings certainly increases."

  • Mr. Collins had a compliment, and an allusion to throw in here, which

  • were kindly smiled on by the mother and daughter.

  • Lady Catherine observed, after dinner, that Miss Bennet seemed out of

  • spirits, and immediately accounting for it by herself, by supposing that

  • she did not like to go home again so soon, she added:

  • "But if that is the case, you must write to your mother and beg that

  • you may stay a little longer. Mrs. Collins will be very glad of your

  • company, I am sure."

  • "I am much obliged to your ladyship for your kind invitation," replied

  • Elizabeth, "but it is not in my power to accept it. I must be in town

  • next Saturday."

  • "Why, at that rate, you will have been here only six weeks. I expected

  • you to stay two months. I told Mrs. Collins so before you came. There

  • can be no occasion for your going so soon. Mrs. Bennet could certainly

  • spare you for another fortnight."

  • "But my father cannot. He wrote last week to hurry my return."

  • "Oh! your father of course may spare you, if your mother can. Daughters

  • are never of so much consequence to a father. And if you will stay

  • another _month_ complete, it will be in my power to take one of you as

  • far as London, for I am going there early in June, for a week; and as

  • Dawson does not object to the barouche-box, there will be very good room

  • for one of you--and indeed, if the weather should happen to be cool, I

  • should not object to taking you both, as you are neither of you large."

  • "You are all kindness, madam; but I believe we must abide by our

  • original plan."

  • Lady Catherine seemed resigned. "Mrs. Collins, you must send a servant

  • with them. You know I always speak my mind, and I cannot bear the idea

  • of two young women travelling post by themselves. It is highly improper.

  • You must contrive to send somebody. I have the greatest dislike in

  • the world to that sort of thing. Young women should always be properly

  • guarded and attended, according to their situation in life. When my

  • niece Georgiana went to Ramsgate last summer, I made a point of her

  • having two men-servants go with her. Miss Darcy, the daughter of

  • Mr. Darcy, of Pemberley, and Lady Anne, could not have appeared with

  • propriety in a different manner. I am excessively attentive to all those

  • things. You must send John with the young ladies, Mrs. Collins. I

  • am glad it occurred to me to mention it; for it would really be

  • discreditable to _you_ to let them go alone."

  • "My uncle is to send a servant for us."

  • "Oh! Your uncle! He keeps a man-servant, does he? I am very glad you

  • have somebody who thinks of these things. Where shall you change horses?

  • Oh! Bromley, of course. If you mention my name at the Bell, you will be

  • attended to."

  • Lady Catherine had many other questions to ask respecting their journey,

  • and as she did not answer them all herself, attention was necessary,

  • which Elizabeth believed to be lucky for her; or, with a mind so

  • occupied, she might have forgotten where she was. Reflection must be

  • reserved for solitary hours; whenever she was alone, she gave way to it

  • as the greatest relief; and not a day went by without a solitary

  • walk, in which she might indulge in all the delight of unpleasant

  • recollections.

  • Mr. Darcy's letter she was in a fair way of soon knowing by heart. She

  • studied every sentence; and her feelings towards its writer were at

  • times widely different. When she remembered the style of his address,

  • she was still full of indignation; but when she considered how unjustly

  • she had condemned and upbraided him, her anger was turned against

  • herself; and his disappointed feelings became the object of compassion.

  • His attachment excited gratitude, his general character respect; but she

  • could not approve him; nor could she for a moment repent her refusal,

  • or feel the slightest inclination ever to see him again. In her own past

  • behaviour, there was a constant source of vexation and regret; and in

  • the unhappy defects of her family, a subject of yet heavier chagrin.

