But I supposewhatyoudon't wanttodoislethargicallysluggishly, slouchedon a couch, inert, hopeless, surrenderedmywill, AbsolutelythoughtAwakeningis I'd liketogobacktosleepnow.
I feltguiltyabout a lotofthings I'vedoneinthepasttofeellike I couldhavebeen a betterperson.
もっといい人になれたかもしれないと思うために、過去にやってしまったことに罪悪感を感じていました。
I shouldhavebehavedbetter.
もっとうまく振る舞うべきだった。
I'vealsodealtwith a lotofshame, feelingsofworthlessness, lowselfesteem, thewayoutofshameforMayhasBeanThioAddressiswherepossibleincidentsinthepast, where I feelmybehaviorwasnotasitshouldhaveBeantoaskforforgivenessandtobewillingtoforgiveothersforbeinglessthanperfect.
I thinkthatone's realityis a resultofyourintentionandyourattention.
人の現実は、自分の意思と注意力の結果だと思います。
Well, what's thepointindoinganything?
何をしても意味がないだろ?
I thinkit's okaytorelax.
のんびりしていていいと思います。
I thinkit's okaytorest.
休んでもいいと思います。
I thinkit's necessarytospendtimeinquietcommunionwithyourtrueselfsothatyourconsciousactivityisn't entirelygovernedbythinkingmindthatyouhavetimetogetintouchwithyou.
Dotakeadviceandcounselfromthoseyouadmireandhelpandletthemhelpyoutoestablish a routinethatyoucouldlivebybecause I supposelazinessisonlyrelevantifyoufeellikeyou'renotfulfillingyourpotentialbecausesomeanimalsdon't dobackorall, theydon't seemtobotherthem.
Everyonehasthecapacityforawakennouswhenyougetthethingsyourculturetellsyouyoushouldbedoingandyouexperiencethemnow, youknow, nowyouknowyoucanstopchasingthecarrotbecauseyou'vehad a buyout.
Thefactthatispreventingmefrombecoming a fatherfrombecoming a husbandfromsettleinfrombecomingrootedfrombecomingactuallywholefrombecoming a manfrombecomingconnected.