Your life.

Oh, right.

Sorry.

I again Sorry if you were just in that lifestream that just did not go.

Well, we're trying again.

I hope you can hear us properly now.

Yeah, good tea, but yeah.

I don't know yet.

Baby.

Back, baby, back here.

I'm gonna do my little started thing again in the I'm guess ago.

This is Claudia.

We're married.

It's our prime.

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Besides club Andi cars down there, she's gonna be checking your comment that you write them, sending, licking your sound and audio.

But that's the same thing that Yeah, well, your visuals.

Good.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

On what it is.

A mirror just off camera so that I can lip read Claudia on.

Know what's going on?

Yeah, she's not just bacon.

Least because this is a webcam.

I normally we use our camera, which has which I can actually see her.

And it's very new.

It's a new thing.

It's a new thing.

No, exciting.

Say, how do we stop?

I would describe your sexuality.

Oh, I identify as a lesbian.

Although I do what you say gay.

And you don't want me saying lesbian?

I just am gay on.

I have ever since I knew what that waas because I just had feelings for girls always.

And I thought everyone else had exactly the same feelings on.

Then someone tells you they didn't mostly hope.

Yeah, you have a very good coming out story.

That's what Yet the wealth was born coming out.

There's only one explanation, but I just had feelings for girls, but not everyone.

Like, how did you know that they were different to your feelings?

No accounts, that thing.

What I'm saying is that as a small child, they were like special girls who really liked.

But I thought that they were just the feelings you get for best friends.

Yeah, because I was like, odd.

She's amazing.

I just wish she was my I didn't have a word for it, so I just said best friend And then the feelings I had for boys were like, Yeah, they're all right, I guess.

And my friends started be like, Oh, my God, boys, don't they just make a heart scare?

You feel funny inside And I was like, No, but that does happen when I see that girl again.

Just because you're like a really girly fam lesbian who likes you over Quite Whereas, um, you know, I was, like, before I go my best friends when I was little boys.

So I like boys more like, you know?

Yeah, I felt more connected to boys.

It was until I got older.

I had more into friendship was with girls.

That's mainly because the boys left our school on.

There was only girls to play with during a girl's school like that.

I was mixed up until the age of, like, middle school.

And then the boy also laughed.

And then the scales will, After they could go to another school, we should say, like they were left in the world crisis.

But you dated boys?

Yeah, I did, yes.

Leading with compensation on then.

Yeah, and then I'm a populated.

Boys made friends with boys, uh, get on better with boys.

Generally, I don't have any boyfriends anymore.

Life is very less, but it's really sad.

She keeps saying she needs more guy here and even some more guy friends furry, living bright with Yeah, but I'm now.

I would just say I tend to identify is, um, gay lesbian?

Married to a woman?

Yeah.

I love it.

Really matters when you want you married.

No, I think I always say I don't think it matters the tour.

What?

Even if in 10 years time you go?

Actually, there is a part of me that does still quite like men.

Because as long as there's a part of me that likes me, why should I care?

Yeah, well, I identify as gay slash lesbian.

It's last married to a woman, but, um, that is your sexual.

She's just a sexual, but, um, like I have sent to you like, I still find men attractive.

Um, like, it doesn't repulsed like it does with you.

Oh, yeah.

Sometimes I'm telling you this last night was sometimes I like to test whether I'm still a little alleged lesbian.

Just because I think it's really important that you should know about watching TV, and she's like, Yeah, I'm going.

What?

Oh, I was just imagining kissing those people on the TV and I was like, No, So, I, um, definitely east.

Okay.

Okay.

Well, let's get to know, darling, there's a weird right.

So I seem, you know, men on television you are conventionally really attractive or something I'm like, Imagine.

Oh, no, I can't do it.

I can't do it.

Yeah, so then I Yeah, still.

Hello, Tilly.

You come to join?

What?

Tilly is just sleeping on my laugh.

But besides help.

So yeah, with a revelation moment, they include, um, yeah, I was talking about There's only one thing that really thinking about how we're gonna answer some questions And the main one.

Apparently, we've never made a video about my coming out story.

No century.

I have asked you, You said that I was like, Yeah, I just, um I know they're so shy with your role.

Well, it's not that I don't personally think it's not interesting.

It's not like before she coming out stories of the people's know that.

Oh, I told my dad and he cried and then let me hugged it out.

It's not like I don't have anything like that particularly.

I told my dad and he was just like, oh, okay.

And then that was it.

Never talked about it.

And he was like, Oh, but he went out with your boyfriend for five years, It was like, Yeah, but now we're like girls, and he's like, Oh, so you like body feels like I don't know.

I'm just gonna go for the girls at the moment.

He's like, Oh, and then he was like, I went for a phase when I was your age, and I quite liked men for a while, but I didn't go there.

Was like, all right.

But I am gonna go there.

And he was just one of those.

You know what?

When I was like Anyway, I love, I don't know.

