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  • (hip hop music)

  • - Hey everybody, it's your girl Jen,

  • and today I'm filming the My Perfect Imperfections tag.

  • And I believe this was created by AndreasChoice

  • here on YouTube,

  • and I remember when she first uploaded this video in 2010.

  • It left such a big impact on my self-esteem,

  • and this video isn't meant to just like

  • tear us apart and have us you know talk negatively

  • about each other.

  • It's meant to showcase that everybody has insecurities

  • or things that they have thought about changing.

  • And so that's why I'll be talking about three imperfections

  • or flaws that I see in myself,

  • and then I'll talk about three things

  • that I like about myself.

  • And I guess I'll start off with the negatives first

  • so that way I can just like end it with the positive note.

  • So let's get started.

  • The first flaw I wanna talk about are my uneven eyelids.

  • So my left eye is my good eye.

  • This is my golden eye.

  • It's got a nice little crease,

  • and the lashes do what they're told.

  • However, my right side did not get the memo.

  • That's why it makes it look like my right lid

  • is thicker than my left.

  • And it's because it is.

  • They're uneven, it's not symmetrical,

  • and it's just,

  • it was a little frustrating when I was like

  • trying to figure out how to do a cat eye.

  • Because the lines would always look super uneven.

  • In college I actually tried to do something about it.

  • I bought these little like eyelid stickers,

  • and you literally just stick 'em on your eye

  • and it trains your lid to fold correctly.

  • And it worked for like a year or so,

  • but now it's just back to being this again.

  • And honestly I'm not losing any sleep over it.

  • I've come to terms with it,

  • and the fact that I can see out of both my eyes

  • is all that I can ask for.

  • So definitely not taking that for granted.

  • So my next flaw is probably my biggest insecurity,

  • and they are my legs.

  • If I wanna get real specific, they are my calves.

  • They're so big and muscular,

  • and growing up I freaking hated them.

  • I hated my legs so much.

  • I would always try and cover them up,

  • and I never felt like,

  • I never felt girly.

  • I always felt kinda like brutish

  • and just kinda manly because my legs were

  • very strong and thick.

  • I was actually considering getting a calf reduction

  • when I was like 19 or 20.

  • I was saving up for the procedure.

  • But after reading all those forums and seeing

  • like the recovery process,

  • it was just a very invasive procedure.

  • Like it's not like you're injecting something

  • or you're putting an implant.

  • Like you're literally cutting through your muscle,

  • tearing it out, and then like sewing it back together

  • and expecting everything to be okay.

  • Like your calves are such a crucial

  • muscle in your body.

  • Even in my delusion it didn't seem worth it

  • because a lot of the recovery stories are like,

  • yeah I got my calf reduction surgery.

  • It's been like seven months.

  • I still can't really walk or run,

  • but at least my calves are like an inch smaller.

  • It just didn't seem worth it to me

  • because I would never wanna compromise my ability to walk

  • and run and climb because I love being on my feet.

  • I love being active.

  • And I don't think I would've been able to forgive myself

  • to impair like my legs

  • for something so superficial.

  • And even though I'm not like in love with my legs now,

  • like I've learned to love them in my own way.

  • Sure they're big,

  • but they're strong,

  • and I'm a pretty fast sprinter and I can jump really high.

  • I love my legs because they're mine,

  • and they take me from point A to point B.

  • The last imperfection I wanna talk about is my height.

  • I am five foot one, so I'm pretty short.

  • Like I'm not the shortest, but I'm still pretty petite.

  • And I think this insecurity started to form

  • when I was a kid.

  • My mom would always make me drink like

  • a big glass of milk every day,

  • and she told me that if I drink this milk

  • than I would be tall,

  • and if I was tall I would be successful.

  • And I remember just pounding milk down.

  • And you know who would've though,

  • genetics would play a big factor.

  • Now I'm the same height as my mom.

  • I think that my insecurity got worse

  • when I started to

  • become more obsessed with fashion and style,

  • and whenever I looked at models on the runway,

  • they would be at least five nine or five 10,

  • and so that was my standard of beauty.

  • And I thought that I had to be tall

  • in order to pull off these outfits that I loved.

  • And that also kinda spurred my obsession

  • with wearing heels everywhere.

  • Like I liked wearing those heels,

  • but I felt like it was almost like a crutch for me.

  • Because I thought that if I was taller,

  • then people would take me more seriously.

  • But now I've realized that it's completely bs.

  • No one treats you differently because you're taller

  • or shorter, it's about who you are inside.

  • And now I'm really starting to embrace my shortness.

  • I really love the fact that I am very compact.

  • I can fit in like the economy plane size seat pretty well.

  • I can even like cross my legs there.

  • It's nice.

  • So now let's move on over to the things

  • that I like about myself.

  • The first are definitely my collarbones.

  • I will never forget the first time I got

  • a compliment on this,

  • and it was by my friend Ann in the seventh grade.

  • She looked down and she told me that I had

  • really nice collarbones.

  • And in middle school,

  • I was so painfully insecure,

  • and that compliment just stuck with me

  • and my collarbones became my redeeming quality

  • for everything.

  • Because everything else had not developed in any way.

  • (laughing) I just really love how prominent they are.

  • I love wearing off the shoulder tops

  • and just any top that highlights this area.

  • The decollete is such a beautiful part

  • of a woman's body,

  • and I feel like it just does not get

  • the recognition it deserves.

  • I feel like everyone's focusing on like the boobs

  • or the butt, but what about this area?

  • This is just, I don't know,

  • it needs to, it needs to have some recognition.

  • So I thought I would shed some light on it.

  • Next up, I would have to say my smile.

  • I had braces when I was 15 for eight months.

  • This tooth right over here actually went all the way in,

  • so I just got braces to pop that out,

  • and here we are today.

  • I brush them two times a day for two minutes

  • with an electric toothbrush.

  • And I floss, obviously.

  • I think oral hygiene is very important.

  • I really love smiling and just you know

  • having that good positive energy out there.

  • It's something that anybody can do,

  • and it just has like a huge impact.

  • So whenever you don't know what to do, just smile.

  • Unless you're doing something like really creepy,

  • don't smile, that just makes (laughing)

  • it like even creepier.

  • For my third thing, I would have to say my hair.

  • I love how low-maintenance it is.

  • It doesn't get oily,

  • and when I curl it, like the curl stays

  • for like a couple days.

  • It's amazing.

  • And I think it's because I trained my hair

  • not to get oily.

  • When I was younger,