What does that age mean?

For a lot of people, it means a great deal.

Turning 30 is a huge deal for so many people in the world.

For some others, it means absolutely nothing.

It's another birthday.

It's just another time of their life.

And they move into that period and do whatever they want, the same as always.

For me, turning 30 is a big deal.

Growing up, I remember being a kid, always seeing people who are 30 years old.

Seeing my brothers and sisters turned 30 was such a huge thing.

Was like Oh my God, when is when someone turned 30?

That was it.

They had, like, their life figured out, and they just worked until they were day.

I can't believe that I'm actually that age now.

I I don't know where the years have got it.

It really is that boomer thing off.

I feel like God heard that the time go, I'm suddenly gonna have to wear my glasses all the time when my back's gonna hurt and I'm I'm going to laugh of Facebook means, But I want to turn it into a positive thing.

I've been really excited about turning 30 Ever since I hit like 26 I don't know this this combing time of life, this huge milestone for me it's like it's like turning 10 is one of the big milestone because it's double digits and then you turn 18 and then your legal to do a lot of stuff, especially here on then 21 is a big one, and then 30 is the next one.

And then after that, it's like, what, 50?

So it's a really big turning point in your life, and I want to turn it into a positive thing.

I've been very excited about turning 30 because that's when everyone kept saying that.

That's when you have stuff figured out.

That's when you're gonna know who you are and you're gonna sail forward and your thirties they're gonna be the best years of your life.

And when I was about 25 26 27 I was like, How the fuck is that gonna happen?

27 on 2017.

With such a horrible year for me, you could go back.

He can watch the video.

I talked about being the worst year of my life, and it was awful and I really wanted to make 28 29 2018 a better year and I really did and then 2019 came on and I feel like I can't have stumbled a little bit through that again.

I feel like I set the bar so high for 2018.

I put out so much energy that it was just kind of hard to live up to that and it was hard to keep that going.

That 2019 I kind of stumbled in, wobbled a bit, but I didn't phone over completely and my voice cracks.

I want your 30 that doesn't go away.

So I didn't fall over completely and even if I did, would I pick myself back up and just ran the race again anyway?

But I felt like I stumbled a little bit in some of the things that I wanted to do with some of the mentalities that I was bringing forward.

But all that time working towards the age of 30 I really felt like I was getting to know myself better and not not even like trying super hard, not even sitting down and being like, okay, who am I or self reflecting all that often.

I just really felt like I was getting comfortable in my own skin.

I got into a point where all the all the trivial stuff, all the petty stuff, all the stuff that kind of bogged me down in my twenties all just felt so not so much meaningless.

But it felt like so much wasted energy.

Like all this stuff about waking up on worrying about the day and worrying about all those tiny little things that were happening And like all God, can I get this done?

And, um, what does this person think of me?

All the shit just seemed to just melt away their older I got another time, 30.

It's like men wasted so many mental calories burning through all of these thoughts over the years that really just I don't know where I want to take my thirties and put a stamp on it.

I want to turn it into something.

Technically, it's just another year.

It's just another time of my life, and technically, it's just another fly around the sun.

But I wanted to I wanted to do stuff.

I want to change stuff.

I wantto like really work hard.

I kind of mentioned some of this stuff at the end of 2019 and it being the end of the decade.

And now that I'm here at 30 going into the next decade of my life, I really just want to lean into that.

For the last year, I found myself just being connected, agitated at things and pissed off about things and kind of just worrying about all this shit and comparing myself to people.

And because 2019 was like the year that I really went down to, like, one video a day on the channel and then had such a knock on effect on so many aspects of the channel that I mean, I'm not gonna get into all that now.

It's just a lot of like of analytics and blah, blah, blah.

But let's just say it was one of the worst performing years on the channel, and that's literally only because I have the content on it, and that was fine.

I was happy doing that because I really needed time away from, like, the double upload schedule and all of that just bombarding me.

And in the middle of all that.

It was kind of getting to me, and it was kind of agitating me and little things here, and there were just kind of pissed me off and then recording video.

It was just like get through the motions and just get it done on every video had to be something amazing.

And all of that time I just kind of lost the phone in what I was doing.

I lost sight of why I was doing what I was doing.

And now that I'm here, I've kind of been doing double uploads again and really been getting back into the swing of things.

And I've really been enjoying what I've been recording and putting so much pressure on everything and just recording for the sake of it.

Just enjoying what I'm doing because it's fun, You Judas fun.

It's fucking awesome, making videos every day.

I'm just plowing through games and having as much fun with them as I can.

Every now and then I'll play some stinkers.

It's I'm sorry.

I can't fucking polish a paler shade boy.

I will always try and find something good about him, at least to train.

Enjoy them as much as I can, and I was always really good at that.

But the last year, year and 1/2 I've led like a lot of little things.

Kind of build off kind of pissed me off.

I want to shed that.

I want to go into my thirties, happier than ever.

I wantto just make the most out of things.

And remember how fun this shit is.

I'm go back to the gym and just trying to get back in shape.

I'm just enjoying my life.

I have such a cool job.