  • They were hopeless of remedy. Her father, contented with laughing at

  • them, would never exert himself to restrain the wild giddiness of his

  • youngest daughters; and her mother, with manners so far from right

  • herself, was entirely insensible of the evil. Elizabeth had frequently

  • united with Jane in an endeavour to check the imprudence of Catherine

  • and Lydia; but while they were supported by their mother's indulgence,

  • what chance could there be of improvement? Catherine, weak-spirited,

  • irritable, and completely under Lydia's guidance, had been always

  • affronted by their advice; and Lydia, self-willed and careless, would

  • scarcely give them a hearing. They were ignorant, idle, and vain. While

  • there was an officer in Meryton, they would flirt with him; and while

  • Meryton was within a walk of Longbourn, they would be going there

  • forever.

  • Anxiety on Jane's behalf was another prevailing concern; and Mr. Darcy's

  • explanation, by restoring Bingley to all her former good opinion,

  • heightened the sense of what Jane had lost. His affection was proved

  • to have been sincere, and his conduct cleared of all blame, unless any

  • could attach to the implicitness of his confidence in his friend. How

  • grievous then was the thought that, of a situation so desirable in every

  • respect, so replete with advantage, so promising for happiness, Jane had

  • been deprived, by the folly and indecorum of her own family!

  • When to these recollections was added the development of Wickham's

  • character, it may be easily believed that the happy spirits which had

  • seldom been depressed before, were now so much affected as to make it

  • almost impossible for her to appear tolerably cheerful.

  • Their engagements at Rosings were as frequent during the last week of

  • her stay as they had been at first. The very last evening was spent

  • there; and her ladyship again inquired minutely into the particulars of

  • their journey, gave them directions as to the best method of packing,

  • and was so urgent on the necessity of placing gowns in the only right

  • way, that Maria thought herself obliged, on her return, to undo all the

  • work of the morning, and pack her trunk afresh.

  • When they parted, Lady Catherine, with great condescension, wished them

  • a good journey, and invited them to come to Hunsford again next year;

  • and Miss de Bourgh exerted herself so far as to curtsey and hold out her

  • hand to both.

  • Chapter 38

  • On Saturday morning Elizabeth and Mr. Collins met for breakfast a few

  • minutes before the others appeared; and he took the opportunity of

  • paying the parting civilities which he deemed indispensably necessary.

  • "I know not, Miss Elizabeth," said he, "whether Mrs. Collins has yet

  • expressed her sense of your kindness in coming to us; but I am very

  • certain you will not leave the house without receiving her thanks for

  • it. The favour of your company has been much felt, I assure you. We

  • know how little there is to tempt anyone to our humble abode. Our plain

  • manner of living, our small rooms and few domestics, and the little we

  • see of the world, must make Hunsford extremely dull to a young lady like

  • yourself; but I hope you will believe us grateful for the condescension,

  • and that we have done everything in our power to prevent your spending

  • your time unpleasantly."

  • Elizabeth was eager with her thanks and assurances of happiness. She

  • had spent six weeks with great enjoyment; and the pleasure of being with

  • Charlotte, and the kind attentions she had received, must make _her_

  • feel the obliged. Mr. Collins was gratified, and with a more smiling

  • solemnity replied:

  • "It gives me great pleasure to hear that you have passed your time not

  • disagreeably. We have certainly done our best; and most fortunately

  • having it in our power to introduce you to very superior society, and,

  • from our connection with Rosings, the frequent means of varying the

  • humble home scene, I think we may flatter ourselves that your Hunsford

  • visit cannot have been entirely irksome. Our situation with regard to

  • Lady Catherine's family is indeed the sort of extraordinary advantage

  • and blessing which few can boast. You see on what a footing we are. You

  • see how continually we are engaged there. In truth I must acknowledge

  • that, with all the disadvantages of this humble parsonage, I should

  • not think anyone abiding in it an object of compassion, while they are

  • sharers of our intimacy at Rosings."

  • Words were insufficient for the elevation of his feelings; and he was

  • obliged to walk about the room, while Elizabeth tried to unite civility

  • and truth in a few short sentences.

