Andi, welcome back to my channel.

I am sitting down Thio refill this beginning part of this video because a lot has changed in the last two weeks.

Andi, I want to make sure that everything is hopefully coming in this.

I feel like I forget so much, but I still wanted to put this video up.

So if you don't know A few weeks ago, there was a video made about me on the Internet.

The video was not malicious.

The video waas very well executed, very eloquently put together on Dhe.

I honestly, I watched it and I was like, Wow, that could have been so much worse.

But what the video did was raise a number off really important questions.

I think that I have covered a lot of those questions about my channel.

In this video, the girl who made the video actually emailed me to tell me that she had taken it down.

I know that a lot of people thought that I bullied her into taking it down.

We had the most wonderful conversation on Dhe.

She was Yeah, it was just lovely on.

I'm not mentioning her name in this video.

purely because she didn't do anything wrong.

She raised some really great questions on Dhe.

She's just kind of found herself caught up in this.

I also wanted to apologize as well for the quality of the camera that I was using when I film.

Yeah, I don't I don't know what, what?

That waas.

But I watched it back, and I was like, This is awful.

Like, I don't know whether it was the lighting, but to be honest, I've stopped using that camera now.

And I'm back on my old one with my smashed screen.

I wanted to address these things.

And I feel like the fact that this girl made this video was the perfect opportunity and the perfect talking point for me to do that.

So this isn't any drama.

It's no any tea.

It's just me doing what I do best in defending myself.

It's a long one.

I'm sorry, but I hope that you stick around on Dhe watch till the end.

Because I'm really hoping to just put this stuff to bed on Dhe.

Hopefully, we can move on from it.

Hi, guys.

Rights.

I'm getting my shoes off.

I'm getting comfortable as usual.

I feel like I need to call this room the rant room because I seem to be filming a lot of my like, chatty discussions last rent videos with you in this exact spot.

I think this is a good video to film.

It might be long.

It might be one of those videos that you kind of put on and you don't have to watch like a podcast.

But after I made the video about online trolling, I no, I only found that quite is the word cathartic?

Is that the right word?

Or if I just made that up But no, only was it just it was great to get it off my chest and to speak to you guys about it.

I actually feel like, ah, lot of good has come from that.

Ah, nde.

I'm very glad I made It is scary.

Is it waas on?

It's made me realize that getting things off my chest on just talking to you guys is the best, like the best course of action in everything.

So I'm hoping that this video will be the last time that I ever have to talk about any of these subjects.

ever again.

I might even put this video as my channel trailers, though, that should anyone come on to my channel, they'll know a little bit more about me on dhe, potentially anything they might have read about me or heard or whatever about me because there's a lot of stuff said about a lot of people online.

Like I said, I think that talking about the things on having a chap out, I'm just being honest is a really, really good thing to do.

Now.

The reason that I am making this video, I've never, ever had a video made about me that I've seen anywhere lately.

There are any videos made about me by other YouTubers.

So touch with That's really good.

That was until I think it was Saturday.

Yeah, or Friday, I don't know.

But it was brought to my attention that a video had been made about me.

I watched the video, and I think in the grand scheme of things, I think that video could've been worse, like it literally could have been worse.

I also I didn't really want to make this video because I didn't want to attract attention to that because I have a bit of a thing, especially if they are a youtuber.

I don't like it when they make videos about other YouTubers because I I feel like we're we're all in this together on Dhe.

If you are a YouTube, you understand?

Maybe not all but some of the worries on dhe.

The difficulties off doing this on dhe.

I like to think that if someone wants to discuss something with me, they can slide into my diem's and we can have a discussion there.

Now, this particular bus did slide into my diem's, but it was more she wanted to, like, interview me about this stuff on her channel on.

If I'm going to talk about anything like this, I'm gonna do it on my terms in my way.

But I'm also gonna sit back and wait until you do your video.

So I know what it's all about.

Andi.

I watched the video, and in all honesty, it upsets me a little bit because the reason this video came about is because she listed me as one of her top UK YouTubers, which is obviously, so, so wonderful to be listed as that.

And I'm so grateful for anyone.

That class is me as one of their favorite YouTubers because there are so many people out there for you to choose little old me.

That means a hell of a lot to me.

But on her video she had a couple of comments, a few comments, I don't know how many.

I didn't see the video about me and what I am like as a person.

And this these comments all came from people that don't know me.

And so these comments are just sort of assumptions.

And it seemed like this person saw those comments and it altered her view of me on that was what I got.

I also read all of the comments on this video about me and from what she was saying, she was like responding to people and saying, Yeah, I hadn't thought about this until these people said these things and I was like, That's such a shame that someone has allowed the opinions of people that don't know me thio altar, me being her favorite YouTube.

But I thought that was so sad to read through the comments and I was able to pick out a few points that I wanted Thio to just discuss and put to bed.

And hopefully, you know, it just makes everything a little bit.

I don't know.

It makes everything make a little bit more stents because I can understand.

It's quite difficult when you're watching someone on the Internet.

You're only seen snippets of their lives.

So if someone says something like, this is my favorite cushion Andi, I said that on my channel.

But then one day I was looking at this cushion on.