I have so much freedom in what I do.

I have so many ideas and creativity that I want to let out of me and so many ideas that I want to get done this year that I'm like, Why not?

Why am I getting bogged down by all this stuff that really doesn't do anything?

It's all this talk and chatter in my head that really is not helping.

That is one kind of wade through that, like sift through all the top all the thoughts and figure out okay, what's important and then work with that.

Basically, what I'm saying is that I want to try even harder on my channel to just really go for it and really, just have fun.

I said that whenever I had the energy, I would like do two videos a day again because I missed doing genuinely.

Um, and I would always say that if it really got to me again, I would just take time off and not let it burn me out.

And lately it's just been super fun to record videos, and I've been doing two videos a day for like two weeks now, maybe three weeks, and it's just been awesome.

I've really just kind of been leaning into all the phone aspects of what I do again on Dhe.

I love it.

It's It's marvellous, It's wonderful.

And my 30th birthday has been super fun.

I had a great day with Evelyn Way, a super chill day.

We went to watch birds of Prey in the cinema, which is a fucking awesome movie, and I would highly recommend to go watching.

We had dinner.

I was completely bombarded with love and support from you guys online on my birthday on it was incredibly sweet.

Thank you so much for your continued love and support over the years.

It really, truly does mean the absolute world to me.

It's It's so nice to know that people are there for you, just watching you for you and having fun and going along with you.

And through all the ups and downs and anxieties and tribulations.

No, I can't stop if you guys are just here to hang out and have fun and be real with me, and I'm going to tweet it out about this is while thanking everybody for just being so nice and all the birthday wishes.

But I also fought it up with Ah, thanks to all my friends because I had this weird moment where well, I guess it's not weird.

It's lovely at this moment where I just kind of like sat at the end of the day and it was about to not be my birthday anymore, and I just kind of sad.

And I looked at Twitter and I looked at all the people who were saying nice things and all the friends who had messaged me on Even I even had, like Ryan Reynolds, leave a comment on my instagram post wishing me a happy birthday on like just stuff like that.

It all just kind of hit me at once.

How fucking great.

Everything is how wonderful things can really be on.

I just got overcome with emotion and just kind of sat here overjoyed and I'm gonna fucking cry if I talk about it anymore.

But I'm just I'm really happy and I want to make these the best 10 years off my life, The last I'm very, incredibly proud with what I've accomplished in 30 years already.

And most of that has come in the last seven.

So I want to really make the next 10 years something Thio really be proud off myself on Dhe while I really love you guys and I'm bringing you all on this journey with me sometimes it's nice again.

30 I feel like, and being on older individual is a great time to just kind of figure out what you want in life.

I think the earlier you figure out who you are and what you want out of life, it's not gonna be the same time for everybody.

And if you still have no idea who you are by 45 that's completely fine.

There's no rush There's no like set pattern for everybody.

But if you can figure out who you are and what you want to do, then you really just have to go for it.

And I know that you guys will be alongside me anyway.

But sometimes I need to be like, Okay, sure.

Sh I'm going to do this thing.

It's gonna be fucking weird.

But trust me on this.

I need you guys to have my back and going into these next 10 years, there's probably gonna be a lot of that.

But hopefully it's really cool stuff that we can all do together.

But every now and then I'm gonna have to put you in your place, because every now and then somebody all be a bunch of bitches.

But 90% of the time, it's all wonderful and a really great time.

But the dad pants are going on.

All right?

The boomers here Facebook means air, actually.

Fucking funny.

Have you guys seen minions?

Shit's hilarious.

I've never seen minions.

Anyway, I don't know what the fuck this log is.

I don't know if any of this is even making sense, or I'm just repeating myself or what not, but I have a lot of energy I have a lot of positivity on.

I'm just going to bring that forward p m a everybody.

I'm gonna I'm gonna go back to that for for 2018.

That was our mantra on I really fucking I really champion that for the whole year And then 2019 people kept yelling PM at each other for every sort of issue.

Was like, Oh, I don't like this.

Things like that's a pair very p m a of you, which is that's not a very p m a thing to do, and it just kind of lost its meaning.

It just became this bullshit term that people kept yelling at each other.

But this year, personally, I'm really gonna champion that mantra again, because it it was really something that I stopped by for 2018 and it really it sounds dumb.

And it sounds silly to just kind of go buy something like that every day, but it really helped on.

I'm just going to get back into that again, and I'm gonna enjoy the things that I enjoy and fuck naysayers and all that kind of garbage.

Just have fun.

Let's let's go into the next 10 years and let's go into this year and the channel again.

And let's just find what made it nice.

Find that nice, warm, cozy place where we all got together and we all had fun.

Anyway, I'm gonna leave this here.

I hope you guys have wonderful day on Dhe.

I don't know how to end this video.

Maybe I'll just sit here and read war and peace to you.

Well, Prince, Genoa and Luca are now no more than private estates of the Bonaparte family.

No, I warn you that if you do not tell me we are at war, if you again allow yourself to Palley.

Ate all the infamy is an atrocity.

I love you guys.