I kindofjustwantedtoturnthecameraon, sitherefor a littlebitandjusttalktoyouguys.
I know I mentionedonSnapchat a weekortwoago, justkindofabout, likelettingwallsdownandlettingyouguysknow a littlebitmoreaboutme.
Personally.
I knowforthelastyearand 1/2 as I haveenteredtheYouTuberealm, I havereallyjuststucktomakeup, makeup, makeupand I know I did e videolikesixmonthsagothatwascalledTheTattooDiaries, Partone, where I kindofletyouguysinonmylifeandsomanyofyoulovethatvideo.
Sorrythat I haven't done a followuptoityet.
Itisdefinitelycoming, butthere's been a lotof, likecrazyrumorsanddramaandjust a bunchofnegativeshitallovertheInternetabout I mean, it's alwaysaboutme, but a lotofitrecentlyisjustaboutmeandNathan, and I justkindofwantedtositdownhereandtalkaboutmyrelationship, everythingaboutit, andjustaddress a lotofrumorsthat I'vebeenseeing.
SoforeveryonethatdoesnotfollowmeonSnapchat, myhaircoloristDavid, heshot a twodaybecauseyoutransformme, baby, wewereactuallygoingtodolike a hotcoralorlike a peachytypeofcoralvibe.
I have a reallygoodgeneticsonmyfamilywhenitcomestohair.
Well, nothairlines.
Insertjokethere.
Butwealwayshavereallystronghereinourfamilies.
Youcoulddie a bleach, itflatironanddowhatever, anditfeelssohealthy.
So I said, Youknowwhat, David?
Let's takeitthere.
Soweweredoingthehair, andallof a suddenallthepinkwasgoneand I waslike, Oh, myGod, youguys, I haven't hadblondehairinliterallynineyears.
I usedtobleachmyownhairandhighschool.
I usedtohave, like, whiteplatinumblonde, and I'vehadpinkandgreenandsomanyothercolorsthroughouttheyears.
Definitelyfeels a littleweirdtomerightnow.
Likewhen I lookedinthemirrortheotherday, I waslike, Oh, myGod!
Thenextmorning I waslike, Holyshit, whoisthis?
Andit's crazy.
Italmostfeelslike a partofmeislikemissing.
Thatsoundsweird, butit's definitelysomethingthat I'm gonnaprobablykeepfor a fewmonths, andthen I'lldomypeachidea.
Butfornow, I'm having a littleblondeambitionmoments.
Doblondeshavemorefun?
I guesswe'llfindout.
So I'm notreallysurehowtostartthisvideo, but I guess I'm goingtojustaddress a lotofthingsthat I'vebeenseeingandhearingandjust, like, havebeenwitnessingallovertheInternet.
Nowit's reallycrazy, becausewhenyouaredatingsomeoneorinlovewithsomeone, hereallydon't hearallofthe I guessnegativestuff.
Butwhenyouliveyourlifeonlinelike I doandyouarealloverYouTubeandtheInternetandInstagram, SnapchatandFacebook, Obviouslymylifeisinfrontofanaudience, and I knowthat.
Butthen I havetorealize, youknow, meandNathanhavebeenbuilding a storyonYouTube, andwehavebeentogetherforabouttwoyearsnowand a fewmonths, andsomuchhashappened.
When I introducedhimonmychannel, I hadnoideawherethefuturewouldtakeus.
Andhereweare.
Youknow, wehave a houseinCalabasasTogetherwehavefourdogs.
Wehavethisamazinglife.
But a lotofyouonlyseeus, youknow, reviewingfacemasksor, youknow, ontripstogether.
Andhereallydon't knowwhatislikeunderthesurfaceorwhatisbehindthepinkcurtainas I'm gonnacallit a bitoftheday, Do I reallycarewhatpeoplesayaboutme?
No.
Butthentherecomes a pointwhereactually, maybe I kindofdoonsomesubjects, becausewhenpeopletrytotellmeyourboyfriend's onlywithyouforthemoneyoryourboyfriendhas a weirdvibeoryourboyfriendjustwants, youknow, yourbankaccount.
Soletmerewindtoearly 2014 when I startedtalkingtoNathanandmethimfortheveryfirsttimeatthetime.
I wasingleforlike, sevenyears, andwe'lltalkaboutthatlater.
Butwhen I methim, I hadreallyjuststartedmycompany.
I wasnotwealthy.
I wasnot a millionaire.
I didnothave a crazybrand.
I didnothave a YouTubechannel I didn't haveanyofthesethings, soitjustkindofmakesmesadwhenpeopletrytothrowthatcardin.
And I think a lotofpeoplehatetoseeothershappy.
