I had asked you guys for questions for a Q and A, I think over a full month ago now and then promptly forgot about it.

But today, because my life is kind of falling apart and I don't have time to film a full like fashion related video without this Cuban aviall, quick, hopefully the people who have asked these haven't unsubscribed since they asked them, like a month ago.

Let's jump into these questions.

So my 1st 1 is, Why did you start a YouTube channel and who is your inspiration for starting?

So I started this YouTube channel.

I think a little bit over two years ago, honestly, couldn't tell you exactly why I started my YouTube channel kind.

Just a combination of liking fashion, being a weird ass kid who like to talk to a camera liking edit videos.

I don't think I had at that point light a unique fashion division to share with the world or really much of a personality on camera, but I kind of like just playing around with the whole video making thing.

I also grew up in like a super boring suburban town where there wasn't a whole lot of entertainment.

So yeah, why not put my face on YouTube?

That's normal.

Fun fact.

I actually also had a YouTube channel before this, I think when I was in, like, second to third grade, my original channel was cold pipe cleaner studios, and it was literally just like 32nd videos with dinosaur figurines I'd made out of pipe cleaners.

I remember distinctly there was a yellow dinosaur named Charlie, and he just had little adventures with his friends.

I think one of my videos got, like, 100 years.

One time I was like, ready for my YouTube fame.

At that time, I was also super into Community Channel, and I still am whenever she uploads like every three months.

So I also started uploading these weird like community channel asked videos like a super off pretend version of Community Jail where I was trying to do like a little bit of stand up and like little skits where I would eat together videos of myself talking to myself.

Needless to say those did not get a lot of use either, but people kind of started making fun of me and my Girl Scout troop about them.

And then I felt bad, and I told my mom that I had put my face on YouTube, which was like, Ah, crime as a little kid After that I just felt so guilty about it.

But I've read all my videos and my channel and that, my friends, is why I never tell anybody about my channel nowadays because I have been scarred and the other part of this question, who's your inspiration for a starting one?

I honestly don't remember too many of the channels that I watched back then.

Just because I feel like YouTube has kind of high turnover rate, and I don't watch a whole lot of the same people that I did two years ago.

I think I watched denim back then, and I really, really loved Krystle.

Limber Channel is so professional and beautiful, but I think back when she was starting out more like three or four years ago, she would make these really cool, just like homemade videos of her mixing and matching basics in super creative ways.

So I really loved watching her videos, and I would want them, like, over and over and over again.

Okay, My next question is, when did you start to take an interest in fashion?

And were you always into?

No, actually, when I was a kid, probably up until, like ninth grade, I was such a tomboy.

I hated fashion and beauty and everything like early so much.

I think a lot of that, though, was a result of my mom.

And like most of the other adults, I grew up around being second wave feminists that they kind of ingrained in me.

Like if I wanted to be smart and successful and a badass, Then I had to reject really girly things and that liking beauty and fashion and stuff like that was like a sign of being superficial, like a waste of brain power.

I do still admit that beauty and fashion are definitely more superficial parts of life and shouldn't be like the focus of your entire life unless you're me and you make your money on you to somehow.

But as I've learned a lot more in college, it is completely possible to be a girly girl toe.

Love your outfits and your makeup and, you know, chat about boys with your friends or whatever and be a complete career bad.

It's like those things are not antithetical at all.

A lot of ways they can complement one another.

So, yeah, there's your weekly feminist message.

But back to how I got into fashion.

My older sister was always a lot more fashionable than I was, and every night me and my family would watch TV together.

So the show that she got into and she got the rest of my family, including my dad hooked on was Project Runway.

So we watched, probably like seven seasons of that, and we'd always, like, critique the runway shows together for a while.

I kind of have this interest in fashion, but I never would actually dress up, but I didn't want to see like I was trying hard or like I was girly.

Finally, in high school, I kind of broke away from that and I started dressing a lot nicer.

I feel like a big part of being confident.

We're style, especially if you see the same people a lot.

It's just keep dressing, however, the fuck you want, and then eventually they just expect you to dress in your badass way.

That's what happened to me in high school.

I dressed way fancier than everybody else in my school, but everybody just like it was like That's just how, actually dresses OK, next question is, what school do you go to and what are you studying?

I said this before and a couple other videos, but I go to U.

C.

L.

A.

And I'm studying film, television and digital media.

You have that kind of just slap the digital media onto the end of the major, and we don't learn that much about it.

Along that line, somebody asked What was your college incident process like?

My college decision process was a bit of a doozy.

Has anybody said that since like the fifties?

Because at my high school, they didn't have a film program at all?

Obviously, since I grew up in suburban Maryland, there wasn't like a film industry that I could really go and learn from, basically, just at the end of my junior year when I was thinking about what I wanted, Do you do with the rest of my life.

I was like, Well, film is a cool thing.

I made, like, one short film that my classmates said I was good.

So that sounds like it sounds like Decision Ashley.

So I decided to apply to three film schools, USC and when you and U.

C.

L.

A.

Which are the top three undergrad film programs in the nation, as well as seven other like, traditionally academically good schools.

So I told myself that if I made it into one of the top three film schools, then I would allow myself thio, give this whole film thing a shot.

And if I didn't, I probably wouldn't have a great chance in the industry.

So I just major in something normal.

I guess so, without sounding too obnoxious.

Hopefully, I ended up getting into N Y.

U and U.

C L A film programs and then for non film schools.

I got into several, but my top contenders were Colombia and Stanford.

I got to visit Columbia and you and I love New York from the bottom of my heart.

I think it is by far the best city in America.

I sent a lot of time there as a kid, and I always go up there with my dad on his business trips.

