And this is the way.

Recently, over the past six weeks straight, I have been deep in the editing, whole editing my apartment makeover.

I started with 16 hours of footage for just a makeover part.

So isn't taking a really long time, but I finally finished it last night.

This is the first time in my life I have any video with, like this much of a gap between filming and ending.

I started filming my makeover when I was 20.

I filled it starting 11 months ago when I first moved into this apartment.

And it has really, like, made me reflect on how much I've changed over the past year.

It was So you're watching me from a year ago because I was trying to be this, like, very punchy version of myself.

I thought this folk how high road?

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I think I was just so terrified of ever being boring, so I would do like 50 takes of the same sucking line like tryingto get it to be a little bit funnier than it was before to be absolutely forever to film anything.

Okay, there's a saying in comedy writing that you're supposed to have three jokes for Paige and pages about a minute off.

Yeah, so I don't think I like literally talking as like I should have at least three jokes prevented, which is sometimes the harder quota to hit.

When you don't have a script and a team of writers line, you feel like having a film degree has been very useful in terms of like editing and how I think about logs.

But it has also been a little bit detrimental when the way you think about your own personality on camera and your own life is in terms of like a screenplay.

And it might be able to tell this video because I've literally opened it in the most boring way possible and just talking about myself for, like, five minutes for a missing location.

I let go of that a little bit and just be like it's okay to be your normal cells on camera.

People will tolerate your regular personality.

Sometimes I feel dumb talking about these like you worry problems, but I feel like maybe they're interesting to you guys.

Anyways, I'm trying to relax a little bit if you like.

For the past two years, I've just been, like, building and building and building my YouTube channel.

And I used to look at my statistics so much and be like I'm not gaining 3000 subscribers in a day than I sailed.

And I don't look at that anymore because honestly, like, I am so fucking happy with the number of subscribers I have.

Like, I am more than honor to have 2.4 billion immunize.

So now I'm just trying to focus what, like making really good shit that I'm proud of or just having fun And like being myself, I sound like an inspirational poster I've been trying to, like, actually get dressed at the beginning of every single day because for a while I would just like to be in my giant pajama shirt all day and you work from home and buy yourself a lot.

Somebody just have to take those like extra steps to make himself feel like a real person and not just like potato.

So here's my outfit.

These jeans are the revised rib cage jeans, and I was so good I cannot stand high rise jeans that are like nine inches.

Now I need 12 inches like my neck was is from honor jewelry, and then my earrings are from my collection with on her jewelry.

Okay, before I get too distracted, I'm gonna write down my to do list for today in Michael told Bullet Journal First up apartment.

I finished the entire edit on my apartment makeover, but I don't have a meal yet.

It's been taking me forever to get because it will leave right outside for fucking, like five hours of the day because it's winter.

So if the sun keeps setting before, I have a chance to dress up and get it from me because I've just been editing the entire time Christmas cards plus gifts.

Yes, it is the 22nd.

I am massively behind on my Christmas cards in case, But again, I've been editing for like, three weeks straight.

I've just been on the work bender.

That's what I call them.

It's like a regular bender, but minus the alcohol and plus working.

This is my first year putting money into my retirement fund.

I'm very, very excited, but I have Thio text my accounting back about that lean apartment.

Okay, here, in my with first up on the agenda is cleaning out my apartment.

I swear, no matter how hard I try in my apartment, default state is just one of pure chaos.

So I'm just trying to fight it the best way.

Look at all the leaves falling.

So pretty.

So here I have my camera set up and I'm going to start shooting my thumbnail.

I figured I'd walk you guys through the process.

And I feel like I never show you guys this type of behind the scenes.

What frame this baby?

Yeah, I think it like really your visit because I feel like nowadays that makes or breaks, you know, you have to market your video in a way that is the right five RC and friendly, but like a little bit funny, but also like aesthetic.

And it's so hard to fit in, like this tiny, tiny little picture, the entire mood of, like, 42 minute video.

So I do have this.

You're a soldier for the days of the tube when they would just pick the thumbnail for you.

And all of the details are just people who are like There is a big day for conversation and must have saved people so much time They didn't have to do this bullshit.

I'm also gonna try a version with this outfit.

This composition is very and white and brown, so I feel like having a pop of color could kind of help make it look more interesting.

Composition looks a little sparse.

I could do was got me breaking Break it, Break it, break it!

Always present.

OK, here I have imported all of the footage of me posing.

I have created a marker at all of like my potential thumbnails.

Also, when I'm doing this, all normally go thio view 12.5% And it makes the thumbnail about the same size that you actually see it on YouTube so I can play around with, like, font and composition and see what is actually readable at a thumbnail size share save current frame and then saved my desktop.

Then over on procreate on my ipad, I adds a handwriting, do some minor color correction at a couple of doodles.

And here is how the final thumbnail turned out.

Not bad, if I say so myself.

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I think you're quick introduction to make brownies because I want to go.

I don't have a mixing bowl, so I think I'm just gonna make sitting inside this man.

Is that bacon in the pan?

It doesn't stick everywhere.

I have had some people asked me like what it is and stuff like that.

And you want me to hold video talk about this, but I really don't.

I know things work differently for everybody, but like I did the whole 30 for awhile, I counted all my calories on the APP for a while.

And for me, that was just like I'm gonna help You should have with food.

It made me feel like guilty every time I ate.

But then also, I was like, constantly thinking about the next time that I actually have dessert or actually have, like, people that I wanted.

And now you feel like it's all about balance would be, like, sometimes always something healthy.

Sometimes I'm just in a mood for brownies, and that's totally fine.

