It's a greatexampleof a scenewheretheactressplayingBritneyJulianBellbroughttoset a verydifferentenergythantheone I hadinmindwhen I waswritingit.
Thatsurprisedme.
I understoodBritneytobeangryattheworldinthismomentfornotgivingherwhatitseeminglygaveeveryoneelsesoeasily.
ButGillian, fromtheveryfirsttake, wasplayingin a waythatsaidtomethatBritneyhadactuallybeentryingtomanifest a betterlifeforherselfthesepastfewyears, andshewasbaffled.
Thisiswherehereffortstookherwithnoideahowtogeton a differentpath.
And I wasreallymovedbyit.
And I foundittobe a moreinterestingchoicethanmine.
Soratherthandirectherawayfromherinstinct, I leanedintoit.
Sittingonourkitchenfloor, I washopingbystagingthesceneonBritney's kitchenfloor, I mightbeabletocapturethespiritofthatreallifemomentinways I couldn't evenconsciouslyplanandifnot, wouldbe a nicenotmyreallifefriend.