Yeah, it's justIt's justlike I experiencedeverythingwithmyothersenses.
So, likenothingisiswith a visual.
Also, evenwhen I dreamlike I'm justdreamingand, like, smellsandtasteandtouch.
Andit's notlikethere's justnovisualsthathappenedwithOh, I have a question.
Okay, sosay, oh, gooddreamslike, Oh, man, I wasinthisbakery.
Andthatis a nightmare.
LikeOh, God, I wasinthemiddleof a gameislike a nightmarelikesensations.
Ormaybethere's a badsmellandyouwakeuplikethatsucked.
Yeah, it's like I justgetlike, theracingheartandlikethefearandlike, that's a baddream, right?
Versusfeelinglikeexcitedandhappybeing a gooddreamLike I'vetalkedto a lotofmyfriendsthatwerebornblindintherelikeThisismylife, youknow, likewhen I learnedhowtoread, I readBraille.
When I learnedhowtodothis, I diditthisway, whereasforme I hadtolearneverythingthesecondtimeat, like a reallypivotalpointoflikebeing a 14 yearoldgirl, goingthroughpubertyanddoingallthenormal 14 girlthings.
Andthenit's likeButnow I goblind.
I hadtomournthelossoftheperson I waasandkindofdiscover a newpersoninsideofmetobecomeandwith a funprocess.
I wentthroughlike, reallyseveredepression, and I wassuicidal I harmed.
Itwaslike a verybadtimeinmylife.
I lostallofmyfriendsand I Wouldyouloseyourfriend?
I don't understand.
Yeah, I guessbecause I wentfrombeinglikethispersonwho's, like, reallybubblyandhappy, youknow, goingtobeing, youknow, sadanddepressedallthetimeandangry.
Forme, thatwaslike a lotoftherapyandjustkindoflearningThiorediscoverhowtoelovethingsthat I lovebefore, Like I lovemakeupandfashion.
Andsowhen I wentblind, I waslike, OhmyGod, But I stilllovethosethings.
Sowhen I lovesomethingthat I couldnolongerseeandsokindofonce I startedrediscoveringhowtodomymakeupwithoutsight, howtoenjoyfashionwithoutseeingitand, youknow, meetingpeopleinmylifewhodidacceptmeforwho I am?