  • "You may, in fact, carry a very favourable report of us into

  • Hertfordshire, my dear cousin. I flatter myself at least that you will

  • be able to do so. Lady Catherine's great attentions to Mrs. Collins you

  • have been a daily witness of; and altogether I trust it does not appear

  • that your friend has drawn an unfortunate--but on this point it will be

  • as well to be silent. Only let me assure you, my dear Miss Elizabeth,

  • that I can from my heart most cordially wish you equal felicity in

  • marriage. My dear Charlotte and I have but one mind and one way of

  • thinking. There is in everything a most remarkable resemblance of

  • character and ideas between us. We seem to have been designed for each

  • other."

  • Elizabeth could safely say that it was a great happiness where that was

  • the case, and with equal sincerity could add, that she firmly believed

  • and rejoiced in his domestic comforts. She was not sorry, however, to

  • have the recital of them interrupted by the lady from whom they sprang.

  • Poor Charlotte! it was melancholy to leave her to such society! But she

  • had chosen it with her eyes open; and though evidently regretting that

  • her visitors were to go, she did not seem to ask for compassion. Her

  • home and her housekeeping, her parish and her poultry, and all their

  • dependent concerns, had not yet lost their charms.

  • At length the chaise arrived, the trunks were fastened on, the parcels

  • placed within, and it was pronounced to be ready. After an affectionate

  • parting between the friends, Elizabeth was attended to the carriage by

  • Mr. Collins, and as they walked down the garden he was commissioning her

  • with his best respects to all her family, not forgetting his thanks

  • for the kindness he had received at Longbourn in the winter, and his

  • compliments to Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner, though unknown. He then handed her

  • in, Maria followed, and the door was on the point of being closed,

  • when he suddenly reminded them, with some consternation, that they had

  • hitherto forgotten to leave any message for the ladies at Rosings.

  • "But," he added, "you will of course wish to have your humble respects

  • delivered to them, with your grateful thanks for their kindness to you

  • while you have been here."

  • Elizabeth made no objection; the door was then allowed to be shut, and

  • the carriage drove off.

  • "Good gracious!" cried Maria, after a few minutes' silence, "it seems

  • but a day or two since we first came! and yet how many things have

  • happened!"

  • "A great many indeed," said her companion with a sigh.

  • "We have dined nine times at Rosings, besides drinking tea there twice!

  • How much I shall have to tell!"

  • Elizabeth added privately, "And how much I shall have to conceal!"

  • Their journey was performed without much conversation, or any alarm; and

  • within four hours of their leaving Hunsford they reached Mr. Gardiner's

  • house, where they were to remain a few days.

  • Jane looked well, and Elizabeth had little opportunity of studying her

  • spirits, amidst the various engagements which the kindness of her

  • aunt had reserved for them. But Jane was to go home with her, and at

  • Longbourn there would be leisure enough for observation.

  • It was not without an effort, meanwhile, that she could wait even for

  • Longbourn, before she told her sister of Mr. Darcy's proposals. To know

  • that she had the power of revealing what would so exceedingly astonish

  • Jane, and must, at the same time, so highly gratify whatever of her own

  • vanity she had not yet been able to reason away, was such a temptation

  • to openness as nothing could have conquered but the state of indecision

  • in which she remained as to the extent of what she should communicate;

  • and her fear, if she once entered on the subject, of being hurried

  • into repeating something of Bingley which might only grieve her sister

  • further.

  • Chapter 39

  • It was the second week in May, in which the three young ladies set out

  • together from Gracechurch Street for the town of ----, in Hertfordshire;

  • and, as they drew near the appointed inn where Mr. Bennet's carriage

  • was to meet them, they quickly perceived, in token of the coachman's

  • punctuality, both Kitty and Lydia looking out of a dining-room up stairs.

  • These two girls had been above an hour in the place, happily employed

  • in visiting an opposite milliner, watching the sentinel on guard, and

  • dressing a salad and cucumber.

  • After welcoming their sisters, they triumphantly displayed a table set

  • out with such cold meat as an inn larder usually affords, exclaiming,

  • "Is not this nice? Is not this an agreeable surprise?"