I feel like sometimes fitness culture is just like thinly veiled old school values off telling people that they should lose weight, look thinner, like look more attractive like when I was dieting and doing the whole stuff like genuinely just told myself it was because I wanted to be healthier, breathing deep down.

My motivation was just that I wanted to lose weight.

I really like how my body looked.

So I think those have always been entangled for me.

Which is why I kind of like a void fitness culture as a whole.

I just hate that like Overall winner told that food and how much you weigh is such a central part of your life.

Oh, I actually read a good thing from Tony.

It was all arranged for him.

It was like, Who is a way of showing yourself?

You're worthy of love Like I was really cool way of putting it because I feel like I have always used food as, like, a punishment or as something that I felt guilty about.

But I think at the end of the day, it's just another part of life you could enjoy.

I know this is a controversial opinion.

Please don't subscribe, but I hate the corners of brownies and I only like the edge pieces of the middle because I like it gooey.

Sorry, well, retirement.

I feel like a real adult now.

I've literally made so many jokes about, like, not being a real adult with a 401 k and my shit together.

But now I do have a 41 Okay, Not sure if I have my shit together, but we're getting there retirement kids, because the boomers will probably destroy Social Security for us.

Although maybe you just like the Earth will implode before we ever retired.

And I'll never get to use that money.

So place your bets now, kids.

Which one will come first?

So growing up, my mom would always have me handle all of my cards.

I would handle Christmas cards, birthday cards for everybody in my very extended Asian family.

Thank you.

Cards get well, cards, the whole shebang.

I remember around the holidays would actually get so stressful because I would have to turn out like 20 Christmas cards right after I finished my finals.

So I always kind of resented the fact that my mom made me hand roll of these cards.

But now I think it's actually a really good skill to have because I don't know, nobody actually takes time physically bacon send stuff anymore.

So I feel I can draw cards extra special.

Okay, I'm not gonna lie.

This is probably one of the worst Christmas cards I've ever made.

It's very off center, but I don't know.

Mr Sand is kind of cute.

Okay, let's try again.

These gold pins, by the way.

Absolutely.

Come the fuck through.

Even if you just draw out a simple merry Christmas, The fact that it's metallic makes it seem like you put in a lot of effort.

Okay, Now, the actual hard part is writing in these because I just like, I never quite know what to say to my relatives.

I know that sounds awful and, you know, I love love and shit, but I, like, literally see them once every two years, So I always like very Christmas.

I hope you're doing well.

I hope to see you soon, and that's it.

Let me know if you guys have a similar problem.

But my like family is just super spread out like my dad is from England.

So my grandfather lives in like north London.

My mom's side is a recently from Burma, but she grew up in Minnesota when they immigrated.

My grandparents on my own uncle or in Northern California and my other on uncle are in Oregon.

Oh, and I grew up in Maryland, of course, So we're just, like, incredibly, spread out.

There's always an interesting to me, like people who grow up with their grandparents and their cousins, like down the street from them.

That's kind of cool.

That something I never really experienced.

But I also I'm kind of grateful that my family so spread out because I never felt like I was tied down to my hometown because, like my mom and dad, both just like he did the hell where they grew up.

And they never made me feel guilty for doing the same thing.

Which is nice, because, like, for something like film, I just wouldn't have been able to do that if I want to stay in Maryland, Okay, turns out I only own birthday wrapping paper, and it's very squished Birthday wrapping paper at that.

So I am going to make my own wrapping paper out of print.

Your favorite.

I'm just gonna draw little hearts on it.

My mom used to wrap gifts and, like comics or recipes from the newspaper, so I feel like it's all fair game.

It always gets stuck.

Look them in the mail.

It is my jewelry samples from on route.

I talked about it and pretty much every single video.

But I designed a jewelry collection and everything was in gold.

It was mostly like Golden Pearl details.

I wanted it to be very vintage inspired, but a lot of you guys have been asking for a silver version because if it's your skin tone better and we have been silver version of the safety hearings, so actually, let me see if I can find it is almost impossible to see the difference on camera.

So you guys gonna think I'm crazy when I'm talking about this?

But this was the original sample that I received for the silver version of the Safety pin hearing, and the wire was a little bit thinner.

I think it was probably like 0.2 millimetres thinner than the old one, so I had them.

When you make it with a wire that's exactly the same as the old one, because I really wanted the same proportions on the same kind of level of tension in the safety pin.

Otherwise, it feels a little bit flimsy when you close it.

If the wire isn't thick enough, and second of all, this color was a little bit too light for me, and I wanted a silver option that was a little bit darker.

You could, like, nearly see the color difference if I hope it like this.

It's literally like not even half a shade darker.

But little stuff like that makes a big difference to me.

Let's try it.

Take off this necklace because it's cool and it's distracting.

Look so cute.

I'm gonna get in touch with honor team and we're gonna talk launch timeline and stuff like that.

We were originally hoping to get them out before Christmas so that you guys could get them as Christmas gifts.

But like I mentioned before, I had a couple of notes about the original round, and I want to make sure that they were perfect.

But yeah, hopefully these will be coming out in the next few weeks.

I will keep you guys updated high.

Okay?

It is very rainy and dark out, so you can't really see me, but I'm going to move my car right now because I don't have a parking spot.

So we have street feeding on Monday and Tuesday.

So on Sunday night, I have to move my car into a Tuesday street cleaning spot so that I don't get a $75 ticket, which is a fun little just like l a trap hot take.

But I feel like it is all just a elaborate ploy to get people to pay $75 in parking tickets.