I'vehadtimeswhere I feellike I needtoberushedtothehospitalbecause I'm I thinkthatlikemyheart's failingand I can't breatheand I needlikesomeonetolikehelpmesometimes I think I'm dyingsometimespartsofmybodywillgonumbanditcanbereallyyeahintenseandscary.
I meanthereisgoingtobethosepeoplethatsaylikeokaywhatdoesshehavetoworryabout?
つまり、「彼女が何を心配する必要があるんだ」と言う人もいるだろう。
Whatdoesshehavetobeanxiousabout?
彼女は何を不安に思う必要があるのだろうか。
And I'llneversithereandsaythat I'm notfortunate.
そして、私はここに座って、自分が幸運ではないとは決して言いません。
I know I live a veryprivileged, amazinglifestyle.
私は非常に恵まれた素晴らしいライフスタイルを送っていることを知っています。
Um a veryblessedgirl.
Um......とても恵まれた女の子です。
I stillhaveoneofthese, youknowwhat I mean?
私はまだこれを持っていますよ。
Thatthinguptheresometimeslikedoesn't always, I don't know, it's notalwayslikehappyandit's notalwaysconnectingandit's I'm still a humanbeingattheendofthedayandnomatterwhatsomeonehasordoesn't haveitdoesn't meanthattheydon't havereallifefeelingsandemotions.
Likeyoukindofsaideveryone I thinksuffersfrom, evenifit's just a minimalamountofanxiety, butitissomethingwhensomeone's like, ohmyGod, I haveanxietyaboutthis, like, almostusingthetermloosely, I knowwhatthatfeelslike, andlikeyou'reusingthattermlightlyand I'm justlike, I'vegottorememberanxietieson a continuumrightatthemilderend, it's probablywhatthesepeoplearesaying, I'm feelingthesociety, butthey'regettingthroughtheday.
Wellnow, I knowitsoundslikesocialanxietyissomethingyouhadevenbeforethepandemicbefore I wasreallyoverwhelmed.
社会不安はパンデミックの前からあったもののようですが、私は本当に圧倒されました。
Reallyoverworked.
本当にオーバーワークです。
I wasalwaysaroundpeopleand I kindofgotreallyoverwhelmedwithallofthat.
私は常に人と一緒にいたので、そのすべてに圧倒されてしまいました。
Tothepointwhere I waslike, I needtobealonenow.
今すぐ一人になりたい、と思うほどに。
It's morelike, okay, wewe'veallbeensuperisolated, where I'm almostlikesousedtothat, butnowthatthingsareslowlyopeningupif I goto a dinnerorif I see a fewmoreofmyfriendsthat I'm usedtoseeingthroughoutthislastyear, thatgivesmeanxiety, I'm goingtogiveyouananalogy.
Sowe'llbuilduponthat a littlebitbecausewhenyouscubadive, ifyoucomeuptoofast, likeyoucomefrom 20 I knowthatyoucouldactuallygetreallysickandthat's calledthebends.
Socialanxietyhas a certainlooktoit, andpeopleworksociallyanxiousclassicallyareafraidthatnotonlyarepeoplelookingatthemthatthey'recriticizingtheirjudgingthemandthatthesociallyanxiouspersonfeelslikethey'redoingjudgeHerbalthings, orthatthey'remakingotherpeopleuncomfortablemerelybybeingthere.
Doesitfeelsophysicalwhy I askyouthatislike, so I'veliterallygonetodoctorsbecausethat's howbaditgetsformetowhere I'm like, something's literallywrong, correctpanicattacksarethesortofthebrickofeveryanxietydisorderoranxietyexperienceweseeit's all a miscommunicationinthebrain, Everythinggetsrampedup, itstakingthesignalsfromhere, changethis, youchangethis.
I'm also a hipaacontract, which I don't knowifthathasanyrelationtolikeit's thecousinofanxietyorsomething, but I'm like a massivehypochondriacs, So, andthat's alsosomethingthathasbeen a thingsince I wasreally, little, peoplewhoareanxiousarealwaysmonitoringtheirbodies.
Anxietyislike a magnifyingglassanditmagnifiesonlythebadthingseverylittlepingeverylikethis.
不安は虫眼鏡のようなもので、悪いことだけを拡大してしまいます。
Andsoinessence, whatwe'retryingtojusttakethatmagnifyingglassandputittobeing a regularlens, becauseitespeciallyphysicalsensations, becauseanxietyissuch a physicaldisorder.
Andsothat's onething I alwayswanttotellpeopleisthattheygotogetherandthatastheanxietystartsgettingpulledaway.
私が皆さんにいつもお伝えしたいのは、この2つは相性が良く、不安が解消されていくということです。
Thosehypochondriacalthoughtsalsostartcomingdownbecausethey're a nuisance.
心気症的な考えも、迷惑なので降りてくるようになりました。
So I'm gladyoumentionedthat, becausethat's reallyanimportantthingforpeopletoliterally I'm sometimes I'm badatputtingmythoughtsintowordsyou'redoingforme.
Tellyournearestanddearestlikepracticetalk, Having a conversationwiththepeopleyoufeelsafestwith, peoplewillsay, oh, I didnotknowthatandthankyoufortellingmebecause I won't push, I cansupportyou.
Peoplewhoarehigherneuroticismarealsosometimes a littlebitmoreawareofotherpeople's stufftoo.
ニューロティシズムが高い人は、他の人のことも少し気にしてしまうことがあります。
I consideritlike a like a beautifulthingandit's beautifuland I likethat I amreallyawareofmybodyandlikemymind, I knowitcansometimesgetthebestofme, but I thinkthat I really, I likethat I'm intuneand I likethat.
I like, youknow, wanttoknoweverythinganxietywhenit's sortofrightinthatsweetspotis a littlebitof a superpowerbecauseitactuallyhelpsyoukeepyourselfsafe, keepotherssafe, andkindofkeepyoumentallyonpoint.
Soifyouhaveanything I wouldlovetohearformyselfandforalltheviewers, oneofthebestthings a personwhosociallyanxiouscandoispreparethatgettingcaughtbecominglaterushing, thatdoesn't feelgood.
MyGod, I'm such, I needtobeontimeif I'm not, I freakout.
私の場合は、時間を守らないとパニックになってしまいます。
Yougo.
あなたが行ってください。
Soifyoucanbeontimeorbe a littlebitearly, evenifyou'resittinginyourcarandyou'relikeperfect, now I'm gonnagoinyourlessfrenziedandprepare, learnwhatyou'regettinginto, likehowmanypeoplearegonnabethere, what's itgonnafeellikealmostmentallyrehearseit a little, thathelpsthelaw.
Sothat's a danceandthatmirrordancebecomesreally, youknow, itbecomesreallyimportant.
それがダンスであり、そのミラーダンスがとても重要になってくるのです。
Well, thankyousomuch.
それでは、ありがとうございました。
Thankyousoglad I gottositwithyou.
ありがとうございます。一緒に座れてよかったです。
I learned a lottoday, sothankyouand I appreciate, I appreciateyousharingyourstory, because I'm alwaysgratefulwhenpeopletalkabouttheirstoriespubliclysopeoplecanseethey'renotalonewiththis.
Itdoesdefinitelyfeellike a weightisliftedwhen I feelsomethingand I hearsomeoneelsesaying, ohyeah, I getwhatyou'refeeling, orthismustbewhatyou'refeeling, right, and I'm like, ohmygosh, yes, likethat's exactlywhat I'm tryingtoexpress.