  • "And we mean to treat you all," added Lydia, "but you must lend us the

  • money, for we have just spent ours at the shop out there." Then, showing

  • her purchases--"Look here, I have bought this bonnet. I do not think

  • it is very pretty; but I thought I might as well buy it as not. I shall

  • pull it to pieces as soon as I get home, and see if I can make it up any

  • better."

  • And when her sisters abused it as ugly, she added, with perfect

  • unconcern, "Oh! but there were two or three much uglier in the shop; and

  • when I have bought some prettier-coloured satin to trim it with fresh, I

  • think it will be very tolerable. Besides, it will not much signify what

  • one wears this summer, after the ----shire have left Meryton, and they

  • are going in a fortnight."

  • "Are they indeed!" cried Elizabeth, with the greatest satisfaction.

  • "They are going to be encamped near Brighton; and I do so want papa to

  • take us all there for the summer! It would be such a delicious scheme;

  • and I dare say would hardly cost anything at all. Mamma would like to

  • go too of all things! Only think what a miserable summer else we shall

  • have!"

  • "Yes," thought Elizabeth, "_that_ would be a delightful scheme indeed,

  • and completely do for us at once. Good Heaven! Brighton, and a whole

  • campful of soldiers, to us, who have been overset already by one poor

  • regiment of militia, and the monthly balls of Meryton!"

  • "Now I have got some news for you," said Lydia, as they sat down at

  • table. "What do you think? It is excellent news--capital news--and about

  • a certain person we all like!"

  • Jane and Elizabeth looked at each other, and the waiter was told he need

  • not stay. Lydia laughed, and said:

  • "Aye, that is just like your formality and discretion. You thought the

  • waiter must not hear, as if he cared! I dare say he often hears worse

  • things said than I am going to say. But he is an ugly fellow! I am glad

  • he is gone. I never saw such a long chin in my life. Well, but now for

  • my news; it is about dear Wickham; too good for the waiter, is it not?

  • There is no danger of Wickham's marrying Mary King. There's for you! She

  • is gone down to her uncle at Liverpool: gone to stay. Wickham is safe."

  • "And Mary King is safe!" added Elizabeth; "safe from a connection

  • imprudent as to fortune."

  • "She is a great fool for going away, if she liked him."

  • "But I hope there is no strong attachment on either side," said Jane.

  • "I am sure there is not on _his_. I will answer for it, he never cared

  • three straws about her--who could about such a nasty little freckled

  • thing?"

  • Elizabeth was shocked to think that, however incapable of such

  • coarseness of _expression_ herself, the coarseness of the _sentiment_

  • was little other than her own breast had harboured and fancied liberal!

  • As soon as all had ate, and the elder ones paid, the carriage was

  • ordered; and after some contrivance, the whole party, with all their

  • boxes, work-bags, and parcels, and the unwelcome addition of Kitty's and

  • Lydia's purchases, were seated in it.

  • "How nicely we are all crammed in," cried Lydia. "I am glad I bought my

  • bonnet, if it is only for the fun of having another bandbox! Well, now

  • let us be quite comfortable and snug, and talk and laugh all the way

  • home. And in the first place, let us hear what has happened to you all

  • since you went away. Have you seen any pleasant men? Have you had any

  • flirting? I was in great hopes that one of you would have got a husband

  • before you came back. Jane will be quite an old maid soon, I declare.

  • She is almost three-and-twenty! Lord, how ashamed I should be of not

  • being married before three-and-twenty! My aunt Phillips wants you so to

  • get husbands, you can't think. She says Lizzy had better have taken Mr.

  • Collins; but _I_ do not think there would have been any fun in it. Lord!

  • how I should like to be married before any of you; and then I would

  • chaperon you about to all the balls. Dear me! we had such a good piece

  • of fun the other day at Colonel Forster's. Kitty and me were to spend

  • the day there, and Mrs. Forster promised to have a little dance in the

  • evening; (by the bye, Mrs. Forster and me are _such_ friends!) and so

  • she asked the two Harringtons to come, but Harriet was ill, and so Pen

  • was forced to come by herself; and then, what do you think we did? We

  • dressed up Chamberlayne in woman's clothes on purpose to pass for a

  • lady, only think what fun! Not a soul knew of it, but Colonel and Mrs.

