the water rushing past the keel

it trails ever distant and is all too soon more behind us than ahead and

with the voyage of time

fade our chances of finding what has been lost or ever getting that which has never been

Love and happiness may be fleeting or elusive or evasive and not always attained

This is one of those stories of one life hoping for a second chance in

the eternal quest for love and happiness

Los

There are lots of kinds of losses

What are some losses that you guys might have experienced I lost my virginity not the kind of loss I meant

Some losses are

significant

Life-changing events, aren't they some mother's father's lessons. I lost my mother

This place if she were still alive

Excuse me, what about the loss that comes from being sick with a serious mental illness?

That kind of messes up your life, doesn't it?

Did you guys I've been in this hospital?

You're all too familiar with the problems that you have and how you think and how you feel?

But there's something else going on it is called

Grieving now, this is something that everyone experiences

Whether they're aware of it or not, and there are some well-known stages of grief anger and depression

Two most problematic anger

Whoo?

This is a difficult

Emotion to handle even if you're not sick any you guys feel angry about your illness. I'm not angry

So I guess I don't belong here Rogers sit down if there's anyone who needs to be here, it's you

Yeah, if we have to be here then you have to be here

whoa

Hey chill sit down sit down sit down sit

Let's just let's pick this up tomorrow, okay

You okay doc you look a little bummed out

Never better

David

Hi Karl, so, you know about Roger I

Mean you better call in case conference and get some PR NZ. Yeah. Yeah. Thanks Karl. I'll do just that

Yeah

Duck wait a minute. How about a nice home-cooked meal some good company. I

I don't think that's a good idea Sally

I thought it was

My dearest darling David

I don't know when you will find this letter and I hope that when you do

Enough time has passed that you have done your grieving and have gotten beyond the pain. I

Never want you to forget me, but I don't want to keep you from ever being happy again

Going dude I or something I could have broken an arm or a leg or something then it couldn't work. And what would I've done?

I think this is yours

What

Good morning

Your favorite patient busted out a window this morning thanks, I'll take care of it that's good because I put him in your office

I've been a bad boy, huh?

I've been sent to the principal's office Roger. You're not a kid in school. And this this isn't disciplinary. I

Shouldn't be here. I didn't do nothing

Reality check you

Assaulted someone which got you into this hospital in the first place here. You hit a patient and you just broke out a window

I wouldn't call that nothing

He was listening to my thoughts

My mind is my mind if you don't mind Roger that is your illness talking now

The meds are gonna help with that, but you gotta take them. That's all part of your plan. Goodbye doctor

I'm outta here. You don't stop and you are out of here like for real

What did you say

I said if you don't take your meds

You'll be sent back to the mental health unit at County Jail and from there to state prison

You don't play fair, I think I do

The decision is yours frankly in my opinion. It's a no-brainer

Come on take the meds work with me account. What was that? I

Said I'll take them. Okay?

Can I go now?

You can go

Talk what am I doing?

Excuse me. I'm looking for a young

Woman

She's usually right around here I think I think that she might be homeless

That's it. Young women around you. Yes dark hair on that boots

She might be an artist but you want with her phone

You like that homeless pussy. You know what? I think I made a mistake, okay?

Okay, don't give up that easy

She

Man, you ain't got no clothes. You want to find it. You're gonna have to try harder than that

That info you want is a highly confidential

Sensitive date, you know First Amendment rights and all that shit, not your typical hand

Give it up me

Okay, listen if you must know I found something her tonight I want to return it you paid good money

Yeah return if we yeah. Yeah, that's okay. I think I'll do it. Um

Do you know where I can find her?

You see him. That's not a simple answer. I don't think about it Oh

Ramifications and the cases that we go of in the universe you see there. I am right there

Yeah

If it goes down good not a man that goes down bad. I'm the shit. Oh

No, no, no

Ain't worth the risk sucker. I

Give up

Somebody looking for you

know

Some white dude says he has something to return to you, you know a white boy is hot for you where the cure

But TV thing kind of stir like ah

Sound it

You're saying broken give it

Now it is hey you didn't say anything to him did you

This will be absolutely perfect Welles befo boo

Maddie

Thinking you need to find the beauty in the book dude in go

Hello, oh hey Sally listen I'm driving right now I can't really talk he's taking them great. I'll be right

Good brandy the poetry therapy's really work and keep it up if you believe you can achieve

I'm too little old for that. See you tomorrow Sally

Hello hello

What the hell are you doing

Take it easy get the hell. Oh

You may now take your leave now get the hell out of here so I'll have to call reinforcements reinforcements. Oh

Jesus hey, that's intentional

I

Miss her dog. I miss her so bad. She was the prettiest girl

I ever saw I couldn't stop looking at her. It was love at first sight

I thought I'd live the rest of my life with her. Love at first sight the world is so bright fit nevertheless

Or does it stand? Well, what was she like the person I don't know dog. I only saw her one time what?

