So I am very excited about today, but also probably more nervous than I've ever been about anything.

Theo, I've ever done so recently.

I fell down a YouTube hole and I became obsessed with this youtuber named Holly Berg.

Hey, guys, it's Molly here again.

And welcome back.

So she does a lot of typical youtuber things.

She does daily vlogs.

She does.

Q.

And A is She does what I ate today, but she also is blind.

One large figure minute, one face blurred figures.

All right, we've made it to Starbucks today.

I'm answering a very, very commonly asked question.

Do you know what you look like?

If I'd given easy answer, it's no, I don't know.

I couldn't wrap my brain around the idea of being a YouTuber, but also not being able to see.

And then I just have this little vidcon tote.

Is it a good contact?

It's an instagram Toto, There's the elevator.

Is they're amusing.

The Braille Syria, literally not being able to watch your own videos.

I just want to show you guys my outfit, but like I don't know what else it is, what it is blind girl life, you know, not knowing what you look like.

Like there's actually that sense.

I don't even wanna make jokes because it is such a sensitive topic.

And she's one of the most inspiring people ever seen on YouTube.

Hello, my friends.

It is finally time.

I'm actually doing it.

My blind girl makeup tutorial.

Just make sure I feel that it's definitely in the blush part, and then I just top it off.

You sure there's not too much?

I had to stop waiting for other people to stand up for me.

I had to stop waiting for other people to raise their voice for me.

So I had to have her come to my house and do a video with me.

And she's a lot of ideas.

She wanted to make me blind for a day.

She wanted Thio try to make my dogs and guide dogs like it a lot of fun ideas, but I'm gonna be honest.

I have a huge, huge fear of losing my sight.

It's been something I've had nightmares about since I was a kid.

Sometimes if I think about it too much, I will literally spin into a panic attack.

The idea of just waking up one morning, possibly blind like you won't be able to see movies or look at Instagram or see a cute dog when you're walking down the street like all of that on my goddamn party.

Like just the idea of that makes me, like, so overwhelmed.

But I want to know more because she seems so happy and so together and confident and like, excited about life.

And I want to know, Like, how does she deal with not having site?

And how is she's so much better than me.

When she gave us the room keys, she was like, Your room has a gorgeous view.

I was like, That means a lot.

Thank you.

I've just never really hung out with somebody who was blind.

And I have so many questions and I don't want to offend her.

And I just I'm just nervous.

So Garrett's coming or islands here, and, uh, we're gonna be blind for Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

I just realized she has no idea what I looked like.

That's a good friend.

I have.

I'm kidding.

Oh, God, I don't know when to stop joking.

I don't know when the jokes were too far.

I'll ask her.

Come in, come in when you have a camera.

Well, I noticed that you didn't shower.

Yes, I did.

What are you talking about?

Well, it's been 84 years.

Oh, he's theater.

I showered and everything.

Well, that's good, because I know that's why I did, because I was like, Oh, she's got, like, extrasensory perception like Daredevil.

Because when they're no, can't see, he could, like, smell and hear really well, life she's given smell me from a mile away.

Is this wrong personal?

Stop bringing marvel into everything.

Secondly, can you let the doctor was like that?

Like like she's going to be?

I'm gonna, like, throw knives at us, catch up.

You know, I actually really excited, but I'm really nervous because number one and you're here, and I don't know what you're gonna say or what.

Well, that's what I'm kind of trying to figure out.

To be honest, I know Is goofing a little bit there because I don't know what else to do.

Can I be lighthearted about it?

Cause I have questions?

Like what?

Like I don't know.

Can you like, if you make a sound, Can you then see?

Because that's a girl.

No, I mean, this is what I mean is Can I ask these things?

You know, I'm not trying to be funny.

Like I don't know how to be also, What did you do to the house?

Shame.

Yeah, with Oh, the blinds broke it.

Oh, my God.

It's like a simple like the blinds.

Are you okay?

I say we should move the thing of the pigs having sex, but she can't see Okay, before we get to that, did you notice anything different in this room?

Oh, I'm not a lot like printed.

This is really cool.

So this is an illuminati.

I with my name on it.

This is my underwear.

Which god?

Literally wearing the same underwear C c t scan in there on my double.

So, guys, probably two days.

Okay, She's on her way.

Molly Burke is her name.

No sight is her game.

And she weighs, Say, that's her catchphrase.

Did you just do that?

Did you come up with that?

Okay, Molly, you need thio merge.

Another fun thing I thought about is that she doesn't know what we look like?

Oh, so she can guess.

She touches our bodies.

I'm out here.

There's a polling booth.

A lot of tea.

Who is he?

Give You stole a blind girl's boyfriend?

I'm hand t That's so interesting because his dick doesn't have to look good.

It just has to feel good way coming cry.

I want to do a Ted talk in my living room.

