In a way, I'vebeencomparingyoutotheBritishoppositionleaderJeremyCorbyninthatyou'vebeendoingthisforagesandnowyou'reexperiencing I on I almostperhapsunprecedentedleveloffattention, but I'm assumingthatyourskillsetisapplicable.
I mean, I'm apprehensivebeforehandbecauseWell, becauseyoushouldbe.
Youknow, I wanttodo a goodjoband I wanttomakesurethingsgowell.
And I wanttogetthroughthematerialproperlyandandandget a littlefartherinmythinkingthat I haveBeanandand I'm tryingtomakeeachtime I lecturebetterthanthelasttime, and I don't Obviously I alwaysdon't succeedatthat, butButit's good.
Andthereis a theatricalelementtothatbecauseit's it's like I thinkthisistheclosestthingreallythatitcomparestoisprobablystandupcomedy.
Although I thinktheroutinesthatcomedianshaveareprobablymorewellandformerlypracticedintheonesthatyouknowthatthenthetalksthat I that I engagein, I don't reallythinkofitasdelivering a lecturetoanaudience.
Oneintoremainengagedin a kindofdialecticprocessofdiscovery.
Because I thought, I'm inoffthe I am a comedian, likeforus, I wouldarguethereis a Thereis a distinctionbetweenperformingbefore 200 peopleor 5000 peoplearound 200.
I feellike I'm veryrelaxed.
I'm comfortable.
I feellike I'vegot a lotofspaceinthere.
5000 after, likesharpenup.
Nowyou'vegotnoroom, particularlybecausetheothercrucialdifferenceisthenistobe a laughtoeevery 2030 seconds.
Ifthereisn't, itgetsprettyfrostyupthereisappealingtomeas a comedianthat's interesting, interestedinfurtheringintellectualdebatelookingattheirnewintersectionsbetweenpoliticsandspirituality.
RichardDawkinsisdoingsomethingquitesimilar, andandit's I mean, I wasthinking, because I'vebeentryingtoconceptualizethisandand 11 comparableaudienceoronecomparablesituationisprobablythatofstandupcomedians.
Another, I suspectaretravelingIVengineavengeevangelicaltypes?
Andand, asyousaidaboutfear, before, youknow, theoriginsoftheaterandtheoriginsofreligionarecloselyconnected, andbothofthemstill, ourdebt, oratleastfunctionally, mustrelatetomeaningpurpose, givingusstoriesthathelpilluminatethepathofOkay, well, I thinkthat I thinkthat's that's that's There's somethingaboutthatthat's profoundlycorrect.
I thinkthat I knowthatTheNewYorkTimesisrecentlywrittenabouttheriseofthesocalledintellectualDarkWeb, whichis a termthatEricWeinsteinsobrilliantlycoined, I wouldsay, andverythoughtfully, I thinkthatthethingthatunitesthepeoplewhoarelooselygroupedintothatcollectionisthattheyarehavingseriousconversationswithanaudiencethattheyrespect, andthey'reverydiverserangeofpeople.
Theydon't certainlydon't likeSalmon.
SamHarrisand I disagreeaboutmanythings, forexample, andbutSamrespectshisaudiencesandhe's andhe's engagingtheminextremelyseriousdiscourseaboutverydeeptopicsaboutthestructureofreality, actually, andandtherelationshipbetweenscienceandreligionandandandtheAnd I thinkitis a consequenceofthefactthatnotonlyhasourpublicdiscourse, let's sayinthemediaandpoliticsbecomeshallow, I thinkit's becomeunbearablyshallowintheuniversities.
I don't knowif I shouldsaythis, andthenshe'llsayitandit's oftenlikehorriblyfunnyandhorriblyfunnyis a goodkindoffunny.
I mean, it's it's it's daringandAndit's something I reallyadmireaboutcomedians, too, isthatthey'llthey'lltakethatrisk.
Andandit's somethingalsothat I'vefounddisturbingaboutwithregardstothemanythings I finddisturbingaboutuniversitycampusesisthatsomanycomedianswon't goperformonuniversitycampusesanymorebecausetheycan't befunny.
