I thought of many ways to begin, but I have no idea how to truly approach this subject for anyone.

Watching this video isn't gonna be about Japan this time.

What other videos?

That Japan go check out my shell in this to them.

But this video is gonna be a bit different.

I think everyone has a past it sometimes they're not proud of and usually with my age ranges around 2000 70,008 kind of thing.

That's usually when, uh when stuff went down with the whole fashion and attitude.

I just in serious cyber stalking last night of my old self, I found some stuff that I do not remember rising.

I fell away back to 2008 which is probably the prime of of my life.

I'm not here to say that I was stupid.

I respect everything that I did, and that's helped me become who I am today.

But I did find my old fan fiction websites.

I was really into my chemical romance and spending it with this guy any trashy two dozen eight is that you would know about for Rod and riding, which is the gay love stories between Gerard and Frank you from Michael Agreements and Ryan Rose and Brendan Yuri from I feel nauseous.

And yes, sir, I managed to find my old fan fiction sites.

I won't give you the correct spelling that I use or anything.

So don't get hacked my account if you find this.

But, uh, my name is X X Death plague X X, which is, um, painful to read.

Another one is M o vampire.

Okay, I need to get into this.

I'm gonna read you some fan fiction's.

I'll believe anything that is inappropriate, but straight.

My bio.

April 10th.

Yeah, I'm a riding and Ferrari maniac.

I love Aidan and kill Hannah.

What did kill Hannis?

Unlike I like vampires, I suck it fan fiction.

And yeah, that meds.

M e s read my fan fiction and re Veum.

I think I would say we're viewing, but it hasn't.

And instead of a w on review Mitt, for God's sake review it review my stuff.

But especially the one about vampires Low.

I've even forgotten the name.

Okay, so there's this five stories here.

There's the survivor, The description is vampires, Madness, death, love.

And then there are the joys of being invisible.

The snow is falling down on me for Rod, inspired by a dream.

And in this the moon is falling.

Our prayers were wasted.

No need to forget Ryan and Brendan.

We are going to go for the survivor because it got rained on its own, one that got rated.

I sit on my window sill, stare out into the night.

I listen to the police and ambulance sirens.

I listen to the screens of unsuspecting knifing victim.

I don't want to listen to anything anymore, but I have to.

There is no escaping the sound after all.

I don't even have the glass for my window.

I hear footsteps below my window.

There's a lot of loud scuffling outside on the bricks is someone was.

Something tries to climb the wall.

I watched as a teenage girl lifts herself into my room.

She flips over the winter, selling lands on the hardwood floor with a loud and painful.

You're not very good at this, All you She looks up being glad, and you could have done better.

Well, no mean to only brag, but Yes, I could have done better than you.

But then again, so could a small but energetic carrot.

We're just gonna keep going.

Oh, he's a vampire.

I don't think I can read this anymore.

Like it's not funny.

It's just It's just that writing, which is fine.

I was 12 or 13.

Okay, We're gonna go for it.

The moon is falling out.

President wasted.

No need to forget.

Name.

Ryan Ross.

Age 16.

High school.

Bell of Lee Bell.

Believe State high school.

Yep.

That's me, Ryan Rose.

I've been at the school for ages now, and I've never really fitted in here.

I'm kind of a reject, if that's how you'd like to put it.

I tell my parents that I have friends that I fit in at school.

Lies I'm out cost.

I also have this horrible habit of licking my lips.

It happens that I notice, especially when I'm around people.

What a setup.

I bet that's gonna 10 sexual at one point.

Hey, obeys God.

Not him.

Anyone but him.

Oh, yeah.

I told you about Jared.

Jared Leto.

Brian Ross gets out some scissors and cuts Jared's all Martin in with them and this girlfriend who court is the biggest ever is give.

It's about 8 30 now, in a way for my teacher to arrive to pass the time I draw in my diary.

It's a picture of an angel Angelus Black Wings and she is covered in blood.

It's saying, love never hurt this much before.

Look up to see my teachers into the classroom.

Everybody, I would like you to meet a new student, Brendan.

Yuri.

Okay, I read in your age 16.

I was so excited to be 16.

At that point, I was just, like, so ready to stop being this awkward pubis.

It mess well, if I have to sit somewhere, I don't want to sit next to any of these people.

They look like they might kill me if they had a shotgun or a freight train or a box of chocolates.

The list goes on.

I'm skipping some bits, his eyes alike, massively oversized puppy dog eyes made out of chocolate.

Both is not how hot the next chapter get.

So e more high.

French, you know, emotional.

What's okay, Ryan, seizing in the rain by myself, just like old times side silence.

Something's different missing Brendan.

Snap out of it.

You barely barely felt as in b a r y.

You barely even know him.

He could never love you.

You're pathetic.

You look like a I take out a mirror for my messenger value.

Look at myself.

My eyeliner is running down my cheeks Is the rain hits my face Oh, my God.

Oh, my actual Izzy.

Is he actually gonna I reached into my bag and feel my senses?

No, I don't want to use these things.

They have touched paper and gems and is Jared.

Sure they're cutting themselves.

Oh, Jesus.

Now they're making out.

Not that drinking each other's blood.

I always There was a dream.

He was in the hospital the whole time.

Hey, guys, ever from the future here I was just editing the video.

Turns out I have way too much footage to make one video Unless it's like, keeps long.

Even with heaps of editing.

It's just like too much stuff because they were many fan fiction's.

So I'm thinking I might make multiple videos, but for now, I'm just gonna have this one.

If it does well, people enjoy it, then.

Sure, I'll upload.

Warn I'll edit more.

My main point with reading and fan fictions and talking about my experiences is not.

It is to make fun of miles up, but it's also to be like it's okay that I went to that.

It's okay for other people are going through that.

And after going through a lot of these fan fictions and seeing posts that I've written and reading that stuff, it is important to note that I was actually, um, a bit sad at that time and I was going through some stuff.

So it's good to know that.

Like if you see someone who dresses a bit differently right to Cubby, fan fiction is going through the stage that you find might be embarrassing to look at.

It's okay.

Just let them do their thing and just be there any some support because it might really help person.

But because I'm future me, I'm allowed to go back and really roast what I was doing.

But yeah, basic message.

Be nice to people and only laugh with them, not at them.

Okay, guys, Thanks for watching.

And I'll see you in the next video.

John.

Still am.