I was storing Columbia pretty heavily because I was also a John Jay scholar, which is like some special distinction where they basically pay for you to do anything you want over the summer.

And also Columbia has a really good graduate program and filmmaking.

But when I visited, it became pretty apparent to me that basically there wasn't a great undergrad film program in their film studies, Major, you didn't really get to make anything.

You were just like studying the oldie films.

And also Colombia's core curriculum is a fickle boy and why you was really fool.

It's technically ranked higher than you see L.

A.

In terms of film school in like the one ranking of film schools that exists on the Internet.

But what I like is that the program is around 200 people in each grade, which is a lot larger than you see lays 15 and obviously the main issue was tuition, which is insane with room and board.

I think it's like $76,000 not to say that out of state tuition is cheap, but u C L.

A.

At all, but it's nearly half the price of N.

Y.

U.

I never actually ended up visiting Stanford, which I kind of regret to this day.

At this point, I really had my heart set on being a film major.

This overly long explanation then left me with U C L.

A.

I like that had the smallest program, and they also seem flexible with allowing me to graduate in three years, which would also help cut my tuition costs a lot.

And I also like that it was right here in L.

A.

Which means that people I meet at school and internships and stuff are already in Hollywood, which is where I'm gonna end up, I will say, especially last year.

I wasn't sure if I made the right choice, especially the fact that I gave up Columbia and Stanford to come here made me like, really salty when the program wasn't doing everything that I wanted it to.

But at the end of the day, I do think, you know, you only get one life, so it's worth fighting for for a career that you actually really want.

Hopefully it works out for me, we shall see.

Asked like 40 year old me who may be unemployed.

This, I swear, is the last college related question because I realized that I rambled about that last one for like, 10 minutes.

This one asks, You got into Stanford.

How did you perform in high school?

Slash What were you see, Billy do a whole nother video about college applications.

I know that in high school they are, like, the biggest fucking deal ever.

Basically, my sole purpose in life for 18 years was just into a good college, saying real quick that I had a 4.0, and 23 90 on my S A.

T.

And I did far too many extracurriculars that I didn't actually like.

Basically, I was very much a try Hard.

But if I have any advice for college applications, I'd say that especially for like, elite school is really more about having like, a unique angle than being really, really great at everything.

The letter that the admissions officer sent me from Stanford basically just said that what they really appreciated about my application was my kind of entrepreneurial side, like one summer I started an Etsy shop and I sold my art.

I told them that I had a fashion blogger, although I don't think I mentioned that you two can.

Obviously, I ended up in film school anyway, which was basically the result of a script that I wrote like one week.

So that work was like Loki for nothing.

Anyway, Next question is how do you find time to balance school and YouTube?

This is a good question for me now because I'm struggling a little bit, especially since I'm graduating.

In three years, I've been taking a lot more classes than average.

Also, to help pay my tuition.

Up until last quarter, I have been working part time at restaurants as well.

I will say I'm super grateful that things have actually gotten a lot easier in the past 2/4 because YouTube is now paying enough that I've been able to quit my part time jobs.

So that's just another thing off my schedule.

Although now I also added two videos a week for some other YouTubers, so it is kind of a lot on my plate.

Ever since I turned 16 I've been working 2 to 4 part time jobs in an attempt to save up for college.

I am pretty used to being a bit over scheduled.

I say with any time management issue, it's mostly just a matter of not spending too much time thinking about how much you have to do and just actually doing it.

And also when I'm working, I just don't take a whole lot of breaks or watch TV on a regular basis when it also helps to have a really dead social life.

So okay, our next question is how do I feel more confident in my clothing?

Clearly like this question, because I feel like confidence is such a big part of any outfit that you wear.

It's like confidence is the best accessory.

He's a quote that sounds nice.

I think like anything in terms of personal development, being confident is just a process, especially when you're a teenager.

I feel like it just takes a certain number of years to, like throw into your body and also your personality and who you are.

I'm definitely still working on my confidence, but I feel a lot more like comfortable and at home in my own body and my own face and everything.

Then I did a couple years ago.

There's any, like, quick tip fix that I could provide, though it would be to get a good full length mirror and get some good natural lighting in your room when I was living in the dorm last year, first of all, we had a really bad mirror from Target that literally distorted you to make you look shorter.

And second of all, the room was really dark, and all we had was this gross like green yellow fluorescent light.

But look in the mirror every morning when I put together my outfit and I thought it looked a lot worse than it actually did.

You just do yourself a favor and get yourself a nice little set up so that you can see how your outfit actually look.

I got a couple questions about my workout routine, and I would say, First of all, watch this video that I posted a couple videos ago about body image and kind of my weird journey down like the fitness rabbit hole of exercising way to mine.

Now I don't really go to the gym anymore.

First of all, just cause old Jim Bo's really intimidate me so that pretty much just like a couple of times a week or whenever I'm feeling like it, I'll just do some exercises, like on the floor of my apartment.

Mostly, I just do some light, but an AB exercises.

And for cardio, I pretty much just walk to class, go shopping and have sex.

Okay, I have a lot more questions, but my roommates are coming back home soon, so I'll just finish off with this one, which I thought was really cute.

And it is.

When did you have your first kiss?

But this is a pretty classic, like YouTube story time shit.

But my first kiss was actually really, really few, although the guy's a bit of a interesting guy.

Now, who is this guy that I had liked for a long time?

And he asked me to our junior year prom, so I think I was either 16 or 17 At that point.

There was a lot of filled up in like awkward 16 year old sexy texting.

We didn't actually kiss at problem because we are wholesome Christians like that, just getting We're actually just outside talking when the slow hands came on, so we missed it.

But after problem, he basically took me through this neighborhood and he led me through another houses backyard.