I've been putting off making this video for obvious reasons umm...

One it's very difficult to talk about

And two I wanted to...

Wait as long as possible really to give some time

For emotions to settle before I said anything

In a video!

I know lots of you guys had some idea what might be going on

Because I did get lots of comment about it

Umm...

I'm moving back to Japan like the title says

I've moved back to Japan actually

Welcome to my new apartment!

I'm here alone

My husband and I aren't together anymore

We haven't been for quite a while now actually

I'm not gonna go into any details

Because I feel like that's very disrespectful to him

And this is something that should be kept private

But basically we just

Our life started going in different directions

And

We weren't making each other happy anymore

I know to you guys

It seems like we weren't together for very long at all

And it was a very short relationship

But umm...

I didn't tell you guys about him until much later

Into our relationship

And we've actually been together for seven years

So it's been a really tough transition

But I think it's best for both of us

So we're trying our best

We have lots of really nice memories together

And I care about him a lot

And I wish him nothing but the best

Even if it didn't work out between us

Something really shit about all of this is that

Maro and Luna aren't with me anymore

I thought very hard about what was best for them

And

Right now that's being in Korea

They're very happy there

They're comfortable

And they're in really good hands

And

I didn't wanna disturb that just for my own benefit

I don't know what will happen in the future

But, umm...

For now this is what we agreed on

I miss them both so much

And

I struggle with it

A lot

But I just try to remind myself that this is what's best for them and

That's all that should matter

But it's really hard

If any of you guys have been in a similar situation

With your pets

Can you please leave me some advice in the comments

I was able to

Video chat with them yesterday

Which was really nice

Umm...

He was playing with them with their new toys and

And they looked really happy

And healthy so...

That made me feel a little better

But...

It's really hard

He loves them so much and he takes really good care of them

So...

I'm not worried or anything

But, it's just...

Really tough not...

Having them here with me anymore

He's gonna continue to post pictures on their Instagram

LIke he has been

And umm...

If he can find some time, he said that he wants to update their YouTube channel again

So if you guys are into cats

Heh

Cat pictures and videos

Umm...

I'll put the links in the description box

And if you could go and support them that would be really nice

He really loves them and he really loves sharing them with you guys

Umm...

So I know he'd really appreciate that

I wanna say thank you to you guys for dealing with me being quiet about this

For such a long time

I'm sure it was frustrating to many of you

Who had some idea of what was going on and I just wasn't talking about it

I'm sorry about that but...

I really needed time to

Umm...

Just deal with things on my own

And figure out what I'm gonna do next

Because for the first time in a very long time

That decision was completely up to me

I thought about staying in Korea

Consider moving back to Japan obviously

Umm...

Canada was never really an option

Because it's just

Not exciting enough for me right now

I really, really

Enjoyed living in Korea

Everybody was so nice to me as you guys saw in my vlogs

I was always...

Really happy

Heh

Exploring outside

And...

The food was so good!

And I just...

It was really exciting...

Getting to explore a whole new culture

But I needed to be back somewhere where I was familiar with everything

There's just too much going on right now for me to be in a country where I don't speak the language very well

My Korean did improve a little bit~

I feel a little more confident with it

But not to the point that I could...

Take care of myself there

So...

Umm...

That's why I decided to come back to Japan!

I'm pretty sad that I...

Uhh...am leaving Korea honestly, but

I'm just gonna do...

My best with how things have turned out

Sometimes I get comments criticizing me for

Being really happy all the time...

People think it's annoying and fake

And I can see that because...

Umm...

I try to just make videos when I'm having a good day

And if I'm not having a good day

And I try to make it look like I am

Because I don't see the point in being

Sad and pessimistic about things

Umm...

That's just who I am even when I'm having a shitty day

I'll try and make the best out of it and try and see the good in things and

I'm gonna do that

With this situation too

So onto happier stuff!

Heh I'll tell you guys about where I'm gonna live

I actually decided to move back to

Morioka in northern Japan

If you've been watching my videos from years back

You've seen me come here a couple times

This is actually my Japanese hometown

This is where I first came when I moved to Japan when I was nineteen

It was also the first place I did a short term...

Uhh...

Ugoku

Uhh English uhh...

So this is like where all my first

Experiences of Japan...

Happened

And I've lots of really nice memories here

And luckily I have a few friends here still too!

Which is really cool

My friends from like 10 years ago

And my newer-ish friend Mark that works at the magic bar

He lives in Morioka too, so

It's kind of nice that I've got a little community up here

And, uhh...

I feel really familiar with the town

And I think it's just a good place for me to be right now

So...

I'm really, really looking forward to sharing it with you guys

It was always...

Kind of my

Dream for my YouTube channel was to

Share northern Japan with you guys because

As you know it's my favorite area of Japan

And I feel like it really doesn't get enough coverage for how awesome it is

So hopefully I'll be able to do that for you now

Now that I'm up here, umm...

I'll finally be able to make the videos that I've been wanting to make

I don't drive a car

Unfortunately I don't have my license in Japan

And the weather is really, really cold right now

So...

Uhm...

My only mode of transportation is walking or bicycle

So it probably won't be outside vlogging for

Maybe another...

Couple weeks or like a month or so?

Up here in Morioka

But umm, I'll actually be going down to Tokyo a lot!

Because I got a new job there!

I'll explain that to you guys in another video

That's like lots to talk about

But umm, yeah I'll be going back to Tokyo tomorrow actually for work and umm...

Maybe vlog a bit there

A few of my friends are coming to Tokyo for an event

And

It'll be nice to catch up with them

But yeah, then once I'm back in Morioka

I'm really looking forward to showing you guys around

I'm really looking forward to exploring it more because

When I lived here for three years when I was nineteen

I was...

Very umm...

I was very poor and I'd spent all my time working

Literally, I worked at like seven different schools

I did tutoring I did like online translation

I did all these different things and I didn't have much time to actually explore much of the town

So...

I think that'll be really fun for us to do together

I'll take you guys downtown and show you the shops and kind of...

Show you how the vibe is different from somewhere like Tokyo

I feel like I've disappointed a lot of you guys

Who are looking forward to videos about Korea

And I totally understand that because I'm also disappointed in myself

But I really hope you'll enjoy these videos as well

I'll do my best to make them really fun and enjoyable so...

*cute thank you gesture*

I appreciate your

Understanding

Thank you so much for all your support guys

Umm...

I could tell that some of you sensed that things weren't going so well for me and

You were extra nice and

Sweet in your comments and I really

I really appreciated that

I sent out umm...

Some private messages to some of my patrons

A little earlier

Before posting this video because I kind of wanted to like

Practice talking about this with people?

And

All the

Responses I got were so kind

So thank you guys so much that really helped a lot

And umm, it helped me find the courage to talk about this in a video

All right, I guess that is all

There is to say about this right now

Umm...

Thanks so much you guys again for being patient with me

I'm really, really lucky to have such a cool community of people watching my videos

You guys are so sweet

And I'm looking forward to getting back to my regular self and

Posting fun vlogs and interacting with you guys again

So...

I will see you very soon!~

Thanks guys!~

Bye~