Sothen I deletedotherappslikeTikTokRedditfacebook, which I usedtousequite a lotwithmyfriends.
そこで、友達とよく使っていたTik Tok Reddit facebookなどの他のアプリを削除しました。
I wasn't abletodeleteeverysinglesocialmediabecausethat's kindofmyjobanditwasn't myplanormyintentiontodothatfromthebeginningbecause I don't thinkthatsocialmediaisharmfulonitsownifyouknowhowtoapproachitandhowtouseitproperly.
Sotheonesocialmediathat I keptoutsideoftwitchandYoutube, whichismysourceofincomewasinstagramwhere I literallyjustwentwhen I wantedtopostmyownstoriesand I didn't evencheckotherpeople's stories.
Like I consciouslynoticethechangewhere I'm currentlyatthepointthat I couldn't carelessofwhatotherpeoplethinkaboutme, whetherthatbeonsocialmediaorinreallifeas a stupidexample.
I lovetheseheadphones, youknow, it's, it's like a biggamingheadset, it's verycomfyforyourears.
私はこのヘッドフォンが大好きです。大きなゲーミングヘッドセットのようで、耳にとてもフィットします。
Buteverytime I wentoutside I switchedtothesewhicharenotthatcomfy, buttheyare, youknow, morediscreet, moreof a normalcolour.
しかし、外に出るたびに、快適ではないけれど、より目立たない、より普通の色のものに変えました。
I alwaysthoughtthatif I, youknow, if I, ifpeopleseemewalkingdownthestreetwiththesehugeheadphonesthatthey'regonnathinklike, oh, thatpersonisweird, bro, I don't careanymore.
I wearwhatever I want, I expressmyselfverballyandaestheticallyhowever I want.
私は好きなものを着て、好きなように言葉や美的感覚で自分を表現します。
and I feellikemypartialabsenceonsocialmediahasdefinitelyincreasedmyselfconfidence.
と、ソーシャルメディアを一部使わないことで、自分に自信が持てるようになったと感じています。
Mypersonalfreedomofexpressionisalsothereasonwhy I getdemonetizedonYoutube, likealmostallthetime.
私の個人的な表現の自由は、私がYoutubeでほとんど毎回のように鬼籍に入る理由でもあります。
Butyeah, I'm alsodefinitely a lotmoremindfulthat I was a yearagoorevensixmonthsagowhensomethingmakesmeangryorupset, I canletgoofitprettyquicklybecauseit's thatpointofrealizationwhenyourealizethatwhenyou'realoneinyourroomangryatsomethingorsomeone, you'renotmakinganybodyelse's dayworse, butyours, you'rejustruiningyourownmood, wastingyourtimebybeingangry.
Yeah, yeah, I'vealsodiscoveredreading, I, I actuallythinkbooksareprettydope, youknow, which I knowis a clichebecause I'm gen Z andgen z peopledon't readbooks.
Readingsomeofthesebookswas a veryinsightfulexperienceasinsomeofthem, likereallyinspiredme, likeartisticallyorevensomeofthemchangedmyperceptionoflife, whichissuch a powerfulthingthat I didn't evenknow a bookwasabletodo.
It's like a greatfeelingtolikefinish a bookandthenstillbethinkingaboutitlikeweeksormonthslater, it's likesuch a differentmediumfromlikewatchingstufforlisteningtostuff, I knowthat I'm describingsomethingsuperbasic, everybodyknowswhatbooksare, but I feellikenotmanypeopleknowor a lot a lotofpeopleinmyagedon't knowwhatitreallymeanstolikegetimmersedinto a book.
I thinkthebiggestdifferencebetweenusingsocialmediaactivelyeverydayandusingitpassively, like I'vebeendoingitandas I intendtokeepdoingitisthatwhenyoudistanceyourselffromalloftheseappsfromallofthesefeedsandposts, youkindofgetlikespace, likeas a mentalspacetoactuallythinktoyourselfaboutyourselfandaboutyourlife.
Wellthisisyouknow, we'regettingintosomephilosophicalterritoryherebecause I reckon a lotofpeoplearelikesocaughtupwithsocialmediaandtheirmindsaresobusyandtheyconstantlygetdistracted.
I thinkit's likeoneofthecoolestthingsever, becauseyouknowit's liketimetraveling, right?
これまでで最もクールなことのひとつだと思います。なぜなら、タイムトラベルのようなものだからです。
Youlookatyourpastselffromalmost a thirdperson's perspectivebecausein 35 yearsyou're a completelydifferentperson.
35年後の自分は全くの別人なので、過去の自分をほとんど第三者的な視点で見ることになります。
Itwasquite a journeyfindingthebalancewhenitcomestosocialmediabecauseononehandyouwanttohaveit, youwanttouseitbecauseallofyourfriendsarethereandyoudon't wanttodetachyourselffromsocietycompletely.
Andsincethisvideoiskindofalready a lifeupdatefrommyside, thebiggestnewsthisweek I launched a Patreonwhichyouknow, isforpeoplewhowouldliketosupportmebecauseas I alreadytoldyouguys, mostofmyvideosgetdemonetizedorrestricted.
Um a lotofpeopleareaskingmewhymyvideosgetdemonetized.
あの......多くの人が、なぜ私のビデオがデモネーター化されるのかと聞いてきます。
It's becauseas I saidbefore, I don't censormyself.
それは、先ほども言ったように、私は自分を検閲しないからです。
Okay.
なるほど。
I don't believeincensorshipofmyowncontent.
私は自分のコンテンツの検閲を信じていません。
If I wanttosaysomething a certainway, I'm gonnadoitbecauseyouknow, I wantmyvlogstobeauthentictowho I actuallyam, whichisalsowhy I usecopyrightedmusicbecauseifthere's a songthatisinmyheadattachedto a specificmemory, I'm sureashellgonnausethatsonginmyvlogtocapturethatmemoryas a whole.
I think I'm overalluhthepointinmylifewhere I'm startingtobesatisfiedwithwho I amas a person, which I thinkissuchanimportantthingthateverybodyshouldgothrough.