Why would you do that?

Also Look at the back me up.

Oh!

Oh, you're literally taking fun of Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

It may start crying.

We got the dog.

Who do you think she rides around on the dogs?

That's Wait, Wait.

You think you're so much skinnier than you talk about yourself to be?

Oh, Sunday voices, Riel.

She's also a way lost stuff in the car to make you blind Will do that.

Second.

Sit down, brother.

Here.

Right.

That's I've been watching tutorial.

So before we really get started.

Yes.

My first question is, how are we?

As far as sense of humor because oh, my God.

It's like I know all about the humor.

Okay?

Yeah.

Blind jokes are Please make them all time.

Don't tell Garrett that I don't like making my way downtown walking fast faces past, but I can't see them.

Yeah, because you know what?

If I can make a joke about being blind, people laugh.

It means they're comfortable.

If people are like that means they're uncomfortable about the fact that I know somebody's.

My friend would not only will they laugh of my blind jokes, but they'll start making that's like us for body job.

I know.

Yeah, Gallup found a toy, so let's break down exactly the blindness.

So I have an eye disease called retinitis pigmentosa, so it's characterized by losing your night vision and losing your peripheral vision first.

So those are like the 1st 2 warning signs.

A lot of people with RP don't go blind until they're in their middle age, too later in life.

But I have a really aggressive foreman was diagnosed very young and then slowly over time, the tunnels just cave it until you have.

In my case, I have, like, light and shadow left.

I can tell there's like a window there because I can see the sun coming in.

So if somebody was to stand against that and they were like, backlit.

I could kind of see the shape of someone, huh?

Okay, I won't wait.

So when did you leave most?

My vision at 14.

So 10 years ago.

So you haven't Wow.

I like start to spiral a little bit when I think about it.

Yeah, there's a lot, you know, like, there's a lot of stuff you don't think about until you start talking about it.

Then you're like, Wait, But how do you do that thing that I would have never thought of trying to do with outside, you know?

Well, do you know what you look like?

So I always explain that as, like, I'm reading the book and you're watching the movie.

So I have a description of what I look like.

Like, I know that I'm really short.

I know that I have really, really white skin with freckles, and I know I have, like, green blue eyes.

I don't have really long, straight, dark brown, almost black hair, but like that's it.

But if you lined up 10 girls with that description, we all look different, right?

That doesn't make up person.

I don't I actually have a visual idea What?

So you don't remember what you looked like before?

You know, visual memory doesn't really last.

Most people who lose their vision don't retain visual memory.

It's like like you say red.

It's not like I read Pops up in my mind like I can't do that.

So, like, you don't remember what, like family members?

No, I don't remember what any of my family members look like.

What anything looks like, Really.

Don't worry, it's not.

Wait, don't don't feel sad thinking about, like, move like your favorite movies as a kid.

When you look back and think about your favorite movies, how do you are you just remembering the story?

Yeah, it's just It's just like I experienced everything with my other senses.

So, like nothing is is with a visual.

Also, even when I dream like I'm just dreaming and, like, smells and taste and touch.

And it's not like there's just no visuals that happened with Oh, I have a question.

Okay, so say, oh, good dreams like, Oh, man, I was in this bakery.

Oh, it was not so good.

And that is a nightmare.

Like Oh, God, I was in the middle of a game is like a nightmare like sensations.

They're scary and terrifying.

Any feel scared?

Or maybe there's a bad smell and you wake up like that sucked.

Yeah, it's like I just get like, the racing heart and like the fear and like, that's a bad dream, right?

Versus feeling like excited and happy being a good dream Like I've talked to a lot of my friends that were born blind in there like This is my life, you know, like when I learned how to read, I read Braille.

When I learned how to do this, I did it this way, whereas for me I had to learn everything the second time at, like a really pivotal point of like being a 14 year old girl, going through puberty and doing all the normal 14 girl things.

And then it's like But now I go blind.

I had to mourn the loss of the person I waas and kind of discover a new person inside of me to become and with a fun process.

I know it was very shitty at the time.

It was really hard on.

I went through like, really severe depression, and I was suicidal I harmed.

It was like a very bad time in my life.

I lost all of my friends and I Would you lose your friend?

Why would they leave?

I don't understand.

Yeah, I guess because I went from being like this person who's, like, really bubbly and happy, you know, going to being, you know, sad and depressed all the time and angry.

And, you know, 14 is a hard age for everyone, right?

Like everybody's dealing with their own stuff at that age and self discovery.

And I think that how they went about it wasn't right by bullying me.

But I feel like it was all that kind of like knew howto d'oh!

You know, like they just they were doing with their own stuff, I guess, and, like, just couldn't handle mine on top of that.

And I get it because, you know, there's no excuse for what they did to me.

But I also can say that I hardly understood what I was going through.