  • Forster, and Kitty and me, except my aunt, for we were forced to borrow

  • one of her gowns; and you cannot imagine how well he looked! When Denny,

  • and Wickham, and Pratt, and two or three more of the men came in, they

  • did not know him in the least. Lord! how I laughed! and so did Mrs.

  • Forster. I thought I should have died. And _that_ made the men suspect

  • something, and then they soon found out what was the matter."

  • With such kinds of histories of their parties and good jokes, did

  • Lydia, assisted by Kitty's hints and additions, endeavour to amuse her

  • companions all the way to Longbourn. Elizabeth listened as little as she

  • could, but there was no escaping the frequent mention of Wickham's name.

  • Their reception at home was most kind. Mrs. Bennet rejoiced to see Jane

  • in undiminished beauty; and more than once during dinner did Mr. Bennet

  • say voluntarily to Elizabeth:

  • "I am glad you are come back, Lizzy."

  • Their party in the dining-room was large, for almost all the Lucases

  • came to meet Maria and hear the news; and various were the subjects that

  • occupied them: Lady Lucas was inquiring of Maria, after the welfare and

  • poultry of her eldest daughter; Mrs. Bennet was doubly engaged, on one

  • hand collecting an account of the present fashions from Jane, who sat

  • some way below her, and, on the other, retailing them all to the younger

  • Lucases; and Lydia, in a voice rather louder than any other person's,

  • was enumerating the various pleasures of the morning to anybody who

  • would hear her.

  • "Oh! Mary," said she, "I wish you had gone with us, for we had such fun!

  • As we went along, Kitty and I drew up the blinds, and pretended there

  • was nobody in the coach; and I should have gone so all the way, if Kitty

  • had not been sick; and when we got to the George, I do think we behaved

  • very handsomely, for we treated the other three with the nicest cold

  • luncheon in the world, and if you would have gone, we would have treated

  • you too. And then when we came away it was such fun! I thought we never

  • should have got into the coach. I was ready to die of laughter. And then

  • we were so merry all the way home! we talked and laughed so loud, that

  • anybody might have heard us ten miles off!"

  • To this Mary very gravely replied, "Far be it from me, my dear sister,

  • to depreciate such pleasures! They would doubtless be congenial with the

  • generality of female minds. But I confess they would have no charms for

  • _me_--I should infinitely prefer a book."

  • But of this answer Lydia heard not a word. She seldom listened to

  • anybody for more than half a minute, and never attended to Mary at all.

  • In the afternoon Lydia was urgent with the rest of the girls to walk

  • to Meryton, and to see how everybody went on; but Elizabeth steadily

  • opposed the scheme. It should not be said that the Miss Bennets could

  • not be at home half a day before they were in pursuit of the officers.

  • There was another reason too for her opposition. She dreaded seeing Mr.

  • Wickham again, and was resolved to avoid it as long as possible. The

  • comfort to _her_ of the regiment's approaching removal was indeed beyond

  • expression. In a fortnight they were to go--and once gone, she hoped

  • there could be nothing more to plague her on his account.

  • She had not been many hours at home before she found that the Brighton

  • scheme, of which Lydia had given them a hint at the inn, was under

  • frequent discussion between her parents. Elizabeth saw directly that her

  • father had not the smallest intention of yielding; but his answers were

  • at the same time so vague and equivocal, that her mother, though often

  • disheartened, had never yet despaired of succeeding at last.

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  • Elizabeth's impatience to acquaint Jane with what had happened could

  • no longer be overcome; and at length, resolving to suppress every

  • particular in which her sister was concerned, and preparing her to be

  • surprised, she related to her the next morning the chief of the scene

  • between Mr. Darcy and herself.