Peoplegetoffendedandit's a falseOh, fendoffoffended.
I thinkyou'reright.
I mean, I thinkit's like a kindofSimonsaystypeofAh, like, Doyouknowthatgame?
Doyouhavethatgameinyourlanguage?
Justlikeourthiscertainthingsthatweknow, we'renotallowedtosaythesomethingsthatweknowissupposedtothinkthere's a kindof a a kindofformulatedance, a courtlybehavior.
I'vehearditreferredtoasthatwearemeanttopayhomageto a particulartypeofsetofprotocolsandmanners, andit's notnecessarilyanchoredto a realmoralityisnoangertoassessoff a senseofspirit.
I wanttotalktoyou a bitaboutthe 12 stepsonthemodelforhandlingaddiction.
I'vewrittenaboutmyselfinmybookrecoverybecause I wanttoseewhatyouthinkofit.
LikeSo, like, uh, the 12 stepshaveanonymousfellowships, which I, if I weretobelongtothem, I wouldn't beabletosay I belongtothemwithoutbreachingtheircodeofanonymity.
Butwhat's positiveaboutthisapproachtoaddictionis, aswehavediscussedoffMike, thatitcreatescommunityliketheotherpeople, that I'vegot a similarinDevon.
Infact, itwasyoungthatidentifiedthaThissolution, hesaidthatlikepeoplehavegotchronicaddiction, issueswillstruggletochange, andtheyhave a spirituallyrealizationofsomekindandthesupportthecommunityonthespiritualrealizationcomponentthat's actuallysupportedbytherelevantaddictionliterature.
Oneoftheclassiccuresforaddictionisspiritualtransformation, andthehardcorescientistshavehavelaidthatoutasas a realityintheaddictionliterature.
I agree, becausetheyusemoresecularlanguagearoundthat a spiritualtransformationcouldjustbe a changeofperspective, a renewalradicalchangeofperspectivefromandtypicallyinmyexperience, that's from a selfcenteredofyou, a selfobsessiveyouaboutgettingyourownneedsmet.
A solipsistic, narcissisticperspectiveoflifeisthisisjust a nadventurewhere I goaroundtryingcumulateandthecrewtoe.
Andoneofthethingsthat's sointerestingaboutpeopleisthatiftheydecidetheyhave a problemandtheyalsonoticedthattheycouldlearntheprobabilitythattheywilllearngoeswayup.
That's veryinteresting.
You'veactuallyconflict a itthefirstfreestepsthereinyouranalysisoffthe 1st 1 Becausethe 1st 1 isadmission, thatis a problem.
The 2nd 1 isrecognizingthatthingscouldimprove, likecametobelievethatpower.
Greatnestlescouldrestoreustosanity.
Andthe 3rd 1 hasmade a decisiontoturnourlifeandourwillovertothecareofGod, asweunderstood, gotsolikeyeah, wecouldtalkaboutthatfrom a sectorgoeswell, wecouldtalkaboutthatfrom a secularperspectiveandsay, Well, there's a There's a higherordermoralprinciplethatneedstobebroughtintothesituationAndyousortofdescribethatrightatthebeginningofthequestionbecauseyousaid, Well, whatPartlywhatyoudowhenyoumovefromanaddictedstatefrom a psychologicalperspectiveismovedfromtheviewpointofthegratificationofimmediatedesireandandmaybetheaccumulationofthingsas a markerofsuccesstothenotionthatno, youactuallyhave a higherpurpose, andthathigherpurposemightinvolvebeingofservicethatcouldbeofservicetoyourself, whichmeansyouwouldn't beaddictedanymorebecausethat's not a goodwayofbeingofservicetoyourself, butofservicetoyourselfinthebroadercommunity.
However, youmightdefinethatthat's a higherorderpurpose, anditcanintegrateyourmotivationsatat a levelthatdoesn't leaveyouatthewhimofimpulse.
Thisiswherethe 12 stepprogrambecomes a fusionoffspiritualityandpsychoanalysis.