We'rein a veryweirdtimeintheworldwhereotherpeople's successorhappinessmakesotherpeopleupset, jealous, angry.
Um, and I can't reallyunderstandthatwhenever I sawotherpeoplemoresuccessfulthanmeorhadnicerthingsinmeorwe'redoingsomethingthat I wantedtodo, or I neverlookedatitaslikeOhmyGod, fuckthemlikefuckthisshit I can't believethey'redoingand I'm not.
Itmademewanttoworkharderandmadememotivated.
But I know a lotofpeoplearen't likethat.
SoNavanmetmebeforehadmoney, plainandsimple.
Soplease, let's moveonfromthatsubject, and I don't knowwhatpeoplethink.
Like, youthinkhejustloggedintomybankaccounteverydayorhas a debitcardandgoshoppingallday.
Youknow, it's reallyfunny, and I'm justgoingtokeepitsorealasusual.
When I metNathanhehadnoideayouguyswhatanydesignerlabel?
Waas.
Heis a smalltownguyfromMichigan, andpeopledon't reallygive a fuckaboutLouisVuittonandChaneloutthere.
They'reliterallytryingto, like, paytherentandyouknow, workandtrytofind a jobandjust, youknow, everyone's prettynormaloutthere, andthey'renotwrappedupintosocialmediaoranyofthisbullshit.
Soittripsmeouthowpeopletryto, I guess, saythingsthatareliterally a lieandit's crazy.
Soit's likeyou'remakingmoneyoffofpeople's, youknow, sadnessorangerorpainorlies, andit's justkindofcrazy, likewelivein a hole, anotherworldtogetbackontrack.
Before I metme, I wassinglefor a longtime, andthereasonwhyisbecause I amreallynotattractedtoanyonebutwhatwecallinthisworldas a straightmaleor a normaldude.
Andwhat I meanbythatislike, youknow, I amreallyintostraightguys, And I knowthatisgoingtonotbesurprisingto a lotofyouIfyouhavebeensomeonethathasfollowedmefor a longtime.
Youknow, I comefromthemusicworldifyouareunfamiliarwithmymusiccareer.
I didmusicfor 8 to 9 longyears.
I traveledtheworld I met, youknow, a 1,000,000 people.
I grewanamazingfanbase.
Andthisiswaybeforeeverhad a makeuplineordidYouTubefromjusttravelingtheworld.
I wouldalwaysfallinlust.
I'm gonnasitless, becausetome, I haveneverbeeninloveuntilnow.
And I really I guessthatreallyhitme.
And I reallyrealizedthatwhen I metNathan, I hadneverfeltlikethiswithsomeonebefore.
I'veneverhadthatstrongof a connection.
So, youknow, fromjusttravelingeverywhereandmeetingdudeallthetimeandbeingaroundthatworldforsolong, I reallykindoffellinto a trapofalwaysbeingsomeonethatwaskeptlikethesecret.
Andwhenyouaresomeonelikemewhoisyouknow, I getaskedallthetime, eveneverydayonmychannel.
Youguys, I getcomments.
Areyou a guy?
Areyou a girl?
Areyoutransgender?
Areyoutryingtotransition?
Whatareyouand I don't evenknowhowtoanswerthat?
Obviously, I wasborn a male.
I justfeellike I'm Geoffrey.
Beingsomeonethatislikeme, thatis a guythatlookslike a woman, right?
I keepdoingthisbecausesomanypeoplearenotintolabelsthesedays.
So I thinkwhentheyfoundme, hewaslike, OhmyGod, thisislike I don't know.
I don't knowwhathethought, really.
I guesswecouldaskhimoneday, buthewasattractedtome.
Obviously, hehitmeupand I wasreallyattractedtohim.
Somethingabouthimdrewmein, and I waslike, Okay, letmegivethisguy a chance.
I hadnoideawhattoexpect.
Youguys.
Heflewto L A fortwodays, literally a weekend.
He's like, I'm gonnacomehangout.
Let's justchill.
Whatever.
I thought, really, We'regonnabereally, Really?
I thoughtwewerejustgonnahookup, saygoodbye, Have a goodweekendtogether.
Andthenthatwasthat.
And I'llneverforget.
Whenhepulleduptomyhouseand I lockedeyeswithhim, I waslike, Whoa, I don't knowwhatitwas.
I don't evenknowhowtoexplainthefeelingof, like, a reallybondlikethisconnectionthatjust, like, hitmeand I wasalmost, like, breathless.
Twoand 1/2 yearslater, I cansaythat I think I havefinallynotthink I knowtrulydeepdownthat I haverealloveand I don't evenknowhowtoexplainit.
