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- I SAW YOU AT THE--
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AT GUY'S PARTY AFTER THE OSCARS,
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AND WE SPOKE FOR A LITTLE WHILE.
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AND I WAS CONGRATULATING YOU,
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BECAUSE I AM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR COMING OUT,
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AND I'M HAPPY FOR YOU.
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[cheers and applause]
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I KNOW WHAT A SCARY THING THAT IS.
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YOUR SPEECH WAS INCREDIBLE.
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I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS
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THE MOST BRILLIANTLY WRITTEN SPEECH.
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- THANKS.
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- I WANT TO SHOW--
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I WANT TO SHOW A LITTLE TINY BIT OF IT RIGHT NOW.
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- HERE I AM, AN ACTRESS
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REPRESENTING, AT LEAST IN SOME SENSE, AN INDUSTRY
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THAT PLACES CRUSHING STANDARDS ON ALL OF US,
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STANDARDS THAT, I HATE TO ADMIT, HAVE AFFECTED ME.
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AND I AM HERE TODAY BECAUSE I AM GAY
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AND BECAUSE--
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[cheers and applause]
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- I KNOW HOW SCARY THAT IS.
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YOU STILL GET EMOTIONAL?
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- YEAH. - YEAH.
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I CAN SEE THAT YOU'RE EMOTIONAL JUST WATCHING THAT.
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I WAS LIKE THAT FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS
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AFTER I CAME OUT.
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IT'S A SCARY THING TO VERBALIZE, TO SAY IT OUT LOUD.
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HOW NERVOUS WERE YOU?
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- UH, THE MOST NERVOUS I'VE EVER BEEN IN MY LIFE,
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FOR SURE.
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I THINK MY BIGGEST FEAR OF DOING IT
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WAS EVEN JUST HAVING A PANIC ATTACK, QUITE FRANKLY.
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- UH-HUH.
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- BUT, YOU KNOW, I WAS JUST SO READY TO DO IT
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AND, QUITE FRANKLY, SO EXCITED TO DO IT,
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SO IT WAS A COMBINATION OF JUST SUCH THRILL
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TO FINALLY BE AT THAT PLACE IN MY LIFE
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WHERE I WAS ABLE TO DO THAT
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AND GRATEFUL TO HAVE THAT MOMENT
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AND GRATEFUL TO YOU, BECAUSE YOU DID IT
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IN A TIME WHEN IT WAS MUCH HARDER AND MUCH SCARIER.
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SO IT'S--
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[applause]
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- IT'S, UM--
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IT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT AT THE TIME,
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BUT IT'S A VERY SELFISH THING TO DO.
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IT REALLY IS JUST THE MOST--
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I MEAN, I CAN SPEAK FOREVER ON IT,
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BUT HOW DO YOU FEEL SINCE YOU'VE DONE IT?
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- YOU KNOW, I KNEW I WOULD BE A HAPPIER PERSON.
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I KNEW THAT I WAS GONNA FEEL BETTER.
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AND I DID NOT ANTICIPATE JUST HOW HAPPY I WOULD FEEL.
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AND JUST EVERY ASPECT OF MY LIFE,
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JUST AN EASE AND A COMFORT.
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AND IT'S--IT'S REALLY BEEN QUITE EXTRAORDINARY
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TO FEEL JUST THE SHIFT.
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IT WAS PRETTY MUCH OVERNIGHT TOO.
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- YEAH, IT IS, BECAUSE YOU'RE RELEASING SHAME.
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I MEAN, AND ANYONE-- IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT IT IS,
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WHAT YOU'RE CARRYING AROUND THAT'S YOUR SECRET.
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EVERYONE HAS SOMETHING THAT YOU'RE CARRYING AROUND
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THAT YOU'RE ASHAMED OF.
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AND TO CARRY SHAME AROUND IS A--
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FIRST OF ALL, IT CAUSES DISEASE.
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IT'S--YOU JUST CAN'T-- IT'S A HORRIBLE THING,
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TO BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF.
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- YES, IT'S TOXIC, AND I THINK WE TALKED ABOUT THIS A BIT,
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WHERE, YOU KNOW, YOU THINK YOU'RE AT A PLACE
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WHERE YOU'RE LIKE, "OH, I'M HAPPY TO BE GAY.
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"I'M SO COMFORTABLE BEING GAY.
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I LOVE BEING GAY."
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AND, HONESTLY, IT WASN'T UNTIL MAKING THAT CHOICE
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AND DOING THAT WHERE I REALIZED, LIKE, NO,
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I WAS CARRYING A TREMENDOUS AMOUNT OF SHAME
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AND GUILT FOR NOT BEING OUT
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AND FELT ISOLATED FROM THE LGBT COMMUNITY.
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AND NOW I DON'T, SO...
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- YEAH, IT'S--YOU KNOW, I THINK YOU SEEM MORE RELAXED,
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AND I THINK THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT JUST NOT HAVING TO WORRY
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ABOUT SOMEBODY CATCHING YOU IN A LIE.
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I KNOW WHAT THAT'S LIKE WHEN YOU'RE ON A SHOW
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AND YOU'RE JUST--YOU JUST FEEL LIKE YOU'RE WAITING
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FOR SOMEONE TO GO, "YOU'RE GAY!
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[laughter]
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I KNOW YOU ARE!"
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- YEAH, YES, ABSOLUTELY.
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IT'S SO NICE TO JUST, YOU KNOW, BE AT WORK
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AND TALK ABOUT AN EX OR, YOU KNOW,
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GET TO WEAR WHAT YOU WANT
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AND NOT HAVE A CONVERSATION ABOUT IT
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AND TO FEEL LIKE YOU'RE BEING YOURSELF
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AND THEN CONNECT WITH PEOPLE IN THE WORLD.
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YOU KNOW, IT'S SO NICE TO HAVE PEOPLE COME UP TO ME
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AND TELL ME THEIR STORY
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OR, YOU KNOW, SAY, "HEY, I'M CLOSETED.
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DO YOU HAVE ADVICE?"
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AND, YOU KNOW, THOSE ARE REALLY BEAUTIFUL MOMENTS
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TO GET TO SHARE WITH PEOPLE.
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- YEAH, YEAH, AND TO KNOW THAT YOU'RE ANOTHER FACE
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THAT SOMEONE HAS HOPE FOR,
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'CAUSE THERE ARE A LOT OF TEENAGERS OUT THERE--
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YOU TALK ABOUT IN YOUR SPEECH--
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THAT ARE GETTING BULLIED EVERY SINGLE DAY
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OR TAKING THEIR OWN LIVES
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BECAUSE THEY'RE, YOU KNOW-- THEY CAN'T HANDLE IT.
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AND SO IT'S A REALLY COOL THING.