Becausethefourthstepislike a fourcolumnmethodwhereyouwritedown a listofallyourresentmentinyourlifechildhoodresentment, yourresentmentagainstthegovernmentpeopleyouworkwithyourightalldown.
Andthenthere's a diagnostictoolwhereyouidentifywhatitisinyouthatdoesn't likethaton.
I mightlike I did a truncatedandsomewhatmorelinguisticallyexplicit, anexpletiveladenversionofthe 12 stepson I'vegotyour 12 rulesforlifehere, andtheydon't necessarilycorrelate, butlikebecause, likeyousaid, your 1st 1 standupstraightwithyourshouldersback, That's a greatchapter.
It's like, Well, let's sayyouwanttofixupyourhouse, whichisactuallyquite a lotlikefixingyourselfup, whichis a verycommondreammetaphor.
Yeah, well, thefirstthingyouwanttodoisgolookaroundandseewhatneedstobefixed, youknow, andthisTheinterestingthingaboutthatandthisisakintowhatcomedianstwoisthatassoonasyou'rewillingtoadmitcomedians, lookat a problemandthenriseaboveitrightawayandmake a jokeaboutit.
Butassoonasyou'rewillingtoadmitthatyouhave a problem, thenyou'reimmediatelycontactedthepartofyourselfthat's atleaststrongenoughtoadmitthatyouhave a problem.
Andthenthere's a furtherdeath I'm noticingnowinmyearlyfortiesthat, likearenowatthemidwaypointatthemiddleinitsofDanteesquewayon.
Now I'm movingtowardsthegrave, andnow I'm like, there's a differentkindofalertnessemergingonbacktothisstepfourorfivemomentsprocessofinventoryafteryou'vemadeanimageryandyou'veyou'vecorrectlyyouhonestlyandopenlyputdowneverythingincidentsofchildabuse, thingsthatyou'vesaidtootherpeople, thingsthatyourshameonceyou'vebeenwillingtoinscribeyourshame, thenyoutellanotherperson a personthatyoutrustintheoriginalliterature.
Itsays, Youknow, itcouldbe a cleric, a doctororwhereverittypicallyinah, in 12 stepstructures.
It's like a mentorfigure.
Butthathasthat.
That's theroleofconfession, whichoffered a hugepartofpsychoanalysis.
Thepointinyourbook.
I thinkthispotatoiswhenyoutalkaboutthedragonandthedragongave, Yousaid.
I couldbedestroyedandeveryone I lovecouldbedestroyedonEarthitselfcouldbedestroyeduntilyousay, Well, actuallyknowwhatthisisisyoufeelinadequatebecauseyouweren't rolemodelcorrectly.
I meanpartpartofthewellpartofthedeaththatyou'redescribingisactuallytheconfrontationwith a formoftyrantlikeyourpreviouslyaddictedself.
Wasthetyrantoveryouremergenceself?
Yes.
Andsoit's aninternaltyrant.
Andyousaiditwaspredicatedon a falsevaluesystemthat's a falsesetofgods, essentially, andsoyouhadtoconfrontthatThatis a kindofdeath.
I alsothinkthatsomeoftheaddictionoraddictivetendenciesand I don't mean a severeischemicaldependencyorformsofaddictionaddictionor a kindofselfconstructedformaldehydetopreserveyouinthestateoftrauma.
Andwhilethereiscertainly a literatureonaddictionthatindicatesthatmanypeopleuseaddictivesubstancesas a formofselfmedicationandtheytendtofindthedrugthatbestbestmedicatesthe, Um, let's sayAndfordifferentpeople, that's differentdrugs.
Yes, evenagainstall.
Yeah, like I thinkAndnowoneoftheotherthingsthat I'm proposinginmybookistouserathergrandioseterminologyisthatthethetemplatefor a recoveryfromobviousformsofaddictioncouldbeapplicabletolessevidentformsofaddiction.
Yeah, I reallyalso, I thinktheideaoflayingoutyourresentmentsisunbelievablyusefulbecausethat's also a wayofdealingwiththemalevolencewithinyouthatmightinterferewithyourownrecovery.