Loveissuch a weirdthing.
I know a lotofyououttherehaveChildren.
You'remarriedyou'redivorced, you'resingle.
Therearesomanywalksoflifeouttherewatchingthis.
And I justwanttoletyouknowthatittookme 29 yearstofindsomeonedecentenoughthatrespectedmethat, youknow, I wantedtogivemytime.
Thio.
And, youknow, Natehashadthedealwith a lot.
He's hadtodealwithme, youknow, growingas a brandas a person, as a, youknow, influenceras a celebrity.
Whateveryouwannacallme, I thinkallthosewordsaresilly, butwedolovetolabelthings, andit's alsoimportant I getit.
ButwhateveryouwannacallmeisthatNatehasgrownwithmebecause, youknow, beenwithmeSincedayonewhen I evenwantedtostart a channel.
Wehavefilmedvideostogetherthathavehadmillionsandmillionsofviews, and I think a lotofyouwereenamoredbythefactthatNateloveswomen.
Buthealsoisnowdatingme, and I think a lotofyouaretrippedoutbythat.
Andit's crazyhowmanygirlsandwomenouttherearestilldirectmessagingmeonInstagramandit's It's bizarretomelikethere's a girlyouguysthatliterallyrightLetmeknowwhenyou'redonewiththatfaggot.
Comebacktothepussyand I'm like, Girl, I justthinkit's sadthatpeoplewanttotrytoruin a relationshiportrytobreakitup.
Butthethingaboutmeisthatthereissomuchtrustlike, I wishyouguyscouldseehimdaytodayandseewhat a beautiful, strong, amazing, nice, genuinelikepersonthatheis.
Because, youknow, I knowthatyouguyssee a fractionofwhatitisonYouTubeandonline, butyouknow, wehavefulltransparency.
Youknow, I don't knowhowothercouplesare, butlikewereallydon't everarguelikethere's reallynotmuchtoeverargueabout.
Everythingisalwayshappyandamazing, and I'veneverfeltlikethisbefore.
It's crazytothinkthatotherpeopleouttherewanttohurt a relationshiporpeoplewanthimto, youknow, trytowritebacks.
Youcanscreenshotandmake a newstory, andit's justlike, OhmyGod, I couldn't imaginebeingthatunhappywithmyselfor I wouldwanttohurtothers.
I guess I can't relatetothat.
Soforallyoupeopleouttherethatliketotryto d m otherpeople's men, youneedhelp.
Wehavetorealizelike, Oh, myGodcannotreallyacceptthispersonforeverythingthattheyareandalsoyouguysbeinginthespotlightorbeinginfrontofanaudienceallthetimecanbedifficultfor a relationship.
And I don't knowifyouknow, I don't reallydostory 10 videosonmychannel.
Soifthisis a littlejumbled, I'm sorry, but I justwantedtosaythankyoutoeveryoneouttherethatwatchesmychannelsthatwatchesmyreviewsandmymakeuptutorialsandthattrustmeformyopinion, youknow, that's what I'm herefor.
And I loveyouguyssomuch.
Thankyouforwatchingthisvideo.
Andofcourse, ifyouguyswantmorestorytimevideos, pleaseletmeknowinthecommentssectiondownbelow, and I justalsowanttosaythis.
I know.
I know.
A lotofyouhavebeenseeingSnapchatsoflikejewelry.
No, meandNathanarenotengaged.
I havebeenwearingringsfor a whilenow.
Hehas a ringonhisrighthand, and I thinkeverytimehelikessnapshotslikeflipsit.
SoyouguyswerelikelyIsthathislefthandontheengaged?
I don't knowif I everwanttogetmarried, Maybe I'llgetmarriedin a year.
Maybe I'llnevergetmarried.
I don't knowyet, but I doknowthatwe'rehappyhowwearerightnow.
Andwedon't need a ceremonyor a pieceofpapertochangeanyofthat.
Besidesthat, nokids, nomarriage, a lotmoredogsand a lotmoreadventures.
Wedolovetravelingtheworld, and I reallyappreciateallofyouguysthatwatchourlogsandeverythingwedoontheroad.
It's justsofuntobeabletotravelwithyourbestfriendand, youknow, wakeupeverymorningtosomeonethatcanlookatyouwithnomakeupon a bearfaceandjustsay I loveyou.
I thinkthatisoneofthemostrewardingfeelingsofthehumanbeingistoactuallyexperiencethat.
Sohi, guys.
Thatisitfortoday.
And I don't know.
I toldmyselfwe'renotgonnacryonYouTube.
Reckoned a quietonthischannel.
So I amgoingThioletyouguysgofornow, and I willseewhenthenextone.