Name: 世界で最も別れにくい人との別れ方 (The Hardest Person in the World To Break up With)
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Break-ups are almost invariably difficult, but that isn’t to say there aren’t different

degrees of complexity at stake in different constellations. Nor does it preclude the existence

of a cataclysmically painful but too-little known type whom we can call the hardest person

in the world to break up with. A relationship with them begins like this:

you’re very drawn to them. Perhaps they very much attract you physically and their

personality is compelling as well. You admire them and, in areas, feel a lot of sympathy

for them too; there’s probably something in their past which really interests and touches

you. You have no desire to break up, and in fact, you’d love this to last till the end.

For their part, they seem to be keen on you. That’s what they’ve said on a number of

occasions. They show no interest in leaving you. They want this to be for the long-term,

perhaps forever. And yet there is a problem, a problem so grave

and yet so hidden, so damaging and yet so hard to grasp, that you can only bear slowly

to face up to it. You start to realise that the partner whom you love and who says they

love you is having a grievously detrimental effect on your mental or physical well-being.

What wrong might the partner be perpetrating? It is a spectrum. At one end, they might be

hitting you. But the spectrum is long and it contains all sorts of far more insidious

ways in which, without ever raising a hand, let alone a finger, one human can badly damage

another. They might be having affairs, or spending too much money. They might be addicted

to something. Or, and this is properly hard to get a grip on, they may be constantly ‘absent‘.

They show no reliable warmth towards you, they never initiate any touch, they may never

hug. They are present but not really there. Probably, as soon as these problems first

arose, you started to complain. But you did so softly, or sarcastically or bitterly. Not

head on. After all, you love them and you’re a good boy or girl. It can take a long time,

years, decades, before you finally dare to find your voice and come to a place of being

able to raise an adult objection. What then happens when you at last ask these types to

face up to the harm you feel they are doing to you? There are two main responses, both

of them are appallingly hard to master, the second is the very hardest.

(i) They Confess it Fed up at last, you tell them that you’ve

had enough of the violence, affairs, addiction, financial spend, distance, lack of intimacy,

lack of sex… You raise an ultimatum. If they don’t finally raise their game, you’re

going to be leaving (even though, of course, it’s the last thing you really want; you

love them!). You may be shaking and flushed after you have spoken. You’re feeling you

might be crazy (surely it’s crazy to threaten to leave someone you love who says they love

you!). You’d expected all sorts of dark responses on their part – but something

that is on the surface rather lovely now happens. They admit it! They confess! They say, my

goodness you’re right, I hadn’t really fully realised until now, until you made me

finally open my eyes to how I’ve harmed you. Baby, I hear you! Baby, I’m so sorry!

The person promises that they will now change. They just need a bit of time, they just need

your understanding. They suggest getting themselves a therapist, once a month or so. And then

they’ll get on top of their issues. Their ready candour is deeply moving – and suggests

they really have a handle on their psyches. You are, in any case, desperate to believe

them, they have a very willing audience indeed. The problem is that, despite their promises,

the person doesn’t change at all. They make a short term adjustment, strong enough to

ensure you won’t leave them on the time-scale you were threatening, but not profound enough

to correct the problem – and allow you your freedom. And in the gap between their promise

to change and your realisation that they haven’t got the ability (or perhaps intention) to

do so, children may have been born (they wanted kids to keep you around; you wanted them as

a token of the happy future that was being promised). Commitments pile up, and there

are fewer options left in the world beyond. You might not be so young any more.

(ii) They Deny it However hideous all the above sounds, there

is an even worse kind of relationship to leave than that. This is one with the same dynamics

but with one extra twist at the end. When you finally confront them with the problem,

they don’t confess: they deny it! They tell you you’re dreaming: you’re imagining

it, not remotely, the problem lies with you, they say. At the same time, they get very

incensed and offended at the suggestion you’re making: you’re so cynical about me, don’t

you trust me?! How rude you are about me! Why don’t you have more faith in me and

in us? And they push back: you’re just as neurotic as you say I am. The problem is with

you and not me… This is mine-field territory. Relationships and their interactions are generally

not filmed. So it’s very hard for you to back up your claims or even be sure of your

verdicts, when they are relentlessly challenged: is the loved one spending too much money;

or am I just nagging? Are they actually flirting; or am I just jealous? Are they failing to

initiate sex; or am I just insecure? The partner whom you love and really don’t want to leave

and who says they love you adds to the difficulty you face by enthusiastically telling you,

with authority, that you really are a bit crazy, that you are seeing things, that you

are too demanding, that there’s something wrong with you… Probably, you’re an open

minded, nice, intelligent person – and open-minded, nice, intelligent people tend to give others

the benefit of the doubt. After all, such types know they aren’t perfect, they’re

aware of everything they get wrong, they don’t feel they’re brilliant in every way. Therefore,

perhaps it’s quite plausible that here too, you may be seeing things that aren’t there.

Why insist, especially when you love your partner and want to be with them? Here is

a nice person telling you you are a bit mad and imagining things? It’s a dispiriting

message, but if disregarding your impulses (and your emotional needs) is the price you

pay for keeping a relationship aloft, maybe it’s worth it. Maybe it’s worth thinking

of yourself as a bit insane. At least you’ll still have a partner. So, more time passes,

and you stay put – and in that time, probably there are more children, more entanglements,

and less of life left for you to build on afterwards. There is also highly likely to

be a destruction of your sense of reality. You will probably start to feel as mad as

you’re being subtly told you are. You might have a breakdown – which isn’t an ideal

backdrop against which to leave anyone. All that said, in both of the above cases,

eventually, you will have to leave. Your long-term mental well-being depends on it. But it isn’t

a picnic, having to leave someone you love; who says they love you – and who is either

falsely promising to change or denying they need to change because you’re the defective

one to begin with. You will feel extremely alone with this decision.

You will be left to wrestle either with feelings that you are nasty (for leaving someone who

is promising again and again to change) or that you are mad (for leaving someone who

tells you you’re demented to doubt their sincerity). You will have to destroy a relationship

that might have children in it on the basis of nothing more firm than an inner sense that

your partner is doing something seriously deficient to your wellbeing and cannot stop

themselves doing it – despite telling you they love you.

And yet you will have to leave. In order to leave, you will need to think in your mind:

I am in love with someone who is damaged. They cannot realistically change and may even

be using me as a reason not to change. Or they are in denial and are abusing my credulity

and self-doubt not to look more honestly into themselves. And you will have to think: there

is probably something in my past, a history of putting up with intolerable situations,

which makes me a long-term sucker for this sort of suffering.

Mountain climbers know that certain peaks cannot be climbed on one’s own. You need

a climbing buddy, and in this context, let’s call them a psychotherapist or a very very

good friend, the sort who can put in the time to reassure you of your sanity and who can

be there for you at the inevitable moments when you feel like you’re making the worst

choice in the world even though, despite your self-hating feelings that you’re impatient