Ifyou'reangryatyourselfifyou'reangryatyourparents, ifyou'reangryattheworld, theprobabilitythatyou'regoingtobeinthementalstatethat's goingtoallowyoutochart a pause, ofcourseforyourselfisvery, verylow.
Howcanyouhave a clearandauthenticrelationshipwithyourwifeifyou'venotcorrectlyunderstoodwhatyoufeelaboutyourownmother?
Ifyoufeellikethatyouwereinmeshedortrappedinsomeway, howam I supposedtohaveanotherIf I havenotunderstoodthat I havenotgained a newperspectiveif I'venottranscendeditbysharingofanotherPercythatinthesleepingbeautystoryintheDisneyStory, whentheprinceisencapsulatedinthecastle, inthedungeonattheendandbeforehegoesandrescueSleepingBeauty, hehastoconfronthisterriblemother.
Sheturnsintothedragonofchaositself.
Hehastousehonestyandtruthtoconfronther.
Anduntilhedoesthat, hecan't freethemaidenfromhersleep s O Thatthat's calledtheThat's calledthefreeingoftheanimalfromthenegativemotherarchetypeinhumanpsychologyispreciselythat.
Havingdonethisinventory, yourecognizewhatpatternshavebeen a playinyourlife, whichparticularintheMexicanofftherecoverydefectsofcharacterofgovernedyouoftenpride.
Higherpoweris, atleastfrom a psychologicalperspective, it's a decisiontorelyonthatthingthatcanguideyouthroughtransformations.
Yes, becausesurely, aswesaidinrelationtoanother, wearelikelyrelateinto a setofcoordinatesthatweimposeoninvokecommas, thefemale.
Thetruesamewillbetrueofthecellthatwehavecreatedanimpressionunegoingimpressionwehaveconstructedinourofficialself, butbeneathitthereis a higherselforanotherareaselfhasoftencomposedof.
Wouldyousaythatyouknow, a commoncomponentofftheshowShe's lastaggression, aggressiontobecausethey'rethemostthe 200 mostrealized.
Yeah, they'rethetwothataremostdifficulttointegrateintotheegobecauseaggressiondestroysandofcourse, lustsubsumestheindividualtototowell, tosexualsexualdesireissuch a lustisn't butidentifiedis a verypowerfulself.
Itcanitcansubsume, so I supposethat's why a lotoftheologicaldoctrinesfocusonthecontrolofflast.
Andthereis.
Ofcourse, it's a disruptiveforce, youknow, because, forexample, ifyoumake a mediumtolongtermrelationshipwithsomeoneandyounegotiatethatthatprovidesyouwith a stablestructurethatcanoperateacrossyourentirelifeisgoodforyou.
Andsoit's nowonderthatit's viewedas a a forceoftremendousdisruptionNow.
It's also a forceoftremendouslife, right, becauseyouwanttobeattractedtopeopleyouwanttohavethatthatthatvitallibidoaspartofpartofwhat's drivingyouforward.
I wouldsaytheguybyplayexactlythatplays a transformativeelement, andthatisyouknow, itmightbethatyou'reuncomfortablewiththeideaofofyourwifeassexualplaythingbecauseyouthinkthat a womanwho's marriedshouldbeproperandprimandshouldonlybehavesexuallyin a certainway.
Forme, that's a veryobviousexampleofhowhabitualizedthinkingisprohibitive, evenwithoutreachingtheextremesofselfdestructive, addictivetendencies.
If I have a habitofregardingmywifeas a CZobject, theyevenifthat's notobjectification, iswe'retypicallytakecarebutlimitingbeliefsaboutmywifethatthetoolsthatbreakdownaddictivethoughtpatternscouldbeusedtocreatenewterrain.
SzeNewLibertyNewplayThankyou s solike.
Soonceyou'vedoneuptostepseven, whichisessentiallystepsonyourrightsorsacrificeoftheoldselfinhandingovertosomekindofsublimedivineself, thatstepisyoumake a listofpeoplethatyouhaveharmedongoing.
