But the person that I wanted to do this with the most is the first person that I ever fell in love with.

Player.

I really did think that she felt the same way.

And I was mad at her for a long time.

And it has been years.

There's a lot that's about that.

All right, let's see how it goes.

Okay.

Oh, my God.

I'm so nervous.

So I just parked outside of Blair's place.

I am, like, actually really, really scared.

I don't think I thought this through.

I don't know how it's gonna go.

Like, I don't know if she's gonna be excited, and if it's gonna be like I missed you And like, hugging.

Or if it's gonna be awkward and she's gonna be mad, like I don't know, I haven't talked to her.

I want to cancel.

I would literally die merrily.

I've said literally 10 times.

Why am I doing this?

Why am I doing what is wrong with me?

Okay.

All right, Texture.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

It just texted her.

She's coming.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God!

Oh, my God!

Oh, my God!

Oh, my God!

Oh, my God.

I'm genuinely gonna cry.

I'm so scared.

I can't believe I'm doing this.

Why am I filming us?

I don't know.

It's Julie Actually.

Shook.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

I see her.

I see her walking.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God!

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

I don't know.

Just died, okay?

I didn't know what he says to go over there.

And you?

My God, are you the same?

A little bit cleaner?

No.

Oh, my God.

How are you?

This is so weird that I'm filming this.

I'm sorry.

I don't do this, but this is so weird.

Hi.

Hi.

What do you mean you don't do this?

Like, I hope you people's reactions like eating, You know, that's weird.

Yeah, but like, I'm not meeting you like re meeting you got.

How many years has it been a long time?

Like I was trying to think about this.

I feel like the last time we saw each other was at some sort of either like Vidcon or something like that.

But we didn't really, like, talk to each other.

It was more just like a like, Hey, And then I just, you know, because I don't know what this is gonna I can tell.

And I don't either.

Well, what this is I'm shaking.

What?

This is as you know, it's so weird.

You think?

Wow.

Okay, there's a garbage truck, but it's fine.

Okay, so what are we doing?

So my whole plan waas I wanted to start a Siri's where I reconnected people from my past if you were my first thought Because the you are such a huge part of my life, man.

Because I have wanted to reconnect with you for so long.

And I was like, I want to do this on camera cause I wanna have it forever.

That sounds weird.

Really?

Here.

But it makes sense.

Well, okay.

Before we, like, get into everything, how do you feel?

Do you feel weird?

No, I don't feel weird.

I feel a little bit confused.

I don't know exactly like what your motivation is for doing this.

And that kind of like, scares me.

It's like an eye opening myself back up thinking that, like, I'm gonna get my best friend back.

And then, like, if you're just trying to, like, do this video, you know, it's like, Is this just for a video?

And then, like, I'm not gonna see him again for however many years?

No.

So I don't do that.

I don't even film my real life, like, ever, any more.

And that's why I'm like, Is this really life?

Me?

That's how you feel, right?

No.

This is real life, and we're gonna get into it.

I'm gonna turn the camera off, and then when we come back, we're gonna be talking more.

Go talk in my place.

I don't know yet.

I have no idea what's happening.

We'll see you guys in the second.

Okay, we are inside the apartment.

What am I doing?

Uh, no.

In all honesty, I turn the camera off.

We came inside.

We talked for, like, an hour.

Just like catching up about It's been an hour.

What you talking about?

I know what time guys know.

So we talked about, like, a lot of stuff, but we didn't really talk about like us.

So we're gonna get to that and I was like, We should fill in that part.

Hey, does mine look different?

I got another against drop things going.

Okay, so let's talk.

I wrote some stuff down, So here's the situation.

And I already told them about this.

And you already know about this because we've had very offer conversation about it.

So we started hanging out and we had a mole.

We have I thought it was a moment and maybe I was wrong.

So I want to hear yourself the moment Waas we were hanging out.

I don't remember.

It was the first time or whatever you talked about in your book.

Are you kidding me?

Of course I did.

Like everyone sent it to me.

They all knew it was me.

I didn't use her name Low.

You said like YouTube beauty goober that I used to hang out with.

You have a sister Also don't use todo, but yes, you talk about this in your book Was not our first time meeting, Al.

