It's trickytodisciplineatthistimewhen I amreallybusywithMaxand a lotofthetimes I justwantedlike, takehimasideandjustpunishhimortalkedtohim.
But I can't becausehe's eitherhangingonmybooborpumpingor I'm tryingtocalmhimdown.
Soit's beenIt's beenquite a struggle, tobehonestwithyou.
And I feellike I'm kindoffailingatdiscipliningrightnowand I keeptalkingaboutitwithGary.
I knowGary's doingwhathecanwithwhathecan, buthe's reallybusyhimself.
Soit's it's beenit's beenvery I wasgoingtothecomments a littleearlierwhileMaximsleeping.
I loveyouguysand I soappreciatedforallthesupport.
Youguysareamazing.
ButonmylastflogonSunday, I have a fewcomments.
They'retalkingjustlike, youknow, ifyouthinkthatpeoplenoticethat I don't considertobehatecomments, unlesspeoplearebeingsupermeanfornoreasonatall.
That's not a problemforme.
But a lotofpeopledon't reallyknowwhatitistohavethreesmallkidsandtogobacktoworkandjustbeing a modernwomanin 2000 and 18.
Now I'm tryingtoreallyunderstandwherepeoplearecomingfromandalsoexplain, notexplain, because I don't feellike I havetoexplainwho I amandwhatmylifeisabout, butjusttokindofshed a littlelight, because I am, youknow, I decidedtoputmylifeoutthereontheInternet.
I knewthatpeoplewillcriticizeme, andthat's totallycool.
Soyes, someoneaskingthecomments.
Whenwe'replaying a gamewithJakeandBen, youcanseeournannychangingMaxinthebackgroundandsomeonewaslikeAnyoneelsefeltweirdthatthenanny's changing.
Did I pullwhatbothparentswerethere?
I reallytailoredwhatworksformyfamilythebest, because I wanttomakesurethat I givetotheworldandmyfamilythebestofmeandnotwhat's leftofme.
So I'm gonnakeepthemathomefor a littlelongertocapturethat.
Itis a busydayformetoday.
Wearebehindoncontent.
I knowthatYouTubeisobviously, youknow, a creativeplatform, but I'm thekindofpersonthatwhen I commit, I commitand I have a scheduleand I havetofollowthatschedule.
Virgos, I feelreallyannoyedwhenyouknowwedon't havevideosplannedoutandstuff.
So I kindofhavetocatchupwith a fewandshootsomereallyfuncontentforyoutoday.
Sothat's gonnabefine.
Jakeisstillsleeping, canresetthechip.
Soit's mytimetotake a quickshowerbeforethecrazinessbegins.
Understandingwhat's underneath a Martianandyouhavetosavehim a separatetwobodies.
He's reallyuseful, too.
Beabletoseeouremotionsasseparatetous.
WeareabsolutelyNo, I shan't just a vessel.
I didn't havetimetowashmyhair.
Sothisisgonnabeanotherdryshampoocometodaybecause I havetochoosewhat's moreimportantandfiguringoutmyhair.
So I startedthismeditationyesterday, and I havetosay, I likeit a lot.
I thinkthatasmoms, weneedtotalkmoreabout, youknow, oldthingsthatarenotsobeautifulandglamorousandreallysupporteachotherwithwhateverdecisionswetakeandwhateverwayswe'rechoosingtocopewithmotherhoodinsteadofjudgingeachotherandthinkingthatwhatyou'redoingisright.
Thioshed a littlemorelightaboutwhathighlifelineisdoing.
So, firstofall, canyouintroduceher?
I know I saidthisisgonnabesocandidates.
Youintroducedher.
Soyouare.
MynameisNatasha.
I'm connectedtohighlightflyingbecauseunfortunately, attheageoffouryearsold, mydaughterwasdiagnosedwithcancerand a goodfriendofminesaidcolHi, lifeline.
I did.
Anditwasthebestthing I did.
Sowhatkindofsupportthatmylifelineprovidetoyou?
Thatsomuchtheywouldcometothehospitaland, like, bringyoufoodandsitdownwithmydaughterandlong, longchemodayso I couldget a breakandjustbreatheandgrab a coffee.
TheywouldsendvolunteerstomyhousewhenmydaughterwasinisolationsoshewouldhavesomeonetoplaywithCampLifeline, whichisthecampthatliterallyafterhertreatmentended, broughtherbacktohealthbyyoujustbeing a kid.
Soyouspeakoftheeventlastyearitwassoamazing.
Yourwordsaresopowerful.
Whatmadeyougetsoinvolvedthatyouare?
Youknow, youspeakaboutit.
You'rekindofAh, howdoyoucallitMaybeanambassador.
Yes, Ambassador.
I'm proud.
SelftitledAmbassadorLife.
Howcanyounot?
Yougothroughwhat?
I wentthroughit.
It's thethedarkest, biggestnightmare I thinkanyfamily I cangothrough, especially a mother.
They'realwayslookingforvolunteersThiotohelpwitheventsandandhelpwiththeChildrenandthefamilies, justshowingupateventsandsupportingthatway, theSelinaknowhowmuchof a fightersheis?