Thisistheaftermathof a codewiththreecoldspectaboutbigones.
I mean, I haven't beenoutofthisroom 34 hours, soit's kindoftough, andwegotsomenewDaxandthatmakesit a littlecarrierthanusual, becausetheytendtobe a littlesloppy.
Hedidn't cooperatewiththecareand I hearondaysthat I wasn't here.
Hewasreallyjustawfulbecauseheand I endeduphaving a reallygoodreportanditbedayswhen I'd yellathimandthen, youknow, thenhesaid, I'm sorry.
Weworkedittogether, butthenwhen I wasn't there, everybody, I'm sogladyou'reback.
Youcanhaveyourprimarybag, youknow?
So I guessthehardestthingformewhen a sistercalledCitydied, likemaybe a fewdaysafterhelikedhere, Youknow, afterallthatworkweputintoitandeverythinginfirst, I don't know, somethinghappened.
Andit's likehesaidbeforeheleft, wasgonnadie.
D'oh!
Whenwe'vegottenthiscloseto a patient, investedthismuchofourselvesintheirrecovery, theirdeathcanbeveryupsetting.
Um, wehad a a code, I'm gonnasayfourmonthsago, 45 monthsagoof a youngwomanthatwasshotinthefaceofan A T M mission.
Andshewas a youngwomanpregnant, shouldtosmallChildrenwasherdaughter's birthday.
Andshe'd gonetothe A T M machinetogetmoneytotakethefamilyouttodinnerwhentheirhusbandgothomeandhewasonhiswayandthreesmallChildrenshotfacehandandstole $60 thatthatwomanpopsinmyheadlike a ah, lifelongfriend, someone I knewandshe's a stranger.
I don't knowhername.
I don't rememberhername, but I canseeherfacerealgood.
A lotofwhatweseeanddohasthepowertomoveussometimesdeeply.
And I thinkcollectively, whetherwe'reworkingasprofessionals, helpingourpatientsovercomethetheintrusiverecollectionofthetraumaticeventorwhetherwe'rehelpingfriendsandfamilydealwithit.
You'reaffectedbyit, butyouarenotdiminishedbysomeofusendedourshiftsearlierearlyenoughtostopoff, totalkandunwindafter a hardday's nightwaygetprettyclosetothepeopleweworkwithshiftaftershift.
Butthat's normal, especiallyat a hospitallikeourswaytendtotalk a lotoftimeslikethesetellingstoriesshepoppedthatmaybein 29 ithelpstoshareeachday's experiencesgoodandthebad.