I was like, Oh, but actually this cushions a little bit more symmetrical.

So actually, this is my favorite cushion.

Someone would call me a liar because I said that that was my favorite cushion first.

But now this is my favorite cushion.

But I have no explained to you what happened in between that Does that make sense?

You don't see everything and you don't you don't get the full view.

And I think that a lot of people understand this for the most part, and reading through the comments on that video on a seat.

Some of you girls are so, so intelligent and so you have such a way with words of explaining things.

You are so positive and supportive.

Actually, I think I picked out a few of the comments on able to flip this whole thing into something far more positive.

That was what I was sort of going along the lines with it.

With my video, I wanted to make something that was essentially quite a negative thing into something that is positive because I've got nothing to hide.

They really don't on dhe.

I certainly won't be ableto film my life if I had something to hide.

So I thought that we could sit down and go through a few of the main points that may have cropped up in the video may have cropped up in the comments and just hurt those things to bed on.

Hopefully, this will be the last time that I ever have to talk about these things.

Like I said, Hopefully it this is just what do you say, Like my my final thought like Like, was it Jerry Springer's thought Springer's thought was it?

Was it him or Maury Povich, who had their final thought?

Whoever it was, this is Lydia's final vote, but I think that I've managed to bring a few points to the surface that we can talk about.

So the 1st 1 is I've changed.

So there was a few comments about where I was when I started my channel, where I am now on Dhe.

A few people that, you know, they watched my videos in the beginning and they loved me and it was so supportive.

And now they don't watch my videos because they can't stand me first and foremost here.

I don't want to be the same person that I waas last year, two years ago or three years ago.

I am someone that thrives from growth from moving forward, progressing.

I, um, someone who likes to achieve things.

I enjoy working.

I enjoy building things as in, like, a career or a life, just anything that's quite positive on Dhe.

It's a strange one for me because there were a few a few comments that were like, Oh, I liked her when she lived in her humble house, a little feel like I want to call my old health my humble house.

When I moved into that house, that house to me, it was that was it.

That was my life sorted.

I had my own house.

Wow.

I was no longer dependent on anyone.

I had my own castle.

Is it waas now through the different elements of my career on dhe?

What's happened on Dhe?

My job and all of this stuff I was able to go on and by my second home on our second home on Dhe.

That's something that's kind of a natural progression progression.

No, not always.

Do you buy a second home?

That is necessarily like this, but generally, like all of our friends are kind of at the same point in their lives us that they're buying their second homes on DDE.

Their second homes are a lot bigger than their first homes on dhe.

They're just It's just that natural progression of life like me are friends enjoy their careers.

They enjoy progressing on the differences is just that You guys are watching me evolve and grow into a different person.

I've become a hopefully better person.

I think that got when I look back at my first videos, I I honestly I don't like that person.

I see a lot like a lot of my videos.

I look well.

You look like a little bit of an attitude problem.

Lydia on, I honestly is.

It's a little bit mortifying for me to watch my older videos because I feel like I'm such a comma, Andi, more well rounded human being.

But I get that not everyone is going to feel that way.

But what you do have to understand is that you won't be the same person that you were five years ago on dhe.

I bet you don't want to be that person on.

If I knew you, maybe I wouldn't have liked the person that you've become.

But I really liked the old you and that's normal.

And I just think that to expect me to stay in the same place on be the same person and not grow into what I classed as a better human being.

It's not realistic on dhe.

Your kind of setting yourself up to be disappointed by that, because everyone grows, everyone progresses.

Whether you think I've progressed or regressed is by the by.

I like to think that I'm working towards my own goals.

I like to think I'm working on the person that I am and becoming a better person, and that's only a positive thing for me.

If it's not positive for you, you may have just grown apart from my videos, and that's fine.

But I think that we have to stop expecting the people that we follow or the people that we like on the Internet to always be the person that we want them to be and allow them to grow into the person that they are going to be.

Whether we like that or not, it's about accepting people, accepting people for who they are and understanding if that person no longer appeals to you that you could just move on.

There are so many amazing creates is out there that will take all of the boxes for the kind of creators that you want to watch, and it's just about finding them.

Acceptance is a wonderful thing, and I think that we all need to learn to accept each other's growth on understand that it might not work.

It might not be the sort of growth that we hoped for, but it is still growth on DDE that is only ever a positive thing.

Now this brings me on to my next subject.

Actually, I'm freestyling here because it's no actually what my next subject was, so we're just gonna go with it.

It's comparison now, one of the best things that viewers can do.

Or if you're feeling any kind of negative feelings towards someone that you're watching, too, not compare your life to theirs because I often see a lot of people in the comments.

And there was a lot of comments on this video comparing me to other YouTubers.

Now, if there's one thing that we as women don't need, but also just us as people, we do not need to be comparing ourselves or be being compared to other people.

We are all individuals on dhe.

We will never be the same as one person or the other person on.

That's the beauty off.

What we've done on the Internet here is that basically, we've created this movement off women doing their own thing, being their own person on def like minded individuals happen to stumble across that content and think, you know what?

I really like what she's doing.

I'm gonna follow along with this.

We build this supportive network around us on, especially for women.