  • Miss Bennet's astonishment was soon lessened by the strong sisterly

  • partiality which made any admiration of Elizabeth appear perfectly

  • natural; and all surprise was shortly lost in other feelings. She was

  • sorry that Mr. Darcy should have delivered his sentiments in a manner so

  • little suited to recommend them; but still more was she grieved for the

  • unhappiness which her sister's refusal must have given him.

  • "His being so sure of succeeding was wrong," said she, "and certainly

  • ought not to have appeared; but consider how much it must increase his

  • disappointment!"

  • "Indeed," replied Elizabeth, "I am heartily sorry for him; but he has

  • other feelings, which will probably soon drive away his regard for me.

  • You do not blame me, however, for refusing him?"

  • "Blame you! Oh, no."

  • "But you blame me for having spoken so warmly of Wickham?"

  • "No--I do not know that you were wrong in saying what you did."

  • "But you _will_ know it, when I tell you what happened the very next

  • day."

  • She then spoke of the letter, repeating the whole of its contents as far

  • as they concerned George Wickham. What a stroke was this for poor Jane!

  • who would willingly have gone through the world without believing that

  • so much wickedness existed in the whole race of mankind, as was here

  • collected in one individual. Nor was Darcy's vindication, though

  • grateful to her feelings, capable of consoling her for such discovery.

  • Most earnestly did she labour to prove the probability of error, and

  • seek to clear the one without involving the other.

  • "This will not do," said Elizabeth; "you never will be able to make both

  • of them good for anything. Take your choice, but you must be satisfied

  • with only one. There is but such a quantity of merit between them; just

  • enough to make one good sort of man; and of late it has been shifting

  • about pretty much. For my part, I am inclined to believe it all Darcy's;

  • but you shall do as you choose."

  • It was some time, however, before a smile could be extorted from Jane.

  • "I do not know when I have been more shocked," said she. "Wickham so

  • very bad! It is almost past belief. And poor Mr. Darcy! Dear Lizzy, only

  • consider what he must have suffered. Such a disappointment! and with the

  • knowledge of your ill opinion, too! and having to relate such a thing

  • of his sister! It is really too distressing. I am sure you must feel it

  • so."

  • "Oh! no, my regret and compassion are all done away by seeing you so

  • full of both. I know you will do him such ample justice, that I am

  • growing every moment more unconcerned and indifferent. Your profusion

  • makes me saving; and if you lament over him much longer, my heart will

  • be as light as a feather."

  • "Poor Wickham! there is such an expression of goodness in his

  • countenance! such an openness and gentleness in his manner!"

  • "There certainly was some great mismanagement in the education of those

  • two young men. One has got all the goodness, and the other all the

  • appearance of it."

  • "I never thought Mr. Darcy so deficient in the _appearance_ of it as you

  • used to do."

  • "And yet I meant to be uncommonly clever in taking so decided a dislike

  • to him, without any reason. It is such a spur to one's genius, such an

  • opening for wit, to have a dislike of that kind. One may be continually

  • abusive without saying anything just; but one cannot always be laughing

  • at a man without now and then stumbling on something witty."

  • "Lizzy, when you first read that letter, I am sure you could not treat

  • the matter as you do now."

  • "Indeed, I could not. I was uncomfortable enough, I may say unhappy. And

  • with no one to speak to about what I felt, no Jane to comfort me and say

  • that I had not been so very weak and vain and nonsensical as I knew I

  • had! Oh! how I wanted you!"

  • "How unfortunate that you should have used such very strong expressions

  • in speaking of Wickham to Mr. Darcy, for now they _do_ appear wholly

  • undeserved."

  • "Certainly. But the misfortune of speaking with bitterness is a most

  • natural consequence of the prejudices I had been encouraging. There

  • is one point on which I want your advice. I want to be told whether I

  • ought, or ought not, to make our acquaintances in general understand

  • Wickham's character."

  • Miss Bennet paused a little, and then replied, "Surely there can be no

  • occasion for exposing him so dreadfully. What is your opinion?"