I'm willingtomakeamendstothem.
Youlookbackin a particlegarnishmentofstolenthat I shouldhavedonethat.
Italso, inthesensethatwewouldtalkaboutaboutallowinglastbacking, incorporatinglastjustthenThisis, ah, more a broadermethodforincorporateinannexedaspectsoftheself.
Inreligioustermsarenonreligiousterms, isthatwhatyou'vedoneisyou'veinsomesenses, you'veabstractedthetheideaof a higherauthorityon a higherpurpose, andyou'vedecidedtodevoteyourselftothat.
That's a religiousact, andthat's preciselyantitheticaltopostmodernismissayingthatthereNo, no, no, no, thereis.
Thattheyhadtobeatthehandsof a of a kindofarrogantandnarrowrationalismandmaterialismandtheexpositionofftheexponentiallyThathasledustowherewe'regoingnow, whichis a kindofokay, we'resortofdiggingtheearthfrombeneathourfeet.
Puttingusthat's goingtobe a base.
That's right, thatthat's that's that.
That's thehypothesis.
Precisely, Yes, 10 11 Thelastfreestep.
Step 10 islikecontinuetomakeinventory.
So, like, letthisprocesscontinuelikethatformeinsight, comingoutanalyticterms.
I see a therapist, obviouslylikeiswhen, likewhenthere's a moment I knowanyspikeinmyenergyif I gooh, I feltsomethingthatwasinteresting.
I feltjealousthere.
I felt I feltsmallinthatthing.
Thesearethemoments I knowandgoout.
Howwas I participateinthat?
Whatbeliefofminewasbeingchallengedisthathelpfulbelief, beliefbeing a thoughtthat I likehaving 11 right?
That's a kindofconsciousnessislike, Well, I'm gonnafallapart.
I'm gonnamakemistakes.
I don't wanttomakemistakes.
I'm gonnakeepaneyeoutforwhen I domakemistakesand I'm goingtomakethemconscious.
Andthen I'm gonnatrytoworkonthem, Yes.
BringingthemintointoconsciousnessBecausemyfear, mynumberonefearon a personallevelpossibleon a sociallevel I don't knowquitehowtoextrapolateorconflate.
Thosetwonotionsisunconsciousness.
I getveryafraidwhen I'm dealingwithunconsciousindividuals.
WhenPete, when I'm peopledon't knowwhythey'redoingwhatthey'redoing.
Youmayseethisinto a violentrageoreveninlessdramaticortheatricalbehaviors.
I knowthere's a greatideathatlurksatthebottomoftheChristianmythologicaltraditionIsthat a littlebitofconsciousnessdestroyedtheoriginalparadise.
Butthecureforthatiswaymoreconsciousness, not a returntounconsciousness.
Yes, there's nogoingback.
There's nogoingback.
I sometimesthinktheplethoraofzombiemoviesis, youknow, theydon't knowthey'realreadydead, likeso.
Likethatdangerofthezombieisthedangerofthedesireforunconsciousness, a solutiontolife's problem.
And I thinkthatthisisagainsomethingwillbeinvitedtotoparticipateinfruitconsumerismthatliveyourlifecontinuallyonthefrequencyofunconsciousenergysuchasdesireandfearthatwe'renotbeingWe'renotbeinginvitedtoparticipateonthelevelofconsciousnessconsciousinteractionpresenceinthemoment.
Whileyoucouldmakethatcase, ifyoumadethecasethatconsumerismpromotesthegratificationofimmediatedesiresaboveallelse, I thinkitdoes.
That's myThat's what I'm pushingformwithhisoriginalsin, like a littlebitofconscienceis a dangerousthing.
Wellingrainedpartofpartofwhathappensintheintheredemptivestoryis, ifyouthinkaboutChrist, is a symbolicfigure, say a symbolicoftheprocessoftransformationthatwejustdescribedisoneoftheoneofthemoralsoftheChristianpassionisthatyouneedtoradicallyacceptyourlimitationsandsopartofthiskeepingyoursinsbeforeyoureyes, whichyoujustdescribed.