I don't like all the people on some idiotic Yeah, I went through a phase.

That's a way of saying that's OK in a way.

And then, like, yeah, but now my my realization moment, I don't know.

It must have.

I just, um Well, I was like I was in unique ums.

I'd be one of those, like, typical kind of straight girls.

He's a pub, like pull my girlfriend's out in a club, but not for male attention.

Just because we were drunk and we were really close and we just wanted to kiss I don't Well, no used to dio Yeah, but we didn't think anything of it was just like, Yeah, we're drunk.

Well, we're having so much fun and let's kiss and make how, But like, it wasn't really making out.

It was just And then the next day would just be totally normal.

Like she talked about the guy she likes.

Night about my boyfriend.

Okay.

Yeah, on then.

I never got to experience this type of thing in the N and M.

And I guess, like, But then even then, I didn't really feel anything for it, cause it was just my friend.

So he doesn't, like, sexually attracted to her or anything.

Um and then my thanks thing was, I bought a book by Sarah Water is called Tipping the Velvet.

She's a lesbian writer for to try.

So he writes loads of lesbian because historically based, Yeah, I didn't want maybe by the book, like maybe I read a review of it or something, but it must have subconsciously, I thought, Well, I'm gonna like I'm gonna read this book.

And then I got really into the character like a really sort of I don't know, I just like a real emotional attachment to her.

Even though my life is nothing like her as you like.

Groping like an oyster, shedding like a story in Victorian times.

But anyway, she was, like, young and innocent, and she moved to London.

I guess maybe that I had just moved to London.

That was maybe the thing, um young it.

Yeah.

It's like a coming of age story anywhere going.

I've got really obsessed with this book.

Like I used to read it over and over and over, and then I found that it was a TV serial it So I got really into that.

And then I watched that over and over on.

At that point, I wasn't like I just wasn't keeping a secret.

I love tipping the velvet and I saw in tow it.

Everyone is all right.

Uh, you didn't have to keep it a secret because you didn't dress.

It was revealing any Yeah.

Yeah, exactly.

Um and then as I kind of got a bit more obsessed with it, I was like, Yeah, maybe I should stop talking about this because a little bit weird outside.

Why, Mr Wiz, this is strange.

Um, and then I got into after that.

Then I watched like a ll The lesbian based films like defines the stream.

Um and then some of them were like Simon Evident.

I like that.

And I realized I like the ones that have really strong emotional connections.

Not like all every sexy or it's, like forbidden or has, like, some death at the end.

It was, like, so I already liked.

Imagine me immune.

Andre really liked, um Oh, I don't a finding annabelle.

What?

Slightly up there.

But that was just a little bit weird because it was last being things that have I the teacher student relationship or like the bad girl in the good girl.

Can't just be true.

Good girls.

Yeah.

Why does there have to be an element of rebellion and naughtiness in this?

They're not being naughty.

It's just normal.

Yeah, we need more normal lefties.

Comes on going to the l word.

Um, so and then that the l word?

Because it was so much more.

This is a lesbian drama.

Um, I kind of hit it.

I hit the fact I watched it, So I screamed in my room so I'd be like, for me.

It's gonna go to bed now retired but I'd actually go and watch, like, episode after episode of all the Siris on that, I've watched the series again and I was like, Wait, electorate, What's that again?

I'd watch that, Andi, I would like really into it.

And I knew what I was watching it.

I was into it more than just a straight girl.

Found like of the program on another member going into H M V.

When H M.

V.

Was still a short I really wanted to buy the box set because I was hated the fact that it would pop up in.

You've watched too many hours, the streets know how much anymore.

And I feel like I need to know that I have a date.

Oh, so nothing road They were as together once a comfy and I remember circling round and round the books of the El We're thinking it's like I actually bought it over there.

Not like people know I'm gay.

If I buy this book set like I just did it upon a weekly basis, I go into agent d'you see that it was on sale Well, that they'd have a few copies and I got who on I just in back.

So I didn't want to like out myself to the cashier person.

But that's probably because be outing yourself to yourself.

Yeah.

So can I.

Went through that for quite a long time.

Maybe about a year of Just liked secretly what you need all words and no having the courage to buy more or less the infection or more lesbian dramas from shops.

Unless I could order it from the Internet, Then I wasn't gonna buy it.

And so I know that many stuff you could get from the Internet then, like lesbian things.

I mean, back in the day, um and I'm I think that I just like, yeah, so I think that I think I knew there was something going on on then.

Um, but my actual coming out was an intel after my mom died.

So this was all happening just before she got diagnose cancer.

Then she got dinos cancer, which is quite quick on dhe.

Um, I just kind of put my whole sexuality thing on hold, Um, and concentrated on my studies.

And my mom on that when my mom died.

Uh, I think I dated like some guy and I remember being on the date with him.

I mean, I dated, like what?

Like 34 days.

And then I remember being on the last day with him.

I was just, like, staring at him.

And I just thought I am gay.