  • "That it ought not to be attempted. Mr. Darcy has not authorised me

  • to make his communication public. On the contrary, every particular

  • relative to his sister was meant to be kept as much as possible to

  • myself; and if I endeavour to undeceive people as to the rest of his

  • conduct, who will believe me? The general prejudice against Mr. Darcy

  • is so violent, that it would be the death of half the good people in

  • Meryton to attempt to place him in an amiable light. I am not equal

  • to it. Wickham will soon be gone; and therefore it will not signify to

  • anyone here what he really is. Some time hence it will be all found out,

  • and then we may laugh at their stupidity in not knowing it before. At

  • present I will say nothing about it."

  • "You are quite right. To have his errors made public might ruin him for

  • ever. He is now, perhaps, sorry for what he has done, and anxious to

  • re-establish a character. We must not make him desperate."

  • The tumult of Elizabeth's mind was allayed by this conversation. She had

  • got rid of two of the secrets which had weighed on her for a fortnight,

  • and was certain of a willing listener in Jane, whenever she might wish

  • to talk again of either. But there was still something lurking behind,

  • of which prudence forbade the disclosure. She dared not relate the other

  • half of Mr. Darcy's letter, nor explain to her sister how sincerely she

  • had been valued by her friend. Here was knowledge in which no one

  • could partake; and she was sensible that nothing less than a perfect

  • understanding between the parties could justify her in throwing off

  • this last encumbrance of mystery. "And then," said she, "if that very

  • improbable event should ever take place, I shall merely be able to

  • tell what Bingley may tell in a much more agreeable manner himself. The

  • liberty of communication cannot be mine till it has lost all its value!"

  • She was now, on being settled at home, at leisure to observe the real

  • state of her sister's spirits. Jane was not happy. She still cherished a

  • very tender affection for Bingley. Having never even fancied herself

  • in love before, her regard had all the warmth of first attachment,

  • and, from her age and disposition, greater steadiness than most first

  • attachments often boast; and so fervently did she value his remembrance,

  • and prefer him to every other man, that all her good sense, and all her

  • attention to the feelings of her friends, were requisite to check the

  • indulgence of those regrets which must have been injurious to her own

  • health and their tranquillity.

  • "Well, Lizzy," said Mrs. Bennet one day, "what is your opinion _now_ of

  • this sad business of Jane's? For my part, I am determined never to speak

  • of it again to anybody. I told my sister Phillips so the other day. But

  • I cannot find out that Jane saw anything of him in London. Well, he is

  • a very undeserving young man--and I do not suppose there's the least

  • chance in the world of her ever getting him now. There is no talk of

  • his coming to Netherfield again in the summer; and I have inquired of

  • everybody, too, who is likely to know."

  • "I do not believe he will ever live at Netherfield any more."

  • "Oh well! it is just as he chooses. Nobody wants him to come. Though I

  • shall always say he used my daughter extremely ill; and if I was her, I

  • would not have put up with it. Well, my comfort is, I am sure Jane will

  • die of a broken heart; and then he will be sorry for what he has done."

  • But as Elizabeth could not receive comfort from any such expectation,

  • she made no answer.

  • "Well, Lizzy," continued her mother, soon afterwards, "and so the

  • Collinses live very comfortable, do they? Well, well, I only hope

  • it will last. And what sort of table do they keep? Charlotte is an

  • excellent manager, I dare say. If she is half as sharp as her

  • mother, she is saving enough. There is nothing extravagant in _their_

  • housekeeping, I dare say."

  • "No, nothing at all."

  • "A great deal of good management, depend upon it. Yes, yes. _they_ will

  • take care not to outrun their income. _They_ will never be distressed

  • for money. Well, much good may it do them! And so, I suppose, they often

  • talk of having Longbourn when your father is dead. They look upon it as

  • quite their own, I dare say, whenever that happens."

  • "It was a subject which they could not mention before me."

  • "No; it would have been strange if they had; but I make no doubt they

  • often talk of it between themselves. Well, if they can be easy with an

  • estate that is not lawfully their own, so much the better. I should be

  • ashamed of having one that was only entailed on me."

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