First things first, let's get into skincare.

This my favorite serum and it's like It's called Mucus 92.

I really like the slimy stuff.

I should have better skin with how much I do.

But yeah, I think growing up I saw my mom doing it every morning and night and it's I realized that it's more of a ritual and it's like a winding down kind of moment and when she would do it every night and there's just like one light on her and it's dark.

It was just beautiful.

Like I was just like I want to be like that one day, you know, also my grandmother, anytime I try to like use any of these muscles, you know like when you go like that she would slap me like like that I'd be in public and she just slapped me And no one would know why the next stage will be prosthetics.

We have these.

So basically this alien um she's a bit delusional but also like might be a genius.

She moved to Hollywood to become a big star and naturally um you moved to L.

A.

And you get lips.

So yeah, here we go.

Also these these lip prosthetics were made in Hollywood.

Yeah.

And so let's just hotter this down.

Oh they're fab, look at me, I was born in K town and I lived with my grandparents and my mother for a little while, but I was raised very religious and third grade my parents, I don't know, they decided to join like this christian cult group and they had this blog, they would review every like part of pop culture and tell you if it's safe for kids to watch.

Harry potter is a big no, no, very big satanic demon worshiping.

If you watch it, your kids will, you know, die kind of thing, Go to health and mm hmm.

I remember that year I had to burn all my Pokemon cards in like a fire.

It was really dramatic.

And I think that was the moment.

I was like, oh, this is like kind of be us, you know, at a young age, I'm like, this isn't what God once I had such a great, like a weird upbringing and I really didn't have many friends.

So my mom has always said like, keep your head high, like don't let anyone else's opinion affect the way you see yourself.

I think that was a really important thing.

She taught me now.

We're going to get into the skin to make the perfect shade of pink.

Kind of nothing at all.

I fell in love with like the underground music scene and I met so many great people there.

I guess there were like the L A club kids, you know, at the time and I'm like, I had this moment where I'm like looking around and I feel really safe and I felt like my people were there, you know, okay, so next we're gonna do a bit more contour with a darker pink, just get it really nice.

And then um we're gonna bake it and because my looks are always changing, my mom thinks I'm on the run or something, honestly, they've been quite supportive.

It wasn't always that way.

Like I knew I knew I broke them in when I showed up with my new haircut and my mom complimented me.

She was like, that looks really good.

It opened up your face nice and I was like, I really don't want to do a look.

My mom thinks it's cool, but she is really cool, so it's okay, but it took a lot to get there.

You know, I actually shaved my head on instagram live.

I never do live, I'm really inspired by beauty standard during the medieval times when women would shave half their heads.

It was a religious thing, but that was actually like deemed the most beautiful thing you could do as a woman, which is really profound to base the whole beauty standard and a weird one to like not very common uh because of what you believe in, I just found up so beautiful Frances Coleman comes from my mom and I used to watch lower the rings and that was one of the approved things on the list and the only things that I was interested in watching.

Um I was, I have really fond memories with her going to the theater to watch it, watching it at home, talking about what we think things meant and she coined me as Smeagol and then when I'm being bad she'd call me gollum.

So that always stuck with me, you know like that is so me though, I am always, I feel like to very extreme same level of strength feelings at the same time and I life is just really learning how to deal with both of them and like knowing which way to lean.

When my mom has an instagram queen Golem, her bio reads, there is no princess without a queen.

So yeah, she's holding that for me.

Thank you.

Thank you alma.

My iconic like starting outlook with Princess Caroline was these like really vintage 90's I found at this vintage store but my reference photos for that where it was so funny because it was two pictures of Gollum and then one of tank girl, this is a good place to like put the brush down and I'm gonna let it bake with this setting powder.

I learned this from a drag queen.

Okay so now that my cream bases baked.

Now I'm going to contour with a little bit of powder, it's quite nice.

It's nice pink and now we will go into mapping out the design using eyeshadow and lipstick modeling is tough.

The industry is tough.

There's definitely hurdles that I go through being 4 11 kind of unheard of unless you're a child.

But when I saw that challenge, like, oh, this is how it is.

And I don't agree with it and I'm going to try my best if I can two go in and just suck it up.

You know, I mean that's kind of like why do it right?

And says I want everyone should have equal opportunity and I do it for the freaks the, you know, really, it's hard for us to find our place in the world.

It really is.

You really have to like wear a mask.

You kinda have to step back sometimes.

Okay, I don't like look or watch a lot of things for inspiration.

I could literally be walking across the street and find a pile of trash and I would be so inspired and I would want to make something or you know, a color of like someone's P.

Or I don't know, just like really random things.

So now we're gonna add the silver.

Mm hmm.

Feeling pretty good.

Sounds pretty great.

Okay, so I'm really happy with my makeup now.

Yeah.

Oh, that looks kind of real.

I'm learning this really cool party later.

And I'm putting together this great outfit.

But the only thing I'm missing is shoes.

So we're gonna go to my favorite shoes spot and I'll see you there.

Bye.

Okay.

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