It was actually a while into us hanging out because we were already into the chicken.

Dino Nucky's phase of our relationship remember?

We would go to her house and get back of the dinosaur chicken nugget.

And then we would come back and watch telly part.

Now you send relationship chicken Dinah G's phase of our relationship.

Remember, Mimi, you said our relationship, our friendship, our relationship getting to this I am lying about it.

We're like, I I don't know why I would be taking out of my room instead of the living room.

You brought me up to your room now going in.

Listen, by the way, at this time, I never kissed.

I've never done anything.

I've never even been honored.

So I wasn't assuming this was a date.

I was like, Oh, I'm her friend like this is so fine.

I'm hanging with a pretty girl like you.

Look at her like this is fun.

You know what?

This is the night that I got my new DSLR camera, my rebel t three I and we were trying to figure out if I should fill on that I should keep using my Sony Cam Court.

Then we imported the footage on my computer because you were trying to teach me how to do final cut pro.

And that's where relieved we're on your best I'm sitting on your bed, right?

Yeah.

You sit next to me on the laptop.

I'm gonna Reina don't catch feels okay?

You're me and I'm you.

Right.

Okay.

So Oh, my God.

That's so I thank you.

I didn't know you.

Yeah, you bedded my arm here and you're like, You're so Harry E ready?

That looks so No, you didn't.

So So you did that right.

And my heart, like I literally felt like I was gonna barf.

Also nervous and I don't know to do.

And so I just kind of took it.

Kind of petted your leg or something.

I don't know what was going on.

And then we just hung out and we laid in bed and you fell asleep.

I remember this.

Yeah, I fell asleep next to you.

I didn't leave her all night, and I didn't know that until I read your book.

And that's what I wanted to ask you.

That was true work.

That was just to make the story more interesting.

But what happened that morning as you pretended to be asleep for, like, a second and then you woke up.

You were like, but I gotta go.

I gotta go.

And you ran outside with your car.

You immediately tweeted you immediately treated and then delete it.

And do you remember them?

Something like I just spent the night in the girls that for the first time Yes, and I sweat is not only through her sheets, but through her entire actress.

Yeah, and then you, like, deleted it immediately.

But I was awake at this point.

I was like, scrolling.

What does he need me like?

Selected a girl that I like?

Because you did.

But I didn't see it like that.

Like to me.

We were already so far into, like the brother sister, like Friendship Zone that I know.

But like to me, it wasn't like, Oh, my gosh, you guys slept over like it.

D'oh!

D'oh!

I It wasn't even like a possibility in my mind that it was gonna go to something else for me saying things like that to me.

It wasn't like we slept in the same that it was like we fell asleep and I agree.

Looking back as an adult, I look back.

I was like a cute episode of, like, glee or something.

I mean, that's a sweet sad kid like thought, whatever.

But in the moment, How do you explain the touching, the petting and the physic?

Remember, I still dream about it.

I don't explain why this was such a thing for me personally.

Like just being honest.

So I grew up fat, right?

Like, really fat.

And I lost weight into l.

A.

And you were in my entire life the first girl person to ever touch me.

And that way, and it might have been nothing to you.

What am I doing?

A brother sister thing.

But to me, I was like, she's leaning on me.

She's petting me.

Oh, my God.

And I like it, like, blew my mind cause I was like, Wow, maybe I'm not ugly.

Oh, that makes you wanna cry, too.

I mean, if you ask me today studio you led me on, I would say that there were definitely times that I probably did like taking you home to meet my family and stuff.

Which waas You remember why we were going back to him?

Well, let's get into so part to this saga.

So that happens, right?

I'm like, Oh, my God.

I'm in love with her.

Oh, my God.

This way we're going grocery shopping way were like a married couple, literally.

Right, But we haven't kissed nothing.

Right?

But my in my head, I was just like we're taking it slow.

Wait, take it slow.

She says, Hey, you want to come home to Tennessee with me or Hey, come home and meet my family.

Nobody wants to meet you, right?

I was like, Oh, my God.

Meeting the family.

So we go to Tennessee, which we were picking up.

Yeah, I defy home and get Teddy.