43 years 7 months 8 days

14 hours

16 minutes and so said it's almost funny. So standing of her you never got to know her. I took a picture of her

You should have listened to her thoughts instead of your heart

They are never who you think they are, you know that can also work their other way around

But you're right. You gotta get to know them. She's been married already. She's had kids. She said 30 grandchildren

She's old and fat don't do this guys. Probably didn't bury a freaking goat. You guys are cruel

Oh guys guys, it's okay. It's okay. Let him go he needs some time alone. He needs some time to cry

Trash my trash and you're gonna keep your filthy hands out of there. No way dude once it's in the kit

Please I don't want to take you Jesus. Hi, hi. Hi. Can I help look this doesn't concern you and you're not involved

I'm dr. Meyers and

This woman's a patient sure look we've got ordinances in the city against loitering and against littering

We also seem to have an issue here with being a public nuisance wanna take him in for harassing the consensus of this society

would you just

Stop it for a second. She's in a new

innovative program at the hospital for

obsessive

kleptomania, which is really it's an impulse control disorder and an inability to to to stave off the urge to scavenge which is actually a

Subcategory of the main disorder which is to steal which incidentally enough. She's not doing with the public trash

The treatment for which is basically, you know a patient does it over and over and over to endless absurdity?

So much so that they get so sick and tired of it. They just they just stopped. Anyway, thank you for your understanding

I'm really sorry if she bothered you and um

You know, we'll just we'll be we'll be taking our leave now

You are gonna leave it now

I'm not an obsessive thoughts. Maniac. I'm I'm an artist. I know what every

Did you think all that just to get me to have lunch with you

I'm David. What's your name? Let's not get too personal

You can't smoke a joint in here I got a prescription put it away

You

Know you really need to relax

What was that for

Get you some water thank you. I'll be right back

So here we are yep

So have you lived on your

Where you your place have you lived in place long? It's all the questions. I'm just trying to make conversation

Really

How you like all the questions yeah, I my situation change so

What happened did your life 3 around

Ok, how do you knew it? I'm with Matt. I'll barbecue banking

She's very you can actually just put it on sliced white bread would be more of like a patty mount

Alright, and if you could if used to like extra man

just like just just

Right on there box or protons in love girl the onions and you know everybody bag on there just right on top

Is that gonna be it? Yeah, I think so and you ready I

Just have a salmon burger. Okay?

Anything to drink?

Hello drink, you know babies you take a diet coke

Thank You patty

What was what

a football

Nervous

On meds I

Mean other than the what do you call it?

There was none of your damn business what I'm on are you always in people's business and telling them what to do

Yeah, sometimes great. Don't you shouldn't drink alcohol

If you're on psychotropic medication judging that little shape you had you may have a touch of tardive dyskinesia. Oh sure. I

Didn't let you take me to lunch just have a doctor's plan and thanks. No. No, I'm not a medical doctor

I'm a psychologist. You guys are crazy. I'm out of here. No, no, wait. I'm sorry. I'm sorry

There's no I know I didn't say that was I one said it was just I just didn't bring you here finds me

So, why did you take me here anyway I

Don't know I just

What does someone like you own someone like me I thought maybe I

Just like you're gonna do make a bet about it

You are with someone weren't you

That's why you wouldn't have dinner with me. I think they even work in here too long Sally. I didn't realize paranoia was catching

I'm not doing that doc. You have to get over it

You want to be mired in your misery? I?

do not want to be

Mired in my misery no dates. No women you want to be all alone

You have been working here too long

The dinner offers still good

And drink coffee I

Mean do you DTF?

Jesus what good is that? It's like the pot THC. Okay. I'll have what you have good bit dangerously

Did you paint this do you think did it

This is good

No, it's not yeah it is I mean there's pathos tension drama

All right. This isn't a Rorschach test. Okay doctor psychologist

What I see is for me to known for you to none your damn business

Try to discombobulation pretty sure not even

Don't take a hand it'll relax you

We smoke to get high or does it does it help you is there a difference

All right, you really want to know yeah

the demons

Keeps the demons away. It keeps the demons away

Haunting horrible things that come at night they want to fuck me

Tonight, I'm sorry

That must be awful it is

Never told anyone that before

Relax relax

I'm sorry. I are you serious?

For

6:47

Call David come on push them push them. Come on. Give me one more you

Last time come on. Yeah, that was last time this time. I'm tired

Why are you tired? No, I'm tired look at me I'm old and I'm tired and I keep on going ouch

No physical activity is the best thing for depression. I'm not depressed Karl. I'm just tired

What do you think about synchronicity that's police album ever sting is awesome

I think he means when seemingly unrelated events don't happen by chance

Like mailing a letter and meeting someone that you never would have met a door opens. The path is revealed the world moves in mysterious

synchronistic ways and in this mysterious

synchronistic world